Tuesday, May 09, 2006

"arr q", "piss", "arr kum"

"ARR Q"
that is ryan's version of thank you. Whenever i give him something or i ask him to do something i always say thank you. teaching him that he has to say thank you if somebody give something.
Everyday, after i bath him and comb his hair , he will say "arr q" and kiss kiss (kiss me on my lips)
** that melts my heart***

"PISS"
ryan's version of please. I teach him how to say please at the right time. Everytime, i change his diaper he likes to kick his leg, so i always say "ryan please mou tek(dun kick)". so nowadays, everytime i change his diaper, he will tease me firs by kicking once and twice then he will say "piss piss" --kinda waiting for me to say please to him..when i say please, then he will stop kicking and he will say "okie"
**such a cheeky boy*

"ARR KUM"
ryan's version of welcome... he is learning the welcome word nowadays..not as good with the thank you though.. but when he say "ar q" , i will say u r welcome.. then he will follow me and says "arr kum"

**his english is not that good..but hopefully will be better as time goes by**

Sold-- Closing date June 16th

My PIL's house is sold and the closing date is June 16th. Sighhhhhhhh.. how i feel abt it? Funny and stressful!
WHY? well, some of u guys know the relatioship between my mil and myself. (some of u that dunno, u can find out from my very first blog).
In summary, our relationship is like the typical mil and dil. She was the reason that we moved out and got our own place eventhough we were not ready to buy a house back then.
ANyway, the shocking news to me now is they are moving in with us!!!!
How funnny and weird this is?

I can't believe this! they are the one chasing us out...n now they wanna move in back with us :(
As time goes by everyday nowadays, i am feeling crazy and nervous.
I can't imagine how it will be when they move in. I can't say no coz they got no place to live...well, they can live with their daughter in mississauga..but to them.. is shameful to live with daughter.

Sighhhhhhhhhhhh... butttttttttttttttttttttttt..the good news is.. i am trying to make the worst situation into better situation.. as in enrolling myself in nursing course. i am thinking of taking a 2 years full time nursing course next january..and while mil is at home..she can take care of Ryan for me.
I need to get out and mix with ppl..i need it badly.
SO i hope everything turn out good.
Why next jan and not this sept? well because PIL are going back this coming august for Kit's elder bro wedding.
and why i didn't send ryan to daycare? coz we cannot afford and i don't want ryan to forget his chinese language.
Furthermore, MIL is athome and is flexible for me to arrange the time. Least i have peace of mind what Ryan is gonna eat and do. :)
there are pros and cons for this situation. I know there will be conflicts here and there..but i have to bite my tongue for it.
BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT..for sure this time will be different coz this is my house and not her house..
my rules and not hers :))

Thursday, May 04, 2006

very very busy

These few weeks i will be very busy coz i am helping Kit summarizing his notes (exam next saturday) as well as helping my in-laws selling their house.
Very tiring and exhausting travelling in and out everyday. :(
I will keep u guys posted when everything settled down :)

Furthermore i am having the pollen alergies lately..sighhh..so sien man... i dun wanna take the allergies pills coz it will come back again next year..trying to fight it very hard! ai yai yai..with watery eyes..stuffy nose and snezzing all the time.
BLame my imported nose here...

okie dokie...will try to update my blog after 2 weeks time :)

Friday, April 21, 2006

Ryan's language Part 2

This morning

The weather is getting warmer and this morning i woke up around 5.30 am to go to the bathroom and after that i left the room door open coz it was abit warm. After that i went back to sleep. Around 7.30 am Ryan got up and he climbed down from the bed (he sleeps with me) and went outside the room, after awhile he came back and came near me and say "saap saap" (wet wet in cantonese) and i can barely open my eyes..and the first thing i saw was he was holding a diaper and asking me to change for him..
Aweeeeeeeeeeeee at that time even how sleepy i was...i was like melted and got up and change for him.. he is soo sweet now.. :)

Last monday

Ryan got up early on that day..dunno why...he woke up around 6.30 am..that is the time kit was getting ready for work. Ryan got soo upset and wanna follow Kit to work.. crying and got cranky.. we told him that daddy has to go to work and will come back later to play with u..okie..
he was still crying n wanted Kit to carry him.
Then all of a sudden he said "fai fai fun" (faster come back home) ... boyyy..i felt soo touch ..and happy feeling in my heart ... he got soo attached to his daddy :)

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Business and Company Law

Boyyyyyyy it's been awhile since i took that 2 subjects : Business and Company law.. not my favourite subjects but i had to do it to collect my credit points in order to graduate.
I remember having hard time to study and understand the law terms but certain parts really fun to study..such as contract sections.

Why am i suddenly talking abt these 2 subjects? Well, Kit has enrolled himself for an exam of Ontario Association of Certified Engineering Technicians and Technologist certificate and this exam is next May 13th.
the first 2 parts of this certificate involve Business and Company Law. Oh boyy, our dear friend here hasn't start any of it yet..
Very smart of him, never want to waste anymore time..asking me to summarize the law part for him so that he just read my notes insteas of the whole book.

It is tough to study part time while working full time and having family as well. Ryan is constantly glued to Kit whenever Kit is home from work. Sometimes i really pitty Kit coz he never gets the rest at all. Least i get 1-2 hours rest when Ryan is taking his afternoon nap.
Ryan is more a daddy's boy than a mommy's boy...lucky me for that..hehehehe

Gotta go study now.. is hard to study now when u stop studying for so long ....need some boost juice for my brain...tea? coffee? aiks...cannot la..rosak my diet...drink water la.. :)

Try to save money??

Sigh... today i received 2 calls from Kit saying that he has to send his car for repair. First call happenened at 11 am, telling me that this morning his car making lotsa noise..he was afraid that he couldn't make it back home after work..so he decided to send the car for repair at nearby Canadian Tire ( a shop specialize in auto repair and selling home hardware stuff).
He told me that his car got some problems with the bearing at both side... (this happened because last year he sent his car for a fixed (same problem) at a local individual repair shop. Not well equiped with the right tools but cost less. So instead of saving a few hundreds last year, we ended up paying more now. Kit told me at 11 am, the repair cost abt 900 bucks.
When i heard it, i was like we could use that money to buy another second hand car, maybe a toyota or honda..but we have no choice coz we needed the car badly.

Then, another call came in around 2 plus...telling me that the shop called him and told him they found another bigger problem..the bearing hub ( i am not sure is the correct spelling..and i am not really know what is he talking abt coz i dunno abt cars) well the hub has pretty much damaged due to last time the repair man didn't fix the bearing correctly..
so in order to change 2 hubs.. it will cost all together 1800 bucks
phewwwwwwwwwwwwwww
i was like going to faint when i heard it..

u see we are not soo rich, surviving with single income..is pretty hard when things like that happen to u.
anyway, $1800 is way alot..but worth it... coz kit has to drive long distance everyday to work..i rather pay it first than sorrie later if anything happens to him..
I just hope that we dun have any emergency kinda thing like this happen.....for at least this year...hehehehe
coz we are streching the line way too much now...almost reaching to the thin line here eh..

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Ryan's time to blog

vvvmvmm gjgggggjjgjjjjjggjjjjhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuqqqqqquuuooooooooo


okie..this is what Ryan has typed .. well, at first i thought i wanna update my blog..but before i can start anything...he already got up from his nap..

I thought..what the hey.... let him type something.. :)

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Pork curry bun



This is my first time baking bun. I have surfed around for the dough recipe and i got it. Kit has bought me a bread machine and i have been baking own bread lately. Today i thought i'll try the curry bun.
For the curry filling, i have followed my dad's curry recipe. Well, instead of chicken i have used pork coz i have ran out of chicken breast.

Curry Recipe:
2 cups of thinly sliced chicken/pork/beef
3 diced cube potatoes

4 cloves of garlic
4 small red onion
2 shallots
1 small piece of ginger
4 tablespoon of meat curry powder( i used malaysia Allagapas brand)

2 teaspoon of chili powder

Step 1: Peel all the garlic, onion, and ginger and blend them into a paste form.
Step2: Season the meat with some salt, sugar and pepper. if u r using chicken, add some chicken stock powder.
Step3: Mix the curry powder and chilli powder into the onion,garlic and ginger paste to make red in colour. If u r in malaysia, u dun have to blend the ginger,onion and garlic ingredients coz u can buy it at the wet market with the "chili boh" in it.
Step 4: Heat the pot with 4 tablespoon oil and start saute the curry paste till fragrant
Step 5: Stir fry the diced potatoes in another pan..while waiting for the curry paste to get fragrant
Step6: After the curry paste get some fragrant, pour in 1 cup of milk/coconut milk (i prefer milk-more healthy)..hehe
Step 7: Stir in the seasoned meat and cook it for 5 mins
Step 8: Pour in the half cooked potatoes into the curry and cook in a slow heat for 10 mins
Step 9: Add some salt and pepper to taste.
Step10: Stir constantly till the curry gravy got dry.

Bread Recipe Dough
2 tablespoon sugar
2 1/2 teaspoon instant yeast
1 1/4 teaspoon salt
3 cups all purpose flour(if u r in Canada, u can use Canadian all purpose flour, if u r in US/other country u use bread flour)
1 tablespoon olive oil/vegetable oil/shortening
1 large egg
1 cup + 2 tablespoon warm water

Topping
1 egg,ligtly beaten with 3 tablespoon water

Bread machine method: Place all the dough ingredients into the pan of ur bread machine in the order recommended by the manufacturer (usually, liquids first, yeast last). Program the machine for dough or manual, & press Start. Check the dough about 10 mins before the end of the final kneading cycle and adjust its consistency as neccessary by adding additional water of flour to form a soft, smooth ball. Allow the machine to complete its cycle, then allow the dough to remain in the machine till it's tripled in bulk, perhaps for another hour.

Manual/mixer method: In a medium-sized mixing bowl, combine all the dough ingredients, and mix until the dough starts to leave the sides of the bowl. Transfer the dough to a lightly greased or floured surface, and knead it for 6 to 8 minutes, or until it's smooth and shiny. Or knead it in a mixer using the dough hook.

Place the dough in a lightly greased bowl or rising bucket,turn to coat, cover the container with plastic wrap, and let the dough rise till it's trippled in bulk. (approximate 2-3 hours)

Shaping: Turn the dough out onto a lightly greased or lightly floured work surface, and divide it into 8 pieces, each abt 3 ounces (85g), a bit smaller than a tennis ball. Cover the dough pieces, and let them rest while u prepare the filling of ur choice.

Cover the unsed dough pieces with a damp cloth or plastic wrap as u work. Working with one piece at a time, use ur fingers to flaten it into a 4-inch round whose edges are slightly thinner than the center. Place a heaping tablespoon of the filling in the center of the dough, pull the edges into the center to enclose the filling, pinch to seal, then give the pinched edged a twist, to seal even more securely. Place the buns sealed-side-down on a lightly greased or parchment-lined baking sheet. Repeat with the remaining dough pieces and filling,placing buns abt 2 inches apart on the baking sheet. Cover the buns with proof cover or lightly greased plastic wrap. After 45 mins, brush them with the topping, and re-cover. After 1 hour(15 mins later), brush them agian with the topping.

Baking: Bake the buns in a preheated 350F ove for 30 mins or until they are golden brown.


*The dough recipe is taken from www.kingarthurflour.com
Courtesy of Mrs Chiu*

* you can put any filling u want i.e. red bean, curry chicken, egg and ham..etc*


**** I have tasted one of the bun...it taste not too bad...for a first timer..although the bread texture is a little bit dry..maybe i can improve it next time.. :)
I hope kit will like it..maybe Ryan too..yup..he is learning how to eat chili now.. have to..malaysian background maa :)*****

Monday, April 17, 2006

"Siew Siew" (Smile Smile)






Ryan loves to take pictures and he loves to post for u whenever he sees u hold a camera. He learned the word "siew siew" means smile smile in cantonese. So last friday while Kit was surfing the net, he saw the digital camera..and he said "siew siew" non-stop.
What to do.. have to take pictures lor... here are some pics taken last friday and Sunday at the Waterfront trail. :)

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Best friend made my day

Last night i was not feeling very good..not that i was sick though..but emotionally i was a little bit down... don't wish to go in detail overhere..
anyway..got up quite early this morning..around 6 am...(usually i wake up at 8) .couldn't sleep at all... got bad headache..and felt very moody and down. I thought i can wash up and go for a walk alone b4 Kit goes to work around 6.40am.
At least a small walk around the block...get some fresh air...maybe can wash away the mushy and mashy feeling..
While i was brushing my teeth..Ryan got up and tagging along whereever i go...sigh..rosak plan pulak...
so we went downstairs..heat some milk for him to drink...change his diaper...and i look at the clock it was 6.20 am..and quite bright outside. SO i thought hey..why not i stroll Ryan round the block..it will be the same...
I know ..i know..is dangerous..very early and quite..but i like it quite..so i took the chance..
Well we did enjoy ourselves...i did some workout... and i took him to a playground..very nearby the house...he managed to have some fun there...
but we didn't stay long though..coz it was a littly breezy and chilly!

We got home around 7.30 am... i wash his hands and face again..n gave him his bottle of milk and we watch sesame street show together. :)
It was fun and i decided to give my best friend a call. She is my highschoolmate and best friend..
The conversation went so well...i actually miss her alot...and it really feels good when u get to catch up with ur old pal :)
she really made my day!

After talking to her.. Ryan and myself went out to the backyard for another fun thing. I clean up my garden and get prepared for spring and summer plants..and Ryan was getting busy with the dirt and jumping on the puddle!
yup..another busy and dirty day for RYan....
more work for me to do lor...more washing :) but i never complain...i dun mind the washing..as long as he had fun! :)

My day so far ..went pretty well..eventhough is just 2 plus pm rite now.. I am happy :)

Friday, April 07, 2006

Ryan's language

Well ryan has already turn 2 years old and his vocabulary has increased a little bit. When he was 1 year plus he can only speaks "nen nen" (milk in chinese), "arrr tttuuuu" (RYan's version of love u),"tat tat" (doing big business or pee pee), hellooooooo, bye bye..

yup that's about it... doctor said some children develop pretty slow on speech..therefore.. i have to talk more to Ryan everyday.. like as if i am talking to an adult...
Well, my effort pay off ..hehehe..rite now he can say lotsa words other than the words above..

Now he can say :

ooorr seee ar (doing big business arr in cantonese)

orrr niuu
(pee pee in cantonese)

yai yai
(notty in cantonese)

ngan ngan
(eye in cantonse)

pei pei
(nose in cantonse)

arr chai
(ear in cantonese..the rite word is yee chai.. it seems like he cannot pronounce the front word..and he likes to replace with ar)

arr pin
(niu pin for diaper in cantonese)

arr fun
(sek fan for eat rice or dinner in cantonese)

arr teen
(mou teen for no more battery in cantonese ..coz Ryan loves to play remote control car that Kit bought for him till no more battery)

cookie-
this english word he learns from sesame street's cookie monster..and furthermore whenever i am changing him and he saw cookie monster picture on the diaper he will say cookie

no more
- he will say no more whenever he sees anything finish or the end..

sai sau
(wash hand in cantonese)

matt matt
(wipe in cantonese)

morning
-he will greet me morning when he woke up every morning

arr night
-he will greet me good night when he goes to sleep

meen meen
(face in cantonese-ryan's version of wash up) -he will say that to me after he greets me morning every morning.. that includes brushing teeth and wash his face

matt chai
(socks in cantonese)

and he improves his i love u already..and rite now he can say love u in full :))

boyyy he is growing very fast rite now... time really flies... we really treasure every moments we have with him...
and of course sometimes he really drive me nuts! hehehe what to do..he is a boy plus for the past months it was too cold for us to get out!
THank GOD the weather is getting warmer... yesterday was soo beautiful ..sunny and it was 12 degrees out there.
So i took the opportunity to do my laundry and let Ryan ran outside the backyard play some dirt. YUP he loves the dirt man..he even try to catch the earth worm...but of course i watch him so that he didn't put inside his mouth..heheheh
whenever he dig his hand into the dirt..he will say ..yucky yucky ar...hehehehe
then i say yea...dirt yucky yucky...but fun to play :)
i can't wait for summer to come..so that i can bring out the mini pool for him and play the water all he wants..
yesterday he was soo happy and tired from running around..he lay down on the deck...
at first i was like omigosh..i have to wash his clothes..is hard to wash man...but then on second thought..what the hey... is all worth it..let him enjoy being dirty once in awhile...i can always clean and wash..
:)

too bad today is gloomy day ...its been raining cats and dogs all day long since morning...that is why he is a little bit crancky today :(
but good news for the weekend...is going to be double digit tempreature ...n daddy is home yay!!!



Friday, March 31, 2006

i am on diet plan

Hey is about time that this big mama shed some pounds! yup my doc has made an appointment for me to meet a nutritionist on March 27th. I am in a serious stage where i weigh over 200lbs. Yeah u hear me... a person like me that stands 5 feet 2 tall weighs abt over 200lbs.. this is way serious man!
I am always on the plus size ..but after gave birth to Ryan i am getting even worst. Before i got pregnant i was only 160lbs yea...i was very happy..coz i never weigh that less...but after giving birth to Ryan..my weight just gone up and up.
This is due to i am always stayed at home especially during winter time... boyyyyy.... i ate and ate..whenever i feel bored. sigh...
Now i have to take control over my life..no more over eating ...and work out more!

So, my nutritionist has make a diet plan for every breakfast , lunch and dinner for me.
First rule of thumb, i must balance up every meal that i eat. That is, must have grains or pasta which is the carbo, then fruits or vege, milk or cheese and meat
Every meal i must balance up at least 3 category.
Ha! i learned this when i was in highschool but i never fully utilize it..kekekekek what a shame huh?

Second rule of thumb is must space out every meal at least 4-6 hours...
Hmmm..geeze this i have to force myself to do it..coz i am very easily drawn to snacking man!
So far i am doing good..its been 5 days i have started this diet plan... doing oki so far..but the first day was like hell for me!
Especially when i have to give Ryan snacks...kekkeke..can't help it! But on tuesday and wednesday..i was doing much better.. always reminded myself the look of Christie Ally ..boy she looks good now..after loosing over 60lbs with the help Jenny Craig..
But my goal is not really that big man.. i am aiming like going down below 200lbs first.. after that i am aiming like 5lbs at time.

OKie where was i... oh yea..the second rule of thumb... ..well if i can follow these 2 rules..i am doing pretty good already.
The next thing is.. i cannot snack..especially during 3-4 pm..ai yai ai yai.. that is when i needed the food the most..esp my tea man!
Ya.. and the worst part is..she said cut down on the caffaine ..my GOD! u see.. before i give birth to RYan..i am a coffee queen.. like my dad, sis and everyone of my family.. we are like addicted to NESCAFE! THanks to my DAD (used to work in NESTLE) and introduced NESCAFE to us when we were like 8 or 9 years old..kekkekeke
but after gaving birth to Ryan..i couldn't drink any coffee anymore..coz it gives me heartburn... alamak..like that no more caffaine for me lor..soooo i have no choice..gotta switch to TEA!
Before march 27th 2006 i was a tea "queen" ..now..the nutritionist ask me to change from a tea queen to a milk queen.
yup u guees it rite.. rite now while i am typing my blog..i am enjoying my cup of milk. She said women after giving birth must drink at least 2-3 cups of milk a day.. to build up the calcium back. Coz the baby took all the calcium from us..so we kinda need to replace it back. Furtheremore women reach 30 years old...they are starting to loose calcium each day bit by bit..is like our body no longer intake as many calcium as before... so women out there..start ur calcium intake man!
if u dun like milk...try to see ur pharmacist..talk to them...and ask them to give u some calcium supplements.
As for me, i have no problem with milk..i like milk very much! kekek..u can tell how fat am i..eventhough when i am young that time..i used to drink lotsa milk.
She asked me to switch to 1% milk instead of 2% milk (overhere our milk are sold in a 4 litre bags of milk which categorised from skimmed milk, 1% milk,2% milk,3.75%milk or homogenised milk) those percentage represent the fat level.

okie dokie...this is my diet plan:-

during breakfast 8.30-9am
i can eat
2 slices of toast OR
1 small bagel OR
1 english muffin OR
1 home baked muffin
PLUS
1tbsp of peanut butter + 1 tsp of jam or jelly
PLUS
1 cup of fruits (any kinds)
PLUS
1 cup of tea of coffee (with milk and 1 tsp of sugar)

*for my case..i drink tea with milk and no sugar

LUNCH 12.30pm-1pm
i can eat
2 slices of toast OR
1 large tortilla wrap (10 inch with soft flour) OR
3/4cup riceOR
1 cup of soup with one slice of bread or dinner roll
PLUS
1/4 tuna (with liget mayo, non hydrogenated margerine or butter)
OR
30z of meat
OR
1 egg
OR
2 slices of cold meat (ham)
OR
any amount of vege (if u are eating some leftover rice from yesterday dinner)
PLUS
1 cup of milk

Dinner 5.30pm-6pm
this menu is prepared for me only
3/4 cup of ricePLUS
4oz of any kinds of meatPLUS
any amounts of vege ( u can eat as much vege as u like)
PLUS
1 cup of milk

Nite time 9pm
any amount of fruits or a bowl of cereal with milk
this is like nite time snacking..kekekek


voila...this is my diet plan..i really hope it works for me...least i can shed a few lbs first...but of coz..i have to work out too...
the work out part..i will continue the next time ler..is abt this new toy that Kit bought. :)

Saturday, March 25, 2006

daddy and me
















Look at me and my daddy ;)
hehehe...Ryan and kit were just lying down on the bed..i thought i took their pics..

hey no regret..they look soo adorable :)


Thursday, March 23, 2006

dinner time






These pictures taken during dinner time tonite... i thought i load it up just for fun. Its been awhile i last update my blog..
same ole reason..nothing to blog..except some pictures to view :)
TOnite we had plain white porridge with asparagus fried with mushroom, eggs fried with salted turnips and smoked ham fried with onion and mushroom.
Plain simple dishes... but kept our tummy really happy and full! :)
It seems like Ryan very happy too...he is trying to feed Kit asparagus with his mouth ;)
ENjoy the pics

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

???

yohooooooooooo i am back...pai seh.... boy been disappeared for soo long!
I am okie...is just that..lately i am too busy with my family and couldn't find the time to blog anymore.
I know is sad..but hey..busy is a good thing isn't it? heheheh least i am not bored :)

Doing great and everyone is healthy and fine.

Looking for job now and having headache looking for childcare centre that suits ryan too..sighh...i hate to send him away..but i got to get back my own life too...

it is soo hard.... :(
sigh.............
okie will keep this one short..dunno what to write...

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Fun time with the snow


Here is Ryan with his first time playing with the snow at the backyard of the house....he is trying to build a snow pile..hehehe ;) Finally, we have been waiting for the snow to come ...coz we already got the snow boots and Ryan got the snowsuit for Christmas from Aunty Jasmine, my cousin in Toronto.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Happy 2 Years old RYAN!!

Yup... is Ryan's birthday today! Happy Birthday my dear! Boyy..2 years old already..time really flies... 2 years ago..at this time...i think i was having my shower after i experienced my water bag broke...so panic and was counting the contraction pain..whether it was 5 mins apart or what...when i really look at the clock... it was like 3 mins apart..n my tummy was kinda cramp a little bit..i was soo excited and can't wait for him to come out!!

I remember that day was a Sunday afternoon...and i was soo tired after having my late breakfast...and i decided to go lie down...as i was going to dozed off...my water bag broke...it was like a baloon with water inside exploded..kekekkee... that time i was kinda excited and scared at the same time. Kit of course was in the basement playing his computer game (that time we were still living at my in law's place) and my in laws were at the kitchen talking to each other.
After i got out from shower and got ready to go down basement to tell Kit that the baby is coming...that time i didn't the pain yet...after telling KIt..kit was kinda anxious and excited..and was rushing me upstairs to call the doctor...
that was the time when i really feel the pain... the contraction were really close and my tummy felt like going to explode annytime.
We didn't get to go to the hospital till 2 pm... when we reach the hospital...i was like screaming a little bit in pain...and the nurse was kinda telling me..the doc is coming...just have to wait for awhile....I remember that around 2 pm plus..the doc came and asked me to go into this room...and lie down on the bed..so that he can check on me....he checked on my dilation ..n told me that it was already 8 cm dilation. BOyyyyy..when i heard that..i was like that was fast...coz lotsa ppl told me that...when u first experienced ur first contraction...it will be like 30 mins apart or an hour apart..but mine was 3 mins apart.and when u reach 10 cm dilation..that is when u can push the baby out...hehehhe
It seems that Ryan couldn't wait to come out to see the world huh..;)
I remeber the doctor asked me..whether i wanted epidural (pain killer) ...i remember i said..yeaaaa..of course... i couldn't stand the pain...
then...the doc asked me to get down from the bed..and walk to the next door room..which was the labour room...and he will arrange me the epidural process thing..
when i went into the labour room....and lie down on the labour bed...my contraction was getting stronger and stronger...i was like screaming soo loud till the doc came back to see me without taking any of the epidural stuff back...he checked on me..and told me that my dilation was at 9.5 cm... is kinda late for me to take epidural...0.5 cm..i can push already..hahaha..darnnnnnn...Ryan was fast mannnn...
SO i was like telling the doc..i can push now..u dun have to wait till 10 cm...seriously..i can feel that he is coming out...ahahahhh
boyyyyy the screaming..and the pain...LORD!
the contraction on 9.5 cm till 10 cm...really kills me..feels like i am on fire..haahhaha...
when i push RYan's head out...it was a big relief for me.... the shoulder and the rest of his body was like nothing to me..hahah..felt soo mmuch lighter....phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

What an experience eh...and Rite now..he is 2 years old....
I am very blessed and grateful for what the Lord has given me... a healthy,cute,cheeky,smart and loveable boy!
:)
Thank you Lord!!

Happy Birthday my dear Ryan...Mommy loves u very very very much..

Friday, January 13, 2006

i am backkkkkkkk...



hehehehe... boyyyyyyyy its been a long time since i last updated my blog. I didn't go anywhere (travelling) ..is just that i am busy and lazy nowadays..haahah..
Got nothing to blog... all i have is some recent pictures of Ryan... :)

Friday, December 23, 2005

Peace on earth

Bro and sisters...lets gather together to give thanks to our Heavanly Father for sending His only Son Jesus to save us.
Peace on Earth ...ther King has Come... AMEN!!

Merry Christmas and have a good and peaceful one everyone!

Thursday, December 01, 2005

how to be good parent?

Today Ryan has been very misbehaving. He purposely spilled his left over milk on the sofa and and the floor.... this is not the first time he did that. It has been lotsa times already. For the first few times i told him not to that and explain to him why he cannot do that.. but still he repeated it again and again.
TOday it got me soo mad coz the sofabed cover is a denim cover and rite now is winter time is very hard to wash and dry it. So, i exploded and scolded him and i even hit his hand. For that moment i didn't think rational that he will understand why i was scolding him and hitting him. But after doing that..i felt so badd and felt like a lousy mother.
After awhile..i talked to him and tell him why i scold him and hit him. It appears that he listened to me and he kinda felt sorrie for what he had done. I am not sure he really feels that or not...but the way his looks portrays to me..i am guessing he is getting it.

After few hours....it was time for bath. RIte after i bathed him ...he played the lotion on the table . He squeezed all the lotion on the table.
Again..i lost myself. I was soo tired with all the chores and he added more stuff for me to do. I know kids doesn't understand how tired we are n etc...but i really snaped out!
Again i scolded him ...and he looked soo shocked and sad.
It hurts me alot whenever i scolded him.
Deep inside my heart i know i should have explained to him first... but when actual fact happened..i couldn't control myself.

I really feel bad and didn't do a good job as a mother :(
I am praying hard that i will change myself and control my temper. :(
I hope i wouldn't repeat this again and raise Ryan in a healthy and positive way.

Friday, November 25, 2005

Snow on the rooftop



These are the pictures i promised to take..i took from the upstairs room where the first picture shows the view of our garage and backyard as well as the back opposite house. The second picture is my neighbour's backyard..where all the snow covering the lawn...and the last one is the view of my sunroom's roof as well as a little bit of my back yard.

Tempreature today is not soo bad ...is abt -5.. but with the windchill is abt -10..hehehe...
But guess what..i just got the news that by Monday we will be getting double digit tempreature..somewhere around 11 degrees with thunderstorm...
walau..what drastic change... one minute winter weather..and the next minute autumn weather... sigh...
we are like winter coat on and off..then fall/autumn coat on again..

Geetha..i agree with u..i dun really like wearing the winter coat n stuff...n worst part is..dressing Ryan up whenever we have to go out!
Not like Malaysia...sleeper will do ler..no need socks or hats, gloves...etc..soo troublesome!

TOnite we are going over to Mississauga to sleep over at my SIL place...coz MIL and FIL coming back from KL
not soo good news for muaaaaa :(
today i felt a little bit tensed up..coz i knew our lives will change again with them coming back.
For the last 2 months without their presence around... we were soo much peaceful and freedom!!
OH GOD have mercy on us! Protect us from any evil harmful plans that already set for us.

All i can say..may the force be with us. :))

hehehe..sometimes i feel like i am soo silly ..but i can't help it...for what i have been through with my MIL.
God bless her!

Thursday, November 24, 2005

minus 20 degrees

We are freezing cold rite here in Hamilton. TOday the tempreture drop to minus 8 but with the windchill ..it feels like minus 20.

This morning when i got up i saw our neighbour's rooftop filled with white snow! yea..its been snowing since yesterday evening...we are supposed to get 5 to 10 cm of snow today but luckily we didn't get that many..heheh ;)
It is freezing and my hands really feels like the fridge coldness!
And the best part is... is still autumn/fall now..we haven't go to winter yet..hahha... the weather is getting crazy lately!

Too bad i didn't get to snap some pictures of the snow from the roof top..will get some tomorrow if i have chance :)

Feel like having a hot cup of tea or cocoa....that will warm me up! :)

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

3 years anniversary





Happy 3rd Anniversary to us! hehe...time really flies fast huh... boyy, i still feel like it was just yesterday :)

We didn't really have a big celebration. We decided to celebrate one day early. We went out for dinner with Ryan. Had a great time and shop around in the mall for xmas presents. :)

Happy Anniversary my Dear ...mmmmmmmmuaks... :)

Sunday, November 20, 2005

i quit!!

hahaha...finally!!!! i did it! i took lotsa courage and thinking ...and i quit my job! YUP can't take it all that shit anymoree...the whole shit really affects my health and family.
Yesterday was my last day! Kit told me he can see soo much difference in me rite after i handed in my resignation letter on Thursday. hahah..i seem more happy and relax.
B4 i was soo tensed up and always nervous all the time. sighhhhhhh.... rite now i am focusing on looking for a full time job as well as a day care for Ryan.

Is abt time i make full use of what i have studied b4.... can't just stay home ...my brain is getting rusty nowadays.
Too bad rite now is towards Xmas...no one is hiring...i might have to wait till Jan 06..
We are doing fine ..just have to tighten a little bit our belt..kekekek.. no more luxury stuff :P

I really felt good!! PRAISE THE LORD!
I dun care what ppl think...(i.e. that i should wait till i get a new job first b4 i quit..bla bla...bla..)
i really dun deserve that kind of job....
I have faith in the Lord that He will provide us.. AMEN!

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

first day of snow of 2005

Aiks...here it comes.. the ole mr snowman coming out again doing what he has to do this year. Tomorrow we will have a little bit of wet snow plus rain! yaiks for those who has to drive tomorrow and not soo much yaiks for me! hahaha
All i have to do is stay home and keep myself warm! :)
But i still have to walk to work ;) hey no complains here.. i know i know... walking is still better than driving on the wet slipery road!

The time has come, where u can hear all the holiday season songs been played on the radio and malls. All the christmas decorations been put up for sale... i wonder whether i should buy one santa clause outfit for Kit? hmmm hmmm..coz he already has the big belly signature of santa clause...if he doesn't dress up like a Santa..it will be a waste? hmmm hmmm..what do u think? hehehe
he sure will not dress up for me..unless i buy one for myself as Mrs Clause? ;)
hahahah

ahem ahem..sorrie sorrie... accidentally drawn over to the XXX side..
oppsie hehee

oh well, nothing much to blog these day...except that i am kinda 'bitching' abt my work.
Other than that..everything is still the samee.
Ryan learn new words lately...he knows how to say "good nite, Okie, and oh wow
heheheh...more to come ....
i am still trying to potty train him....very hard to get him sit on the potty :(

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Good ole SUNDAY!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... perfect daay of the week ...SUNDAY! Kit and i just love this day..coz no pressure thinking of going to work or no tension to rush doing grocerries and stuff. Just a normal and relaxing day for us to spend time together as a family! :)

When u really enjoy the day..the time really fly by very fast! How i wish everyday is SUNDAY for us.. ;)
We had a great day today eventhough we didn't do much. Mara & Ian (our neighbour-very nice couple!) cancelled our date (having dim sum at 11 am) today due to Mara didn't feel that well. This morning was cloudy and rainy. I guess that makes her even more sick!
We just can't live without the sun! We can stand the brutal coldness but not without the sun. It just makes us gloomy and miserable!

Since the date has cancelled, so we decided to go Eastgate Mall for shopping! hahaha long time didn't shop plus what i went through last nite, i just have to shop!!
Well, we bought some household stuff and i got Ryan Sesame Streets Alphabet blocks!! :) he loves it although he doesn;t know how to read yet! He just stack all the blocks and knock it down after he stacks it! he just loves to do that :)
Then we stock up the sodas for Christmas ...just in case any of our friends visit us during xmas :)
The weather was great during noon time...the sun came out but it was very windy.
Too windy till there was one of the three got blown down infront of our house. Lucky thing nobody got hurt! Policeman came after an hour later and waited for i guess 4 hours for the other man to come to chop the tree and remove it from the street.
It wasn't a big scene but there were ppl taking pictures with the tree on the street and posing holding the tree branches ..hehehe.. (of course they did it b4 the policeman came)

We just spend the rest of the day at home doing nothing. :)
I just like the feeling of doing nothing at all..

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Rough nite!

Whoaahhhhhh! tonite i had the most tough time ever at work. I was scheduled to work for 4 hours and 45 mins tonite and i can say most of the calls that i got was unbelievably CRAZY!!!
I really do not understand why a person willing to make your life miserable just because they had bad hair day or woke up at the wrong side of the bed?

Is because I have no choice that i have to work in a pizzapizza call centre just to pay the bills, people thought order takers working there deserve to work there and have no wherelse to go.
Those customers really acting like they are soo much superior and u deserve to serve them!
DAMN IT!

I am soo frustrated nowadays and so tempted to quit my job! I really pray hard that i can get a new job, a full time job that really use my brain!

I was sooo mad and frustrated till i got chest pain! hahah..boyyy..i realize that it is soo not worth it to get upset for those MORONS!
They were acting like kids! worst than kids!

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Halloween

Hey is the time again. Well, only 2 occassion that ppl here do the decorations around their house. 1 will be during fall end of October during Halloween and 2 will be during Christmas. When you walk pass by each house u can see all sorts of decorations like scarecrow puppet hanging on the porch, a white gown kinda ghost look alike thingy hanging, pumpkins decorations like monster, spider webs, lightings and even a blow out ballon air of a big ghost or monster statue in front of the yard.
I haven't take those pictures of the decorations yet. Once i take it i will post the pictures.. maybe tonite..keekke ;)

As for us? hmmm kinda lazy to do the decorations yet coz Ryan is still young for that. Trick or treating for Ryan? Well, Kit said Ryan is too young for that too... hmmm i dun quite agree with him abt that..i think we should at least let Ryan have the fun going to houses like other kids to get some candies! hahaha..least we dun have to give out candies...coz we wont be at home to give out candies if we go out trick or treating.. ;)
We can dress up in costumes.. maybe i'll dress up like an old witch and Kit as BATMAN? hahaha
more like chinaman got la..hehehe

Hmm oh well, maybe next year...Ryan will be older that time to go trick or treating. We already bought lotsa candies to give out :)
Weather is getting way cooler rite now.... can feel the brutal winter is coming! Gosh i hate that when i complain abt the weather!

will post the pictures tonite if i get to snap some of the decorations of our neighbours here..hehehe i hope i won't get caught by doing that..kekek ;)

Thursday, October 20, 2005

still alive

heheh.. i am still alive ....yeaa..been busy? (is that the rite word to say or i should just say lazy..hehehe)
Yea.. been lazy to log on and furthermore Ryan is not taking his afternoon nap at all for the past week. I feel so exhausted rite now..coz Ryan is at the naughty tool stage where he is soo curios abt everything.. climbing the chair,window and anything he can find that he can put his legs on.

For the last 2 weekends was pretty normal and boring for us. Didn't do much..stayed home and cleaned the house.
Been looking for other jobs lately and i got a job interview last thursday. Well, i thought it went well from my point of view, but i didn't hear anything from them. The lady who interviewed me was a little bit shocked when she saw me..maybe because i am a foreigner.. even her handshake wasn't firm enough! Is like she was soo scared to touch my hand. Hmmm oh well..what the heck... is in a good way too that i didn;t get the job coz it won't be a pleasant ride for me anyway.

So i am still with my current job (which is not a superb job but at least it helps me to pay the bills)
NO complaint....but sighhh... i am just facing the emotional up and downs situation. Felt a little bit useless at home.
I dunno why i felt that...maybe because i am too bored! (bored? how to be bored with Ryan? wonder... hmm..hmm)

Jeeeze i dunno... that is the reason why i didn't update my blog for such a long time.. don't feel rite at all...
I need a break soo much!

Kit need one too! badly! but..what am i thinking now? break? how? Who is going to babysit Ryan??
NO one!
Sighhh..sometimes i just felt like i don't belong here at all... i miss my family back home in Penang soo much!!
So ALONE!

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Ryan has fever

My poor Ryan has fever today, a slight one. He must have caught the cold last nite. :(
My whole afternoon was spent looking after him, making sure that he is okie. He had problems sleeping and just wanted to be carried. Very tiring for me today coz i woke up 5 am this morning till now.
I had to work this evening but it was just 3.5 hours shift. Not a very long one. Today, Thank God, all the calls i received were pleasant and polite.(sometimes, customer are just soo rude to u).
When i got back home, Ryan was there happily welcomed me home. He just melted my heart whenever he do that :)
He is much better now. Kit is sleeping with him tonite. (yea, still having problem training him sleeping alone) but tonite is no exception, coz he was sick. :)
Normally weekdays i sleep with Ryan and Kit got the whole queen size bed to himself. Tonite i can enjoy my new queen size bed :)

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Happy Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is round the corner-actually this coming Monday. So everyone, GOBLE! GOBLE!

Thanksgiving is a day where all the family members gather together to give thanks and appreciate what we have.
As for us, we don't really celebrate though..heheheh.. never know how to bake the turkey...furthermomre turkey is huge!! 3 of us couldn't finish it.
We probably plan to do something else...time to spend with Kit and Ryan. Another long weekend b4 Christmas comes. :)
We are not sure what we are going to do yet..probably staying at home and relax :)

HAppy thanksgiving everyone!

3 Years!

Ha! time relly flies eh.. 3 years of today, it was my first time landed in Canada to meet Kit. I have been to Canada for 3 years already.
Omigosh..it seems like yesterday..hehehe.. the long flight really gave me nightmare! 20 odd hours of flight...oh booyyyyy... i dun think i can do it with Ryan..hehehe

Boyy, what i have accomplished so far within these short 3 years:-

1. Got married
2 Learned how to cook
3 Learned how to be independent (i am the youngest in the family-have sister and aunties to help me)
4. Learned how to be a wife
5. Learned how to tolerate my in-laws
6. Learned western culture lifestyles and adapt it (still having problem adapting it)
7. Learned how to be a mom
8. Learned how to be a patient mother and wife
9. Learned to balance millons and millions things in 24 hours
10. Learned how to control my temper! (ha! this one really a good one...i was a very bad tempered person back in Penang, Malaysia)

I am not sure that i have accomplished much coz there are still much more to learn here. Life is tough when u r alone (as in no relatives supports u).
I am soo blessed and I really appreaciate what i had. If i am given another chance, i would do it again. :)

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Ryan still not talking...

Ryans is turning 20 months this 25th September and he still not talking yet. I mean he still baby talks.
He understands what we tell him and he replied us with his own language..ehhehe..sometimes we have to guess what is he trying to tell us.

Words that Ryan used everyday are as follows:-

"tat-tat" : wanna pee or bo bo
"Mmmmm" : means the food is good
"Nen Nen": means he wants his milk

Words that he acted out instead of saying it are as follows:-

"wave bye bye" : whenever we say bye bye or whenever we check out from the cashier register in the mall or bank teller. He loves young blonde ladies and he makesure he steal their hearts aways by waving goodbye to them.

"making whoof whoof sound" : whenver we told him to food is hot or the oven is hot, dun go near the oven.

"hit his bum bum" : whenver we say Ryan yai yai, ta ta see fatt (notty, hit ur bum bum ha)

"shaking his 2 wrist around: when we say the food no more, u finished ur food already.

"clap his both hands: when we praise him or thank him if he did something good i.e. after his finishes his bottle of milk, he will bring it to me for me to wash, pick up small pieces of garbage on the floor if he sees one and throw it in the garbage can. We normally say "pandai baby" or thank you baby... ;)

Ryan sometimes really surprise me with his little action like put back all his toys to the bin when he get it from.
He is not a bad boy... sometimes really melts my heart and sometimes drive me crazy too..hahahah
i guess it balance up huh ;)

Rite now i am still struggling to potty train him. Manage to show him the potty and let him sit on it..but he doesn't like it.
It will take times..

Summer is ending...

Here comes Autumn or Fall we call it. Summer is ending this coming 22nd Sept. We can feel the chilly cool weather these days especially during the morning and late evening. We have to get ready for the cold brutal winter where we have to shovel and shovel everyday.
We also need to rack all the dried dead leaves when autumn comes and start pruning all the perenial flowers and for those who wish to plant spring flowers, they can start now.
That's the beauty or not of staying in 4 seasons country.

During summer time, we have to do the lawn and cut the grass, autumn we have to rack the leaves and winter time, we have to shovel the snow. Hhahha..there is always something to do overhere.
Today i have started to prune my roses and cut it short so that it can grow back next year.
Didn't do much coz nothing can be done if Ryan is around. I have to watch him so that he didn't eat the soil or run out the walk way.. sighhhhh..
wish i have a gate to block the driveway!

I am not really looking forwad to winter except for Christmas! It is soo cold and it gets dark so fast during the day. Can u imagine around 4.30 pm the sky is almost as dark as normal 10 pm during the summer. It just makes u think that the day had already ended and have to look forward for tomorrow.
The only good abt winter time is less crime. All ppl will hide somewhere and u wont see a single soul on the road during nite time coz it is soo cold! hehehehehe

Hope we get a good winter this year!

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Don't feel good!!!

I am not feeling good! Not in terms of health...but emotionally i dun feel soo good! I dunno why.
Maybe is just one of those days i guessss.
Today i have to work late and i am going to miss my family time with Ryan and Kit :((
It sucks!!

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

We got our mattresses

Yes!! Last sunday, we went for matresses shopping. Ryan needs a new bed coz he has grown soo much and besides that he doesn't like the baby mattres..is kinda too hard for him to sleep on.
We also need one good one too!
We went to this store at Upper James (Hamilton Mountain area) recommended by Kit's colleague.
We got pretty good deal there. Our queen size mattress cost $880 (two split box spring with pillow top on top of the mattress included) and Ryan's single matress with box spring cost $200 bucks and plus $30 delivery charge as well. SO all together we pay $1110. Sigh, there goes another big expense, but is well invested though! Because the mattress that we are sleeping on rite now always gives me back pain. :(
Ryan needs to learn how to sleep alone by himself so that we can get good nite sleep every nite eh!

Sunday was another full day for us! We went grocerry shopping early in the morning (went 3 places). After that, we went back home drop all the things and headed to the furniture store.
After we paid downpayment of $500 bucks..we went to Wallmart and shop around and had lunch there too.
Then we headed to St Joseph to visit Nellie. She looked soo much better now. I am soo very glad that she is doing soo well. We spend 2 hours there accompany her and talked to her.
We got back around 4 plus and headed to my in-law's place to clean up and collect their mails.
It was a short visit there only and we reached home for good around 6plus.
We met our neighbour Mara & Ian outside their backyard deck. THey were having bbq and they invited us over. So we did not want to reject them coz they have invited us several times already..and everytime we say no...sooo this time we have to say yes.
It was good...we had ribs, Kit had T-bone steak..Ian is soo good at BBQ .. he can bbq several different things at the same time..without burning them and they all tasted good with the rite texture !!
We enjoyed it soo much! Ryan was having fun too..playing with their 3 dogs!!
He had a full day and nite too!
hehehe we came back around 9 plus pm..woahhhh i was soo beat that nite eh.. coz that day my "auntie visit" too eh :(
sighhhhhhhh..
but overall, it was fun!! :)

Sunday, September 11, 2005

the guy didn't survive

Heard the news yesterday, that the guy who got shot near my area didn't make it!! :(
God Bless His soul...hopefully police manage to catch the culprit!

Friday, September 09, 2005

Gun Shot in my area

This early morning around 2 plus in, i was having problem to sleep. My back was so itchy because the air is soo dry and i forgot to put lotion. (one of the problem staying in overseas)
So, i was scratching here and there till Kit woke up and asked me am i okie..hehehe pai seh...woke up hubby pulak...
then i said okie la..but my back soo itchy and i was having problem scratching it..cannot reach ler.
SO he said..turn over i scratch for u la..so i turned lor..the he scratch scratch ...wahhhh...soo nice..much better...then suddenly no hand movements and i hear engine started snoring liao..alamak... he scratched till he dozed off again ...so i woke up and go to wash room to put some lotion .
that time the clock showed 2.50 am. After putting the lotion.. i went back to sleep..after few mins i heaard 2 gun shots!!
I thought i was dreaming but at one point i thought again..cannot be because i wasn't sleeping that time..i was just lying down only.
THen i looked at the cloock it was 3 am and after like 10 to 15 mins i heard police sirens and ambulance sirens too.
Ohh oooooo... there were really gun shots eh..but i had no idea where was it.
I didn't not wake Kit up..coz he was really tired and furthermore he has to get up around 5 am..so i better let him sleep.
I went back to sleep and remind myself to watch news in the morning..
Around 4 am i heard very loud fire engine sirens...is very near by..aiksss...fire nearby? i got panicked...got up again n looked outside the window...
i didn't see any firetrucks ..but i could smell very strong smoke and i even see it too..
Kit was woke up by the sirens too...sooo...i was like busy checking the front and back windows to find out where was the fire came from.
Nope..i couldn't see it..only can smell it.

I just told kit that just now i heard 2 gun shots and he was like are u sure? I didn't hear it eh..then i said..of coz u didn't hear it la..u went to dreamland liao whatttttt...heehehe
that time it was 4.30 am liao..
kit said..okie la..let me snoozz for another half an hour ..then i have to wake up liao...

oh boyy whole nite we didn't really sleep good eh..
And this morning when i watch news..yup there were 2 gun shots happenend nearby my area.
It happened 2 blocks from our house... (5 mins walk or less than that)
it was a white guy got shot on the head and he was lying on the parking lot.
Sighhh...
Summer is always not safe for everyone overhere. Dunno why everyone tend to do crazy things in summer.
That guy still in critical condition. Believed that he had involved in a fight. :(
Hope he gets better and survive!

And the fire..it was 5 blocks from our place. The whole house was burned down. nothing left. :(
Lucky thing nobody at home.

What a niteeeeeee !

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Yesterday's Dinner





That is what we had for yesterday's dinner. Is call Fajita Tortilla wrap. Pictures taken from before i started to cook and finished wrapping.
I used beef, mushroom,green and red pepper (forget to snap it) , and onion. The Fajita seasoning can be bought at grocery store.
I like this wrap thing..tasted good! When i was in the process of uploading these pictures, Ryan saw it and he say "mmmmmmmmmmmm" ( his version of yummie) heehehe.

Oh yea forgot to mention, my home grown beef steak tomatoes!! heheheh RYan loves it very much!
and for the wrapping process, u need some shredded cheddar cheese, lettuce and onions.
Walla! Ready to eat!

Monday, September 05, 2005

Ryan enjoying his fav french fries



Mmmmmmmmmm yummie yummie friesss... I just love McDonald's french fries.. ;)

Got my own "toy"

Perfect timing for me to blog this... i am enjoying my hot green tea and listening to Alicia Keys album.
Today we had a full fun and great day. We started the day by going to Confederation Park for a long walk. The weather was perfect this morning...infact the whole day!
Nice breeze and cool air. After the walk, we went to Easgate Mall in Stoney Creek to shop for my "toy". Yup, i want to buy an electronic stepper for myself. Thought this could help me loose some weight during the winter. :)
BOught it for $79.99 plus taxes. It was okie, wasn't a bargain price ..just a regular price. After i got my stepper, we went to get some flowers for Nellie. The visiting hours were 2-8pm. So we reached there almost 2 pm .

Nellie looked soo much better compared to last Sunday. She started to eat a little bit and we can see some colour in her face.
Last sunday she looked so pale and tired!
We are so glad that she is much better. She is staying at the Acute Mental Health Department. People admitted there are experiencing major depression problems.
Nellie told me most of the patients there were young adults..some are 16 years old only..
Wonder what kind of depression they are facing huh...hmmm

ANyway, we stayed there till almost 4 pm. We reached home around 5 plus. It was a full day for us. Ryan was soo tired.
Rite now , my boys are snoozing away in wonderland....dreaming away in dreamland..hehehe

I just wanna have some quite time for myself and relax a little bit.
I am kinda miss my quite time. :)
What a Sunday for me! I really enjoyed my day today! I dun have to work and i get to spend time with my two men..hehehe
WHat a blessing!

Friday, September 02, 2005

Nice friday morning

This morning i strolled Ryan to see Nellie and i found out that she was admitted to St.joes.
I have already took the information and we will visit her this weekend. TOday's weather is good. Is very breezy and cooling. The sun is shinning but we didn't feel any heat at all.

I strolled Ryan to Gage park from Nellie's place. It was 15 mins walk from her house and 10 mins walk from ours.
Ryan seems happy when he sees the swing. When we reach the swing, Ryan was giggling laugh and pointed at the swing.
He was soo excited and couldn't wait to get into the swing. He was having fun and great time swinging.
I felt much better after breathing the fresh air. :)

Felt a little bit different today, kinda a little peaceful compared to other days. Maybe because i knew tonite i only work 3 and 1/2 hours shifts. Yesterday was 4 hours and the calls keep coming in non-stop.
The worst part was i talked non-stop till my throat got itchy and kept coughing. :(
Lucky the phone calls i got yesterday were all decent customers.
Thank GOD for that.
He really watch over me. Sometimes when i got nasty customers, while we were talking halfway, the connection got disconnected itself..hehehehe...lucky me... i do not have to handle them.
But sometimes i have to..but He provide me the wisdom and courage to face them.

This coming weekend is a long weekend for us. Monday is a holiday for us. (Labourday)
Kit gets excited and already planned what to do on that day. :)

Nelli admitted

Nellie admitted to St.Joseph Hospital. (Nellie is my ex-neighbour) She didn't feel good. Her depression gone worst after Albert's passed.
She has lost 12 pounds.

Pray hard for her recovery. Will visit her this weekend.

Thursday, September 01, 2005

MIL & FIL back to KL, Malaysia.

Mother and Father in law are going back to KL, Malaysia tomorrow. They will be back here in 2 months time.

Should i say... yehhhh yippieeeee yehhh..hehehe..oh well, we are okie lately.. is just that we didn't get to see each other that often anymore. Why? Because i am working late till 9 pm every thursday, friday till saturday. So, normally Kit will bring Ryan overthere and come back home around 9 pm. :)
So, i dun get to visit them. WHich is good in away coz if we didn't see each other, there won't be any problems at all. :)

Their perspectives towards me still the same as before. And as for me, I am totally okie (healed!)
I do not feel bad anymore whenever Kit and Ryan visits them. I guess i have moved on!
I thank God for this.
I thank HIM for his strength, courage and wisdom!!
AMEN.

Lotto 6/49- jackpot 14 million

Aisey man, I normally dun buy all these lottery stuff but i was soo tempted yesterday to buy one when i see lotto 6/49 jackpot was 14 million.

We are soo desparate to get more money to pay off the mortgage and i can go to school get better education in order to get a better job.
Sighhhhhh... I have sinned against my heavanly Father. :(
I bought it yesterday and i even got excited to check the result at 11 pm yesterday.
My heart was raising fast and hoping to win at least 100 thousands.

Buttttt too badddddd... i didn't win. hehehehe... I know there is no short cut in life!
I have learned my lesson i guess.
Sighhhhh... just waiting for good opportunity for Kit and myself to get a better job.

Oh well, i am very grateful that we have our own house, He provide us both a decent job to put food on the table.
I could never ask for more!
I am soo soorie Father. Please forgive me!

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

What a mess!

Yesterday was not a good day for me. I didn't feel well, felt like wanna vomit whenever i eat. I dunno why i felt this way. Maybe because of the weather, was cloudy and dark.
As the nite came and i was preparing to sleep, Ryan started to vomit everything he ate for dinner on the bed!
Yikesss! I was shocked for few seconds and didn't know what to do... and Ryan was continuing vomiting the food.
My brain was shut down for few seconds. I just sat there and looked at Ryan with his uncomfortable look. Poor Ryan!
After Ryan finished vomiting. I carried him away from the bed and headed uptairs bathroom. Kit was taking his shower and i had no choice to ask Kit to bath Ryan while i started to clean the mess.

It wasn't a good day and nite for us! Kit was having bad day at work. He didn't complained at all. He was soo patience and did everything he can to help me to clean the mess.
Took us an hour to clean up the mess.

Lucky Ryan was okie and he appeared normal after the bath.
Thank God that he was okie.
Less problem for us to handle.

Selamat Hari Merdeka (Happy Independance Day) Malaysia Boleh!!

To all Malaysians, Selamat Hari Merdeka!!! Malaysia is celebrating 48th independance day today, Aug 31st.

I am still proud to be Malaysian, rich with different cultures, races, and customs.


Hidup Malaysia! Malaysia Boleh!!

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Tummy -ache

I had a bad tummy-ache on Friday because i ate too much grapes...hehehe..yea FIL works in the vineyard and he picked lotsa fresh grapes. Yummie and sweet. He gave us a lot too. So on thursday nite i ate a lot... (what to do.."tum chiak" maa...)

Friday morning i felt lousy and i visited the washroom more than 8 times to boo boo... hai yo...cham laaaaa.... sooo i didn't get to work on Friday nite. Call in sick. :(

No choice la..i felt lousy too... but luckily the warm water helps me a lot. I am much better now.
:)

Thursday, August 25, 2005

How to get ur toddler zzz?

Hmm Ryan is 19 months old today. I am facing this problem as in to put him to sleep in the afternoon.
Hai yo..very tired, tried to bath him and give him his bottle after that, hoping he will sleep rite after the bottle... but he is soo wide awake after the bottle.
Running around, up and down the staircase.

I am writing this while watching him at the same time. :(

The older he gets the lesser he wants to nap during the afternoon. Very hyper nowadays.

WHat to do?
Any suggestions??

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Perfect Lunch!!

Woohooo what a perfect lunch on Sunday ! Is worth the money! We went for Japanese food buffet. We had grill eel on the rice, Salmon head (deep fried), miso soup, Grilled Saba ( a type of fish) terriyaki chicken, California rolls, tempura, Oshinoko rolls, Egg rolls, (orange egg ), etc.
BOyyyyyyy we only pay 52 bucks (taxes included) for all the food.
Is all u can eat.Mannnnnnnnnnn i never had such a good japanese food with this price.

This place is located in Scarborough and the owner is from Hong Kong. Hmmm one thing abt them is they dun know how to speak English. Our cantonese is not very good. So we are kinda mistreated by them. A little biase from them due to my Aunty doesn't speak Cantonese at all.
They give u this weird look.

And worst part is they charge Ryan as small toddler price instead of baby price (or should be free)
SO when the bill came we saw 8.99 for baby. My aunt argued that they shouldn't charged at all.. coz Ryan didn't eat 9 bucks value of food.
Then the manager was having hard time arguing with us..coz he doesn;t know how to speak English. Hmmm come on mannn..is Canada... u should learn at least the basic one.

This is the certain Chinese attitute i observe here in Canada. They do not want to venture out the box. Only stay in their own comfortable space. The manager thought his business is good enough coming from their very own kind. No point of learning English. WIll never have Westerners coming in for food.
Very wrong thinking!
Not every Chinese know how to speak Cantonese. Not every chinese from Hong Kong.
His perspective very narrow.

Anyway, he managed to give us another price and he charged Ryan 5 bucks instead of 9 bucks.
Hmmmmmm....too bad the service is baddddd.... if not everything will be perfect.
The food is good. the setting of the restaurant is perfect too..
buttt service???? very bad!!
That's why i did not give them any tips at all...heheheheh
too bad laaaaaa....
He asked for it. When he argued with us.. he didn't even apologize at all. As a manager....or business owner...u sure hope every of ur customers will come back second time..
at least have the courtesy to apologize!!!
walauuuuuuuuuu...
how to do business like that..

sucky friday nite

Walau what a nite on Friday! I was prepared and ready for the busy nite at work but didn't expect to be really really superb busy!
We had rain and thunder storm that nite and Toronto was flooded by the heavy rain. Everyone called pizza for dinner. Mannnn.. why can't they order somethingelse huh?
The phone calls came in non-stop. WOrst part was all the customers were hungry and frustrated from the long wait to place the order.
Sigh... i was frustrated too that nite due too didn't get to go for washroom break at all and have to deal with mean customers!

Those customers thought they can get free pizza due to the rain and storm. Too bad some of the pizza store were forced to close due to no electrical power. Walauuuu when u told them the store were closed they got even more mad and curse you on the phone. Well i understand their frustration but at least dun curse mannn... be more like normal human being ler..
If the store close..then call other pizza store la..what soo difficult?

I really dun understand some ppl can really have the attitude to do such a thing. Just pray for them ... to calm down and behave more normal.
If not..one day they sure got heart attack or something. Always loose cannon ..i mean temper.

Friday, August 19, 2005

TGIF?

Hey is Friday and do i really feel happy and excited like everyone else ? NOPE! hehehehe.. my version of TGIF will be TGIM. yup Monday instead of Friday. Sigh, i gotta work late tonite and Friday nite normally heck bussier than every other day.

But Kit and Ryan, they are really happy. Kit don't have to wake up at 5 am tomorrow morning and Ryan gets to spend time with his daddy.
I am not going to let the work thing bothers me coz we are going to visit my aunt in Toronto this sunday! Yippieeeeeee.
Yup we planned to have Japanese food in North York. My aunt is going to show us the place and of course i will handle the bill. Ahem...hehe yea lor..work liao maa..must take care of the bill lor. :)
My aunt told me that place is all u can eat buffet kinda thing but is not the normal buffet. We get to sit and order as many as we can but provided we must finish it all.
If not there will be extra charge for it for the leftovers. So we don't have to get up and walk around to get the food. AWESOMEEEE!
Sounds good.
Least i dun have to worrie abt Ryan roaming around the restaurant..kekekke
Can't wait for Sunday.

Pray hard Sunday come faster!!

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Dim Sum Again....

On Sunday we had dim sum again. This wasn't a planned one. Our original plan was having picnic at Conferderation Park. Kit even cut some honey dews on Saturday nite for the picnic. Unfortunately, on Sunday morning, it was pouring rain. We were like undecided what to do on that morning coz we couldn't picnic that day. As we were preparing our breakfast, we received a phone call. I answered the phone.. and it was my MIL called. She said err..later go "yum cha" and i was like..yum cha ar? where? and she said Scarborough.. ohh oo..it was soo far.. is an hour drive there and she said we have to be ther around 11 am.
So i said okie..wait ha..i pass the phone to Kit u talk to kit.

Oh well, MIL and FIL wanted to go yum cha so no choice lor..have to go. We drove there and they have have to squeeze themselves at the back with Ryan and his car seat. Poor thing it was pretty uncomfortable forthem eh..but they didn't say anything.
My SIL and her hubby came as well.
We had an oki time and after dim sum we headed to a place where they sell samosa (indian curry puff) and roti canai..mannnnnnnnnnn it was goood..
I thought i could never have fresh roti canai ever overhere..hehehe now i have found the place.
It was recommended by FIL's friend. and the samosa..it was good and cheap.. 5 pieces for a buck..darnnnnn..it was good! I found muruku (indian chips goodies) as well. but they were expensive though..1lb for $3.99 eh

we bought 45 samosa and 10 roti canai..whooohhhhoooooo..hehe of course we ddidn't eat all..we gave some to MIL and our neighbour Mara and Ian.
and yesterday i cooked some curry chicken to eat with the roti canai.. yuummmieeeeeeeee! long time didn;t have roti canai liao..hahahaa

Saturday, August 13, 2005

pretty rough time..

I had pretty rough time last couple days. Lotsa things running inside my brain that stressed me out. On Thursday, i had a doctor's appointment for mamography and scanning for my both breast. I found lumps on my both breast.
Kit took off day that day to take me to the hospital. On the same day Kit had a job interview at 8 am. The interview went well for him. It was a big company that make forklift and is a US based company. He really likes the company and really hope that he can get the job. Rite now he is waiting for second interview with the Engineering manager.
Kit loves the working hours... mon-thurs starts around 8am till 4.30 pm and every friday starts at 8 am till 12.30 pm. Isn't it awesome?
Is nearer and Kit gets to sleep in for an extra hour if he gets the job.
Just pray hard he gets it!

As for muaaaa... sighhh.. of coz i am worried sick abt my situation but i didn't show it coz dun wanna spoil kit's mood for his interview.
My appointment was scheduled at 1 pm.
He got back around 9 am that day. It went well i guess.. am glad for that.
We reached the hospital around 12.45pm and registered myself at the reception desk.
Then came a nurse or mamography technologist brougt me to the mamogram room. There i have to wear the gown and Kit and Ryan waited outside the room for me.
The mamogram hurts alot. The nurse took 4 pictures and sent me off to the scanning dept where i have waited for few mins before a scanning technologist came for me.
They did the scanning and didn't find anything that is serious. THank God for that part but.. they are not doctor. They will send the results to my family doc and my doc will call me next week to tell me the report.
Just praying hard that everything is okie.
Am worried coz my mom's side has a history of cancer.

The worst part of that day was after the whole thing in the hospital, i have to work that day too. Started work around 5 pm. I wasn't feeling good that evening. Felt like wanna faint while i was walking to work.
Maybe i was too stressed out last few days.

I am just too worried that if anything happens to me, there is no one to take care of Ryan.
Is funny because before Ryan, my life is just mainly myself.
When i have Ryan already, the first thing comes to my mind is Ryan. Everything has to do with Ryan.
Really missed him alot when i am at work.
Guess every mother has that kind of feeling.

Oh well, i am very grateful and thankful for everything that He has blessed me with. No complains at all!
Just wanna count the blessings everyday! AMEN!


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Monday, August 08, 2005

Great Dim Sum

Yesterday was a great day for us. We brought Nellie, Alfie and Doris to Dim Sum at Crystal Dynasty restaurant. They loved it! It was their first time having the real chinese food. They tried "har kau"(shrimp dumpling), "siew mai"(pork dumpling), shrimp egg roll, fried shrim salad, fried turnip danish, ribs with black bean sauce, chee cheong fun with chinese pastry, chee cheung fun with fried tofu, bbq pork bun, beef with black bean sauce and bean curd and fruit cocktail for dessert.
They tried everything. :)
I am so glad that they really like the food.
After dim sum, they came over to the house for visit. We had the small cheesecake coated with chochalte. it was nice and full for everyone. heheheh eating non-stop eh.
They stayed for few hours and left around 2pm.
Nellie wasn't really happy as in she is still in the process of grieving of Albert's passed.

I was working yesterday too. I took extra hours just to earn extra bucks.
It was okie and normal.
My performance was evaluated yesterday without my knowledge. My surpervisor was listening to the calls that i take. I didn't realize it till she printed the report and handed it over to me.
Lucky that i didn't swear or anything ..heheheh
oh well, i never do that unless the customer is rude to me. NOrmally i will just come back and let it out over here..kekekek

My performance was okie..they graded me excelent with customers..hahahah. I am just lucky only to have customers that were nice yesterday. :) Is a blessing from HIM.

The next evaluation will be next month. Will see how i do ;)

Friday, August 05, 2005

Big Mama in the pool

Fuii yaaaaahhhh... this big mama was in the public pool with her swimsuit for the first time in her life... yup I went to join this Aquafit program yesterday with Lillian and Anita (my ex colleague).
It cost me $3.10 to join the program. Cool huh. It starts at 7.30pm and the exercise lasted for 45 minutes and we get to go into the hot tub with jaccuzi jets inside for half an hour.

Boyyy it was really good work out and i really felt it. My whole body ache so badly today... hehehe..what to do..first timer here maa..
I dunno how to swim but i was convinced by Lillian to join the program. It was good and I really love it!
Our instructor ,Mr Musaki.. he is funny and energectic.. and HOT too..hahahaah..too bad i am
married!!
I like all the movements .. all the kicks and jumps in the water..really tired u off.
I just wish i can do this everyday..but too bad..they only have it once a week.

Kit is soo nice to baby sit Ryan and let me enjoy myself. I really need it..something different and away from the baby for few hours ;)
I can't wait till next week to do it again ;)

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Without daddy around

Ryan got up this morning looking for his daddy. Poor baby..hehehe... he was up around 7 am as usual..and calling "ba ba" and searching up and down for his daddy. He looked a little disappointed and i told him ba ba already went to work and will be back later around 5.30 pm.

Lucky that he did not show any tantrums ..phewwwwww...i thot he will not behave today but amzingly he took it okie. Rite now he is snoozing away :)

I didn't feel good either today coz it is not the same anymore. For the past week, i woke up and Kit was there and i asked him what he wants for breakfast. Today i have to have breakfast alone with Ryan. :(
Time really flies eh..i just wish we can have another week to enjoy..hehehe

I did lotsa cleaning today. I have cleaned the rangehood and stove. Boyyy, lotsa grease everywhere. I took Ryan out to the backyard for awhile. He was soo excited playing with the plastic empty pots and his prem.
As he was busy playing, i quickly sweep the driveway and took out some weeds.
Today is very hot and humid. Tomorrow will be even worst humid index will go up to 44 degrees celcious.
Hmm we have to on the air conditioner again. : ( there goes the bill!

Monday, August 01, 2005

Torpedos?


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I am not sure whether those were torpedos bullets or just mainly guns bullets...hehehe
not really good at those stuff..
oh well, Kit was soo excited during the visit... :)

Haida-side view


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Haida


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Another twin guns


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We are standing in front of a place where they hold another twin guns. Bigger ones. Of course they took away the guns already. :)

The twin guns


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Kit and Ryan is standing beside twin guns where the marines use to fire the enemy during the wars.
Pretty big and awesome :)

Battleship in Bayfront Park (Pier 4)


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We went to see the battleship on Saturday. The battleship we were on called Haida. She was used during WW 2 and as well as the Korea war.
It was awesome to see how the marines sleep and eat during the war time. ;)
The ship behind Kit and Ryan is a new ship. Just arrive last weekend to Hamilton from Halifax. We get to see it for free. That ship is only 25 years old. :) Pretty new and very high-tech inside.

bohoo holiday is over :(

Today will be the last day of our holiday together for this summer..it is soo sad. tomorrow Kit has to go back to work.

We really had a great time for the past week. Kit got the basement done a little bit and we managed to spend lotsa time together shopping and going to trails for our exercise..hehehe.. Yup our dieting activities been going on very well. Kit and I shed a few pounds.
and of course Ryan..he enjoyed the most..hehehe he really happy to sees his daddy every morning when he wakes up :)

Tonite we are going to have our first steamboat together in this house..hehehe...it's been a long time i had steamboat eh.. i think it was the nite b4 i gave birth to Ryan. ;)

I have just dyed my hair just now... to light brown colour ..heheh just to hide my grey hair. Yup i have grey hairs since i was 7 years old. Got it from my granny. Runs in the family i guess.. Her hair was all grey when she turns 40 years old. :)
Some ppl says that i think too much... well, not 100% true la..at least maybe some percentage lor :)

Tomorrow will be another boring day for me..back to my normal daily routine. :(