Victoria Day weekend outing

We went to Toronto Zoo on Saturday and it was Ryan and my first time there. We reach the zoo at 9.30 am and it was like an hour drive from Hamilton. That day was perfect, the weather was not hot and cold..just the rite temperature for us :)

The Zoo is huge and we did not finished viewing every animals there. I missed the Americas, Eurasia, Australian sections. Will go next time.
Kit managed to collect enough air miles points to exchange for 4 tickets..and Ryan is free for the admission. How great is that!
Our first small vacation or outing for 2007 :)
Cheap outing for poor people like us ..hehehehe
Overall, the trip was splendid..except that i was dead tired man!
Imagine this big momma...walking up the steep hills...omigosh... it was unbelievable ..i was surprised that i made it..hahahaha...

The outfit i was wearing on that day..was the Mother's Day gift from lovely hubby!
I seriously need to loose weight...i know i will..when i starts school..coz i will be walking around the campus and taking buses :)

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Rod Stewart or the Rod Father....

What a blessing from GOD. You guys would not believe what happened to me yesterday...hahahaha..
Yesterday morning i brought Ryan to downtown Hamilton to visit my ex-boss and of course for a bus ride as well.
Ryan loves the bus ride and of course lunch at McDonald. He loves the new Chicken Snack Wrap.

It was nice to see all my ex-colleagues ..they were so surprise to see me :) The juicy part was.. Lillian (my ex-boss) told me that they are going to Rod Stewart concert tonight (yesterday nite) ...and was asking me whether i could join them or not..they have one extra ticket.

So i was like cool! a concert! i never been to a concert b4...and is free.
What a blessing i tell ya..
I came back drop off Ryan home and rest abit..called Kit and told him that i am going to Rod Stewart's concert! hahhaha
Can see my MIL's face..kekekekeke...it was like cloudy like wanna have rain storm or soemthing..but i dun care! I deserve my break man!
I got changed and took the bus down again to meet up Lilian and Anita. We had dinner at My Thai restaurant..i ordered dried Curry beef with string beans...i never get the chance to eat beef at all..due to in laws are Buddhist..
so..whenever i had a chance..i will order beef :)
Then we had coffee at Tim Hortons...waited till 8 pm for the concert.
IT was awesome..i had a great time..
That few hours...i was totally myself..forgetting everything at home..
I remembered i thank GOD in the middle of the concert..for giving me this chance!
I needed it soo badly ...it was totally refreshing for me!

so..PIL's presence is not totally all cons after all..kekekke ;)

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"chan hai ar"

Ryan's new chinese vocabulary = Chan Hai ar

Yesterday, he spill his milk and i didn't notice it until Ryan said the following:

Ryan: Nei dai... chan hai ar..yai yai ar..yucky-yucky lor (u see...so notty..all dirty already)

Me: Hai lor... chee yau hou lor ( yes..u knew and why u still do it)

** He is learning from PIL alot of those sayings...mil loves to talk to him like that..so therefore, he is talking like an adult here.
Normally he will sort of say what i am going to say to him...
isn't he funny or what..

Time to catch up...

PIL are home today... not working for few days...so it will be pro and cons for me.
As for the pro part..i can catch up with my high school diploma assignments..yea..i am really way behind it..still on Psychology...doing the exam thing.
The cons side will be..they are around!

Well, that's life i guess..i can't have everything. I can finish my school work..but by the time i finish my school work, i think i will have more housework to do.
House will definitely more messy and dirty!
Sigh...

Is already mid May, i am counting the days...4 more months till i start school!
Can't wait.. i can look for part time job at school..doing something related to my field. I can't wait to finish school to be exact! hahahah..look how greedy i am..
I love to be around people.. if i have the chance to work in ER..i will be the most happiest nurse in the world!!
BUt of course i have to score good score in order to get to that position...
Pray hard and i will try my best! :)

Mother's day celebration...

My mother's day celebration was pretty good. Must be wondering how would my wonderful MIL share this day with me huh? heheheh
Kit is very smart handling this..well, i suggest that bringing her for dinner..which we did on Friday because normally PIL will go to Mississauga (her daughter's place)on weekends.
..I will have Sunday all to myself..wohooo.. :)
Well, this morning, we went shopping and Kit bought me 2 blouses and one jean Capri..it was on sale at Zellers.
Oh gosh, i haven't been shopping for clothing for years!!! So is was very nice of Kit to do that..by knowing we have to save some money for my schooling and just in case Ryan's day care fee.
So, overall it was great! simple and nice :)

Oh yea..Kit also bought a watch for his mom... so not bad at all huh :)
Actually i don't mind him doing that for his mom, he Should!
I even ask him to give her a hug ..n guess what he said? we are not brought up like that..it will be weird...u english educated ppl can do that..but not us.
Duh!
oh well, i would give her hug..but i know she will be surprised and dunno what she will be thinking again...
sighhhhhhh...
anyway, dun wanna spoil my day :)

I hope every mothers out there having a great time :)
God Bless u all great Mothers !

I got approved

Finally, i got approved for Blogsvertise.
I can't wait to earn some money..hehehe..hopefully can ler..it will be a great help..least for some minor expenses :)

Blogsvertise = Ch'tt Chiinggg

Thanks to Mamabok about her entry on Blogsvertise.


Well, i thought i give it a try and to my surprise it is so easy than other get paid by blogging thingy. Is easy as 1 2 3.

First, u have to have a blog and a pay pal account.
Then, u go and register with Blogsvertise
Then wait till they approve your account and they will send you the sites of the advertisers and u can start blogging about the advertisers.
Make some comment or give your opinion about the site and let Blogsvertise to review your entry and they will let you know whether they approve or not. If they do..Ch'ttt CHing you'll get pay for it!

I am so looking forward for this ...hopefully everything works out :)

Thanks Mamabok

Celebrating Mother's day

My special wishes to Mamabok and Grace on this coming beautiful and meaningful mother's day!
Lucky Chloe and Bee to have you 2 as their mommy!
Happy Mother's day Girlfriends and God Bless this wonderful day!


To all mothers and future mothers out there ....

HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!

:)

Happy Mother's Day.. MOMMY

This was my mom when she was 15 years old and she won Miss Pesta Pulau Pinang at that time.
Wasn't she pretty?

Happy Mother's Day Mummy!

Mother's day

Mother's day is approaching... I am thinking of 3 very special ppl on this day.

1) My wonderful mother
2) Nellie- my ex-neighbor
3) My stepmother

MY mother
My mother has passed away for 15 years due to cancer. I didn't get to spend a lot of time with my mother or share those girly stuff with her coz when she passed away that time, i was only 14 years old.
She was a wonderful person...very sweet, patient, humble and kind hearted person.
She loved to laugh out loud..that makes her unique from other women. Easily humored.
I miss her a lot..I just wish that Ryan gets to know her.. I know deep down she will go crazy over Ryan.
Mommy, I love you..i still do.. Thank you for bringing me up...i know God Loves u more than i do..that's why U r up there with HIM forever.
I cherished all the good times that we had together and YOU are always my World Bestest Mother!

Happy Mother's Day, Mommy!
I LOVE YOU and GOD BLESS YOUR SOUL!


Nellie
A wonderful, sweet, helpful, humble, kind hearted lady. She is my ex-neighbor and she has helped me a lot when my MIL give me troubles.
She is like a mother to me in Canada.
She is still..
I love her...
I thank GOD for letting me have her in my life...

I love you and Happy Mother's Day, Nellie


Stepmother
She is my dad's gf who lives here in Canada. My relationship with her wasn't that good at first.
With God's blessing, our relationship grew better and better.
I know she couldn't replace my mom's place but she has a special place in my heart.
I appreciate for all the things she has done for me when i first came here and when my mil give me troubles.
She really treats me like her daughter. I appreciate her love for me.
I love her too.
HAPPY Mother's day, aunty..and God bless you!

THANK YOU!

Thank you Mamabok and all others who are giving me the supports and encouragements.
I appreciate and very touched!

I am okie... i just need to see things more positive i guess even though things and environment at home aren't so positive at all.
I can't change the people who is trying to bring me down...but i can try to save myself by avoiding her.
I praying hard for things to change...for GOD to make her realize that i am not a threat to her.
That's what she is thinking...and trying to annoyed me by doing childish things.
I am afraid she will ended like those old crazy woman..insecure..very insecure.

Mamabok, from the bottom of my heart, I thank you for understanding my situation,supporting and encouragement.

Grace, I thank you for your support, prayers, and encouragement.

To all moms out there who pray for me.. I thank you all...Bless you all kind hearted ppl!

what's new...

So much is going overhere..i am just keeping quiet about it and i am feeling tired, overwhelming, exhausted, worn out, annoyed, upset,... stresssed!

Yup... i just recently work on a questionnaire abt stress and guess where i stand... my stress level is on the dangerous zone..anytime i can burst out and become cook koo...
sighhhh.... i know i need to stay calm and stress free... heck..is easier to say than done eh..
tooo much for me already eh....

I bet u guys can guess where and what my problems are huh? hehehehe...same old ones...
nothing new..is just more and more to come and i am getting sick of it!
I just wish i can just run away and hide myself somewhere where no body can find me...
but on the other hand i have Ryan to take care.
I am hanging there...i am trying my very best here...u should see my panda eyes... getting darker each day eh..
i am soo stress out till i get insomnia...

I need a break from everything... coz rite now... i am a slave to everyone here..
I am no joking..i am serious.
No appreciation and nothing...just more shit for u to do!!

Vietnamese boy

My silly boy...trying out grandpa's Vietnamese hat.. Ryan said he looked handsome after wearing it. hehehehe
He even request me to take his picture..
:)

Bad weekend

Well, is the time of the month again... sigh..which i do not like at all..heck..every women hated it!
Furthermore i have my driving lessons today...i am soo exhausted and tired plus PMS is killing me!
To make it worst... the weather sux big time!
When can i see the warm and full sun again? WHEN?

Being nice or Smart?

Ryan is very smart and his brain is always in thinking mode... why? well, these are 2 situations that happened in separate days and makes me observed him and concluded what i just said..

Day 1

Nowadays, Ryan sleep with his daddy in Ryan's room...i guess Ryan miss his daddy soo much..so he has to sleep with his daddy.
One nite....Kit was snoring very loud..i could hear it even in my room.. Poor Ryan still not yet asleep at that time.. so, as i was trying my best to fall asleep with all the snoring noise from next door room..i heard Ryan trying to get out from the bed..
as he reaches the floor...daddy woke up and said

Daddy: Yau Zhen, heuy peen tou? ooi ooi ar ... (Yau Zhen, where are u going? come go to sleep)
Ryan: daddy mou wai ar... (daddy got no space here)
Daddy: Yau..lei la..ooi ooi ar( Got space..come n sleep)
Ryan: Daddy mou way ar...okie...mommy fun kor tou ... (Daddy got no space here...okie...going to mommy's room to sleep)

Day 2
Me: Kam mun nei fun peen tou? (Tonite where u going to sleep?)
Ryan: Daddy fun nnee tou (Sleeping with dadddy)

**** See how smart he is or being nice?... heheheh..he scaared to hurt his dadddy's feeling by telling daddy snored too loud....n i cannot sleep... instead..he just told his daddy that his daddy got no space to sleep in..
What a cheeky fella..


Scenerio 2
Well, in order to reward him to poop in the toilet..we told him he can have ice cream after he poop
so.last saturday we went to my Aunt's place in Toronto...and he didn't do his big business..
My aunt asked him wanna have ice cream or not.. he said...mei orr see ar (haven't bobo yet)
aweee..such a good boy here huh...well, my aunt said..is okie..today is special..u can have ur ice cream eventhough u have not bobo..

soo of course our boy here is happily jummping up and down...waiting for his ice cream
so when the ice cream came..he only ate 1 sppoon and said...mei or see ar...(not yet bo bo)
and didn't eat the rest of the ice cream..

we were like wooow...soo good? YA! right...well, he doesn't like the ice cream.. because my aunt's gave the scoop one ..and the ice cream on the bowl..
he doesn't like it..coz the one he used to eat at home are the ones with drumstick cone thingy...yea with nuts, chocolate , fudge..etc..
so he is just being nice by saying not yet bo bo instead of saying the ice cream taste no good..

Tak..tak.tak... emm koy sai

Its been awhile i update Ryan's speech ... well, he has improved a lot in his Cantonese...

Every time when i told him to do something or i do something for him he will say..

Tak..takk ..tak... emm koy sai.. (Cann..cann..can... thank you)

getting very matured these days...
Sometimes when i have to go to the bathroom, normally i will tell him...

Me: Yau Zhen, mommy hey chii sor ar (Yau Zhen, mommy go washroom okie?)

Ryan: Takk takk ... baby tang arrr..(Cann ..Can..baby wait here)

Isn't he cute or what?
hehehehe..cheeky little fella...

Daddy is planning to take him to the zoo next month...and we were talking about the animals like tiger, elephant, bears... monkeys..

Somehow, i dunno why..whenever we said we have to go to NoFrills (one of the grocery store here)...he will said

Ryan: heuy ahh fills, mai yue yuee, ar cheung, monkey, tigers ..okie? (go NoFrills..buy fish fish, elephant, monkey, tigers..okie?)

Mommy: ???! (wondering why he wants to buy all those thigns huh...must be the talk of the animals from the zzoo)

Done the essay!

WOhoooooooooooooo.... i have finished the essay for Psychology subject...which i a week late liao..hahhahha..i know i know...darn..getting lazy lately....and tired too.. ever since i see the weather getting warmer and warmer, i was like laundry crazy! hahaah..i wash and wash... as if like tomorrow will never have sun or something.. :)

Yup.. i just finished the essay like about 5 mins ago.. i can hand in on Thursday..or maybe tomorrow..depending whether Kit will drop me at the school or not.. will see.

Ai yo..the essay thing has been bugging me for weeks liao..couldn't force myself to do it...till just now..i have to drag my butt and force my rusty brain to think..
Phewwwwwww..finished already..felt soo good! :)

THursday will be an assessment for me...from the college...some essay, listening and reading test..
its been awhile liao...since i did that man...
i have to admit that i am getting old...
hehehe
wish me luck! :)

Half way there

I already got my CPR certificate...interesting knowledge...but my hand still hurts from all the compression i have to give to the dummies!
But i am very glad that i got the CPR thingy done...so i can scratch off one thing in my list..

I am in the process learning my driving... I really sucks at it...esp with my wheels.. so pai seh to said it overhere.. but what the hey, i will get it sooner or later.. I am booked to take my driving test at the end of May (actually it was supposed to be May 2nd, but i don't have the confidence at all, so switch to end of the month) ;)
Pls pray for me! I need all the prayers and blessing i can get on this!
I am serious.. i am a dangerous driver..coz i got panic whenever i made mistake.. :(

Anyway, i am still working on my high school diploma... gosh..tonite i have to burn midnite oil to finish the survey and essay on the psychology subject! WISH ME LUCK!

On top of everything, i am still doing okie...is just that my brain constantly in thinking mode all the time..
thinking of what are the things i have to do..
sigh.... seriously..i cannot help it.. on one hand i really pity my brain, on the other, i can't help it..
Maybe is because of my character, i want everything done..no mistake is allow!
Ha! i know that is bad...i need to learn how to be flexible..
that's how Kit is behaving..everything is calm..and i am the panic , crazy woman
hehehe what a perfect match huh? hehehhehe
well, what can u say for a "horse" myself and "rabbit" for kit :)

Toddler free...

Last weekend for the very first time we were toddler free...hahahah..yup Ryan agreed to follow PIL to Mississauga to SIL's place and overnight a nite..
Improvement huh? YA BABY!
I was very surprised when he agreed that he will behave and he wouldn't fuss looking for us at all..
We couldn't go because i have to go for CPR lesson on Sunday to get my certificate..it was a 9 am till 3 pm course..soo..busy weekend for me.

The secret on how and why Ryan can go without us is HOL (kit's younger bro), Ryan's fav uncle in the world!
Ha! i think he missed him alot coz we didn't visit SIL for almost a month...
Hol told me Ryan behaved great! he even pooped and peed the proper way :)
hahah poor HOL has to wipe his bum bum for the very first time..
mind u, Hol is young, bachelor and he is the youngest... I am very grateful Hol did everything for us..
He has been and always has help us...in everything.....

So, according to Mamabok, we are definitely seeing light at the end of the tunnel..hehehe
I am getting bit relax nowadays..coz Ryan really behave most of the time.. :)
THANK GOD!
AMEN!

Conversation with daddy...

Ryan is getting talkative these days...getting very mature to my surprise...

These conversations happened in different times and days...

We are having salsa with tostistos chips and all of a sudden Ryan said this

RYAN: (Giving his bottle of water to his daddy) Daddy arr yum sui ar ...yeet hey...bee boo bee boo..ouch ouch ar

Asking his daddy to drink water because i used to tell Ryan to drink lotsa water especially when he eat heaty food...
I told him if he didn't drink water..he will easily get fever..and ferbile seizure again..(like b4..which we have to call 911 and ended up in the hospital)

He amazed me by learning it soo fast and his memory very goo as well ! :)
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As we were watching tv, Dadddy asked Ryan to finished up his milky..

DAddy: Ryan, yum sai nen nen la (Ryan, finish ur milky..)
Daddy: You em u ching yeet hey ar? (need to heat it up or not?)
Ryan: em sai maa.. ok maa.. (no need)

Ryan uses a lot of those chinese "mmaa" at the end of his sentence..
i know..blame us..kekekek..typical malaysian habbit! :P
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Praise the Lord! He asked and did it!

Oh Lord! THank you! Hallelujah!
Ryan did it! This morning, after woke up, i let him pee and took off the night diaper..and he didn't ask to wear his training pants...and i didn't say anything..so he didn't wear his training pant at all..
around 9 plus in the morning, he asked me to bring him to pee! Oh my gosh...i thot he peeed on his pants already..but no wor..it was dry..
wohoooooooooo..
he did it..all day long he didn't wear his training pant..except during his nap time only..

The juicy part is..he even tell me that he wants to poop...YA BABY! I am seeing light here !
HAllelujah!
U r doing great my boy..mommy very proud of u!
I know u r good...
oh dear..no words can explain how excited and happy i am today eh :)

Guess what MIL said ...hah!

Me: Ryan knows how to pee liao...he asked for it
MIL: ohh? Good la..don't say it out loud... and don't talk abt it..later he hears it..he won't do it anymore..

Me:???!!!!

*got such a thing meh?*

NO COMMENT!

need to check all the time

I have to ask Ryan several times a day that whether he wants to poop or not..if he does..tell mommy....
then i will bring him to the toilet bowl with his own toilet seat thingy..

So far.. he still wont tell me when he poop...always i have to check on him..
sometimes..he already poop halfway in the training pant...then i have to carry him over to the toilet bowl for him to sit..n finish it off his big business..

Is getting better now..i really hope he will be fully trained by next year!

As for pee pee...still..need to remind him all the time..he doesn't know how to tell u that he wants to pee..

i have to be patient... sabar....is the key of success..in training him...

PIL blame me for not training him since baby... n of course..MIL will give me the look again...
actually i am used to it all liao..
no comment on what they are doing to me rite now..dun wish to comment at all..
Let it be..as long as ..my Ryan, Kit and myself are happy, healthy and things going our way..
i am very happy! that's my main concern..the rest.. i dun care!

i am all set!

The interview went alrite...but it was not the job that i expected...doing admin job. Oh well, they said they will call me by the end of this week if i am the rite candidate.
I am like err...if they hire me..okie..not the job that i wanted..but no harm trying..least can get some income coming in b4 i starts school...if not..it will be great for me..coz i can finish off my high school diploma without any delay and have more time with Ryan b4 i starts schoool.
As for the financial part, i am trying to apply for the government loan as well as some college bursaries and grants..if i am eligible.
will see how it goes..

I have called up some driving schools...and got one who provide hourly basis driving lessons..with a not bad deal..so..will start driving this Saturday...
I have registered my CPR course yesterday..which will start April 15.
So, i am all set now..
butttttt..still i am very worried..i worried things does not go my way or going rite...i worrie a lot of stuff here..

Honestly, i am a big worrier..i worried a lot..and worried everything. I cannot calm myself down..in fact..i worried since morning already..
till now..my head is pounding... i stress out now...of what? i dunno! that's the thing..
I scared, i am not in the rite path... i am not doing the rite thing..

Guess what happened during weekend? MIL got offer a job ...that allows her to work daily for 5 days a week and pay more than current job. Current job is not stable..if they need her..they will call her to work..sometimes..work for 3 days/week.
She is soo tempted to grab that offer..but fearing by Sept..she might have to stop as she promise me to take care of Ryan..
sooo...during Weekend... she hinted us alot of times..that she prefer working than taking care of Ryan..
there she goes...we might have to look for day care for Ryan...is not a problem..but is going to be very tough for us...financially and physically..
Seriously, i dunno what she wants from us....
i really dunno eh....if she is not working ..when she stays home that time..she always give me the look!
the look of unhappiness... kinda treat me as a punching bag...that i cause her to stay home.

So, i am kinda having this feeling..that she might give us problems when i start school.

NOw..tell me...do i have millions of reason to get worry and stress out here?

I really dunno here... i am doomed! i am speechless...!

Call me crazy...or not?

Well, i just received a phone call from a company i applied for a job last Friday..hahah..yea..i know i know..i am going to school soon..n still i look for job..
well, if i get this job..(interview this monday),working hours will be 5.30 pm till 9.30 pm..
doing clerical and data entry job..not bad hor...pay is minimum wage la..but least can cover some expenses for the school..

I know is going to be tough for me.. I pray hard GOD will give me all the strength i need in the world :)
will see how..if it works well, i am happy..if not.. i am happy too..either ways work for me! :)

What to do....?

I am very upset and do not know what to do now... .. Ryan is already 3 years 2 months old... still not completely potty trained. He is going to school next year eh..
I know it takes time...
That's not what i am upset about..
What i am upset about is... the way PIL giving him the negative way of teaching.. :(
Instead of positive encouragement, they will said.. u r useless ar..so big already ..still do not know how to pee or poop .... we don't love u anymore if u do not know to peep or ppoop..

I biting my tongue whenever they said that to Ryan. I knew in my heart..Ryan will eventually know how to go to toilet and do it. I am really upset the way how their traditional way of giving fear to children. I totally not agree with that..

The worst part is...MIL will be taking care of Ryan soon...i do not wish Ryan to grow up in such teaching.. :(

so what to do? tell her off? ha! Imposible to do that.... she is one sensitive, superior woman....always thought her ways are always the rite way...n for me to tell her what to do?
is like volcano erupting eh...so how? headache now for me...emotional drained for me now..i am still working on my high school diploma...it really tears me apart when i am studying and mil wathching him...sotimes i felt like just stop studying and go back to my full time mom job...can i?? i am torn apart! I already spend less time with Ryan while i am studying only the high school diploma subjects..what abt when i start full time college ??
Sighhhhhhhhhhhh... how? tell me how?

I am praying hard...very hard...that GOD will watch over RYan for me when i am not with him.
Oh GOD...Please..watch over RYan for me..touch his heart...touch my in-laws...please control the things that they said...
Sealed my family with love patience and harmony.. no negative words!
Let them speak with only LOVE..YOUR WORDS..oh LORD..THANK YOU...
AMEN!

Post for mommy ?

Yau Zhen, please post for mummy okie? Since u just came out from shower, smelling nice and looking so handsome...........

What should i do NEXT?

What should i do next...

1) need to find some driving intructors to teach hourly and get my license
2) enroll in CPR class and get the certificate b4 school starts
3) get the high school diploma b4 school starts in sept.. (which i am slacking soo much now)

Gorgeous day....

Wow...today is awesome...10 degrees celcious outside eh...we opened all the windows..and i wash 2 loads of laundry and dry it outside... felt like Spring is here.. :)
Tomorrow is going t be warmer..12 degrees but..is going to rain :(
But after that...when friday comes..the tempreature is going to drop again to below 0 degrees..what a roller coaster tempreature here eh...

But me no complaint..i am going to enjoy today the fullest...didn't go out...but least i get some fresh air! :)

I got it! I got it ! They accept me!

PRAISE THE LORD! I AM IN! PRACTICAL NURSING ...here i come!
Wohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
I just called the lady again..and she said.. i got an offer...all i need to do now is to confirm with OCAS..another agency or i dunno what they call..on monday!
THank you FATHER..Thank you JESUS..for blessing me! THANK U ..

no words can describe how happy i am now...i can dance naked now...wohoooooooooooooooooooooooooo! oawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..! yeeeeeeee haaaaaaaawwwwww!
: ))))))))))))))))))))
that's my smile..as wide as it can be :)

ArghhhH!

If i can scream it as loud as i can... I WILLL!

The frustration has increase more and more.... the waiting time is killing me!

Check the college website for the news yesterday nite...something appear differently...
under the offer status ...it stated *FINAL OFFER* and under the due date of confirmation..it stated MAY 1st 2007

what does that mean? I was jumping freakingly happy yesterday nite..thought tht they have accepted me...
but the word FINAL OFFER gives me some eerie thoughts...telling me that's not the answer!
I called the lady..the admission officer...she told me..the same thing she told me last week..
they haven't make the decision yet! call next week!
OH gosh!
Next week on the 13th ..is the college information nite...all applicants are encourage to go..

NOw.. i am still not sure i am accepted or not...FOR Crying out loud!!!!
I AM SOOO FRUSTRATED here...

now u can understand why i dare to pose the my pic up huh? when u r stress out..i dare to do anything..hahaahahha..
they are driving me nuts!

self posing picture....

Hey..now very popular hor that everyone will pose their very own picture...
hai sey... these are two example pictures ..
*my sis is going to kill me for this post*

first and second pic is two different person..guess which one is my sis...

****the first picture has to be taken out ...coz..pai seh la...later that lady will kill me eh...according to my sis**** hahahahhahahaahhahaah








Soooo.... i thought...i also wanna try one of my very own pose....somemore with ala angelina jolie style..except that this is piggy angelina jolie ler..

Pirate Capture!

Is this kid been captured and knock out?


Nahhhhhhhhhhh........


Ryan requested Yeh Yeh tie him like this and push that little car around the house..he played till he got so tired..and dun even wanna get up from the car...
all of a sudden..he just dozed off ..just like that!

People sure think that we torture RYan huh..kekekekke...

Orr See...thooum....thooum...

This is what we told RYan to do everyday....Orr See ...Thooum...thooumm.... (boo boo and thooum thoooum-shit fall into the toilet bowl)

I am trying so hard to train him to pee and ppoop in the toilet bowl..so far pee pee is no problem..but need constant reminding...as for the poop..ai yo..with bribing and singing and playing..all no work..
Yeh Yeh..bribe him with Pringles chips (his fav) ..if he pee pee he got 2 chips...and poop got 5 chips...still not working..

Just now..i was reading newspaper..and all of a sudden..RYan is no where to be seen...hmmm...and i heard this "Hmmmhpppppppph...Hmmppppph" someone is in the process of "khek sai" (getting out his shit) at the staircase..hiding..
Walau..me rushing upstairs and carry him down..and strip him down and put him on the toilet seat..
Woah..bit struggle htere...but THANK GOD! it was a success! He did it! FINALLY!
hahahaahah
oh boy..everyone is happy...RYan got his 5 chips as promised! and i dun have throw his smelly traning pants in the garbage bin..ai yo..!

Yeh Yeh and me

Steamboat

We had steamboat yesterday nite...PIL came back from Mississauga with tons of goodies from the asian store overthere... my fridge is soo full!
I miss steamboat back home in Penang..we usually have it every reunion dinner... but overhere..the Loo's family only have it when someone's birthday or get together..soo much different from my family back in Penang.

Steamboat here is soo different...they dun have a variety of balls...like fish balls, meat balls, sotong balls, ...and the meat balls here doesn't really taste good.

Steamboat here practically followed the hong kong style, they have their very own sarcha sauce...where u mix with one raw egg, hoisin sauce and siracha chili sauce....at first , i felt not very comfy with the raw egg in it..but now... "boh hue..hare pung hoo" meaning no fish, prawn also will do la... some hokkien saying ..no complain so much...be thankful..something like that..coz i can't demand so much eh...limited resources here eh..

I better dun complain soo much..especially i get to eat some chili sauce...if not Mamabok will knock my head eh..kekekeke

Anyway, it was a quite dinner yet simple and nice.. :)

MIL back to work today... so today i have to cook...lazy to study ..FIL is babysitting RYan..

He is soo attach to his grandpa whenever daddy is not around..kekekeke..like i said..mommy's role here is to discipline him..coz RYan has 3 ppl to spoil him..
so i cannot afford to spoil him anymore..someone has to take up the dirty job here..
what to do..
I am sure..he will thank me later when he grew up :)
As for now... he will think mummy is no fun at all ha!

3 more days ....

Counting the days eh.... no mood to study at all..couldn' concentrate at all... 3 more days in order to know the result...
Sigh....time flies so slow when it comes to waiting eh..

Ryan 's coversation

Ryan has grown soo much and i have been busy to post his update. The following are his daily conversation with us:

This happened in Ikea long time ago..i dun even remember the date. As u all know that Ikea do sell frozen yogurt for CND$0.75 ..after we have paid for the stuff we bought from Ikea..we had some yogurt at the cafe b4 we check out.
Ryan loves the yogurt! not only kids eh..this big mama loves it too..hahahaa
Anyway..this is what happened after i bought the yogurt..

Kit: Yau Zhen, daddy wai nei shek, hou mou? (Yau Zhen (RYan's chinese name), daddy feed you, ok or not?)

Ryan: Baby wai (Baby feed : he likes to call himself baby)

Kit: Moi la...cheen kan nei sheek dou yucky yucky....(dun want la, later u ate till ur clothes got dirty)

Both Daddy and son struggle to hold the yogurt ..till Ryan got upset.

Ryan ran over in the middle of aisle in IKEA and standing back facing us and said

RYAN : Baby lau ar! (baby angry ar!) *he even showed his face angrily eh....

US: LOL!

yup..he learned from us as in getting angry..coz everytime when we asked Ryan to do something..he refuses and we said..mommy lau ar..daddy lau ar..mahmah lau ..yeh yeh lau ar..

This is another conversation...

Mommy: Baby mou pah kou kou ar..cheen kan nei teet tou ..awe em chi ar (baby, don't climb high high, later u fell , i dunno eh )

Ryan: Yau Zhen em hai baby eh...Yau Zhen boy arr!

MOMMY: ???!!

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Mommy : Yau Zhen, wan sheet sheet mou? (Ryan, do u want to go play snow?)

Ryan: Tong tong ar! Peng peng ar...dai doctor ar (cold cold ar, sick sick ar , see doctor)

Mommy: CHeok dor di sum la...kam yat em tong ar...(bundle up and today is not that cold)

Ryan: Tong tong ar...dai fong ar...baby ook kei ar (cold cold ar...windy ar...baby stay inside house)

Mommy : Okie..mommy chuk hey wan shuet ..baby heong ok kei ..okie? (okie, mommy go outside play snow and baby stay inside house, okie?)

Ryan: Baby wan shuet ar...(fussing and said baby go play snow)

Ryan loves to play the good side or role..or what we call...playing opposite... whenever ...i let play snow or play water in the bath tub..he will act soo good and said..that is too cold..like copy what i told him b4!

Kek sei awe ar ..khi see wa ar (*slap my head*)

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Ryan loves his daddy very much..every morning he has to get up and say bye bye ...hug hug kiss kiss..his daddy b4 daddy can leave the house...
and mummy here..chia lat...dun really wanna get up around 6 am eh... ai yo...
but my lil king sure know the time...is like an alarm clock build inside him...

Daddy: Yau Zhen ..kuai kuai ar..daddy you fun kong ar..wan cheen wan cheen ar..(Ryan be good ar, daddy has to go to work and earn money)

Ryan : Fussing and cried a little bit

Daddy: Daddy you fun kong, wan cheen cheen..mai choo choo pei Yau Zhen (daddy has to go to work to earn money to buy baby choo choo (thomas and friends train))

Ryan : Gives daddy huggies and kisses..

After seeing daddy off..and Ryan said this:

Ryan: Dadddy fun kong ...cheen mai choo choo (daddy goes to work...money buy chooo chooo (thomas and friends train)

What a birthday!

Turning thirty two does not bring a good start for Kit at all. Yesterday was Kit's birthday and we had everything planned out. We were supposed to have KFC family meal (my treat)...and FIL already bought a Black Forest cake from asian store downtown..and even some candles too. I even taught Ryan how to wish and sing his daddy Happy Birthday.

It did not end up good at all...when the snow storm started around noon time yesterday. We had pretty bad weather yesterday again...started with heavy snow non-stop couple with strong gusty wind..then around 2 pm Kit called home asking how was the situation in Hamilton...i told him it was snowing heavily and he told me that his boss told him that if he wanted to go home ..he can do so... I was soo excited when he told me that he could come home early .... (i guess not)

Around 3 pm..Kit called n told me his car slided and went into a ditch.. :( The worst part was he was at the middle of nowhere in Campbleville...not even one soul..except some truck pass by...So i was soo scared and worried and asked him to call CAA or go ask for help..n i dun want to talk long on the phone..coz he needed the cell phone.
I was praying hard...and MIL worried too..kept telling me to call so and soo...walau..made me even more worried...i couldn't think at all...
THank GOD..i calmed myself down..and start to surf around looking for tow services...
after abt 20 minutes i gave Kit a call again..he told me there was a truck pass by and gave a ride to a nearest CAA ...phewwwwwwwwwww... PRAISE THE LORD!

To make the story short... Kit ended up staying over at SIL's place and left his car at CAA garage...coz his radiator broke..and will cost him abt 400 bucks to fix it...woah! we dun have such money to pay eh...so...Kit decided to to leave the car there first and called a taxi to SIL's place..and today...FIL and myself went to buy a new radiator..cost abt 198 bucks... and FIL and Kit are fixing it rite now at SIL's garage (This morning kit and Sil's hubby went to tow the car back from yesterday's CAA's garage- cost kit another 30 bucks..)

SO turning 32 has cost KIT about : tow the car out from ditch $100
: drove the car from the ditch to CAA's garage $50
: check the car..found our the radiator broke..$ 50
: taxi $35
: tow car from CAA's garage to SIL's place $22
: new radiator $225 (included taxes)

so... chit ching! there goes our income tax return money...out and go..hahahaha..

I am not complaining here..I am soo glad that KIT is safe! God really answered my prayers yesterday! I am very thankful! :)

Next Week

For the past few weeks.. i was under soo much stress...worrying about my nursing course program...i checked the college website whether i am accepted or not daily! Is very frustrating everytime i see the same thing ..which is " NO DECISION" arghhhhhhhhh...
i couldn't sleep good every nite...
I know.. i should leave everything to HIM..and have FAITH in HIM...i know..but..i a big worrier here eh...
I broke down and cried yesterday afternoon while talking to my aunt..or stepmom... she called me and asked me abt the college thingy..she knew i am under tremendous stress ..that's where i couldn't hold it anymore... i just broke down n cried...
COz i felt i am stuck in the middle.. I did all what they asked me to do..i even score the subjects...i don't see why they don't accept me..
I am soo worried that they dun accept me.. coz if that happens..i am stuck..i couldn't go work in business field..coz no one will hire me..as in ever since i graduated from my degree..i haven't been working for 5 years... who will ever hire me...unless i start studying again.. furtheremore business field i couldn't afford to work 9 to 5 job... i have RYan to look after..sigh...so i felt soo stuck..as in i couldn't more forward or turn backword!

Today, i called the program admission officer..she told me the same thing..no decision has been made... have to wait till next week.
Phewwwwwwwww..least i see some dim light here.. for sure i will know next week...yes or no..will be next week!

I never felt soo pressure before in studying situation...maybe because i know Kit is relying me to get into this course and get a job as soon as possible..so that we can move to another and better place and environment ..FOR RYAN!
I am soo eager to have my own career too...the INDEPENDENCE feeling...u know...i can buy anything i wish and want..without thinking twice.
ARGHHHHHHHHH!

Oh God please have mercy upon me and forgive me for not being patient...guide me to the right path and be with me throughout this journey LORD.. I need you and your comfort badly! Teach me and guide me to be more faithful to u and be your servant!
Thank you LORD.. AMEN!

I am on time!

Yippieeeeeeeeee i am on time..i am able to hand in my Unit 2 Psychology, sociology and anthropology ...thanks to FIL! hahaahah....last 3 days i was like chugha chugha chugha chugha chooo...rushing through my way to finish 5 lessons! hahaahah... Omigosh..i am soo stressful now eh..i still didn't hear anything from my application eh... ai yo yo... pls GOD! next week will be the last week to hear from them..if not i have to call them...

Tomorrow i will have the Unit 3 back..hopefully i can finish it within 2 weeks..so that i can get the high school diploma faster ...then i can argue with the college...Pls GOD.. bless my application!

Ryan's birthday pics (Jan 25th 2007)

These pics taken on Ryan's birthday.. Mara and Ian (our neighbour) gave Ryan sweater, jeans, candy,and a bear...he attack the bear candy first..and enjoyed it while watching tv. At nite..we had a small party for him..didn't managed to take the cake pic..coz Kit was using camera video instead.. Kit bought him Thomas and Friends train set..which Ryan loves it very much.. and picture with grandpa and grandma...

Snow Storm

We had about 50 cm of snow this morning... the pics will tell u guys the rest :)
Ryan had soo much fun...infact..MIL and FIL as well too..kekekek ;)

Gong Hey Fatt CHU Choi!

Gong Xi Fa Cai... Gong Hey Fatt Choi..to everyone is celebrating Chinese New Year this coming Feb 18th :)

Wishing u all good health, happiness, and prosperous new Boar Year! :)

We are getting soo much better after the cold.... but Ryan still have some running nose..
I am sooo busy taking care of housechores...coz MIL went back to work..i have to cook 3 meals a day for FIL and everyone..
I am soo drained till i have no time to study..not even start any assignment on unit 2.. worst part i have to hand in this coming 22nd feb..kekkke..pai seh... 5 lessons ..chiaaaaaa latttt man... wish me luck lor :)
Somemore this weekend will be another 2 full days..coz all in-laws coming over for reunion dinner...well, luckily me not cooking ler..MIL will be the one who cooks..kekeke..of coz the chef cook ler..me only assistant...

Anyway, have a great and wonderful time with your family n loved ones :)
HAPPY VALENTINE's day too!!

Kit won't be in Hamilton this Valentine coz snow storm in hamilton today eh..it will last till thursday..
So he will be sleeping over in MIssissauga (Kit's sis place) coz nearer to his work place..
so i will be celebrating Valentine with my PIL and Ryan...hahhaa...new version of Valentine huh ? :)
nevermind ler...
as long as everyone happy... anything also can ler..

what a weekend :(

Last Saturday started great...where mil and i went to centre mall...it was a great walk...Kit and Ryan stayed home... they decided to play snow instead.
When we got back...kit had made an appointment to go for hair cut at 4.40pm..so we went out around 1 plus just by ourselves ...for the first time..Ryan allowed us to go out!

We got back around 5 plus...and everything went normal..except that FIL had flu on friday liao.. :(
I was so worried that Ryan caught it..but he seems okie on saturday...
around sunday morning 1 am...Ryan had febrile seizure... yea..this seizure cause by fever... this is the second time he had it...the first time was last summer :(
We had to call 911..and spend few hours at the emergency ....
Came back around 5 plus in the morning..didn't get to sleep..i was watching him..all nite..making sure his fever gone down...
I dun like when Ryan is sick...it is soo hard eh...if i can choose..i rather get sick..than him..
Well, sunday whole day , we didn;t get to rest..3 adults making sure that little Ryan is okie...he doesn't want to eat, or drink..that is the worst part...and his fever was like 38, 39 on and off..
on sunday nite...i started with this dry cough...and headache...alamak..my turn pulak..
Kit was soo nice..he sleept with RYan...all nite looking after Ryan for me...so monday he couldn't go to work..coz is his turn to get flu...and myself too
Lucky thing..MIL didn't work this week...so she help us alot..i mean alot!
I really appreciate what she has done here....I thank you...
will give her big hug later when i fully recover...
i am still having this flu bug with me..and the stupid cough...yesterday i coudln't get up from the bed..it was worst last nite...today least i get some strength...to walk around and online :)

January 25th - Ryan's 3rd Birthday

Happy 3rd Birthday my dear boy...time really flies... I thank you for letting me to learn how to be your good mother.. I thank you for letting me to learn how to love someone soo much...I thank you for letting me to learn how to be more patient...I thank you for letting me to learn how to be a kid again ;)
Most of all, I thank you for letting me to be part of your life!
Mommy wish you good health and happiness always! :)
Love you very much!


Note: I like the way how mamabok did Chloe 3year old birthday slideshows..that's how i got inspired from :)
Thanks MAMABOK!

random picture part 2

i just notice i have post twice RYan's pic..is this pic that i meant to post it.. isn't he silly :)

Random pictures

MIL didn't go to work this week and i managed to catch up my studies and all of a sudden i am too free today..kekekek
It is snowing quite heavy outside, so i thought take some pictures..but it is not as bad as the one that Mamabok showed..

Ryan had fun outside again with FIL...with the snow sleigh..didn't get to take pics..
maybe next time..
Look at my sunroom..full of Ryan's toys everywhere..this is the messy part ler.. ;)
silly RYAN...whenever i wanna take his picture..he will smile silly-ly for me.. :)

2007 Snow

Finally, today it has snow a little bit and Ryan get the chance to play with the snow and wear his snow boots and snow suit :)
He had lotsa fun..and tried to help us shovel the snow..kekeke..
Yup again..he wanna work ;)
my handy mand huh ;)

Super Busy

I have been very busy lately due to the house renovation. I am not doing the reno but i have to clean and prepare lunch and dinner for everyone, as well as taking care of my little brat.
I have neglected my studies lately due to i am way to tired to study at nite. Sigh, i guess i have no time to update my blog.
Will have to continue whenever the project is done.

Super tired here eh....my bones felt like wanna crack everyday...never felt this tired b4..sigh...maybe getting old..and fat too! hahaha maybe this is kinda good way to force me to exercise..kekekeke

ANyway...will come back to blogging whenever i am free :)

This N That

Ryan has improved alot in his language..be it Cantonese or English. His vocabulary is getting better and better. Below are the daily conversation between Ryan and us at home.

YESTERDAY during dinner

I have cooked black bean soup with pork bone and the pork bone i bought got lotsa meat. Normally, kit loves to eat those meat by dipping it on soya sauce.

Ryan saw Kit eat those pork bone meat and he says :

Ryan: "Kim chuu yuk....suiii" (I dunno how to translate Kim in english here...so i am trying to translate to the closest.. "squeeze pork meat....water")

FIL, MIL, Kit and myself: ?????

after few seconds..i managed to get what he said..

ME: ohhhh...hey u sek chuu yuk dim see yau eh (he wants to eat the pork meat by dipping the meat on the soya sauce)

smart little one...he made his own words...he doesn't know how to say the right words as in... "kiap chu yuk dim see yau" (taking the pork meat using chopstick and dip in the soy sauce..)
soy sauce ..he said water...walau eh..


Conversation with grandma

Mil was carrying him front way as in Ryan sleeping straight on her arms... and MIl jokingly said...

Grandma: awe tiow nei ar ( i am throwing u..)

Ryan: Tiow lap sap (throw garbage)

He is saying that he is garbage....and ask grandma to throw garbage...he said that because every thursday whenever kit has to take out the garbage...Kit usually said..tiow lap sap har..(throw garbage har)

My big helper

Here is my big helper eh...getting rid of the wall paper ;) Yup, FIL and Mil are helping us to renovate the house...Coolies eh! ...
hehehehe
Summer comes we will paint the whole house..it will be a big project.
Look at my little one...so concentrate on working! :)

Xmas pics

These pics taken on i think christmas eve...yup b4 we went to Mississauga. Excuse the mess and of course Ryan is still with his bottle! :(
I am trying so hard to wean him off..he just won't drink his milk using sippy cup or ordinary cup. :(

Of course..i have gain sooo much weight... i hoping i can go walk around the neighbourhood these days while MIL look after Ryan.
sigh.... that's why i dare not put my picture up...but what the hey...fact is fact..got nothing to hide! hehehehehe
Will be my New year resolution...loose 10 lbs b4 i start school :)
Wish me LUCK!

Green Xmas

No snow for this year's xmas.... pretty much dry one eh... i am not sure this is good news or bad news..but definitely good one for me..coz it won't be so cold and wet lor..hehehehe

We spend our xmas at Kit's sis place in Mississaua....infact, i am writing this post from my sil's computer...we have stayed overnite for the last 2 days liao...
Our xmas eve was pretty good...i have cooked lamb curry and sil made viatnamese spring roll and chinese herb soup. Preety much chinese style of xmas dinner..kekekek
Xmas we had turkey at Kit's cousin place in Bayview. It was great..Kit's cousin is a great cook! we had turkey, chinese spring roll, roast beef, fried noodle, salad, bean salad...
the best part is ..she made all those dishes herself! I really salute her eh! actually she can open up a restaurant! :)

Today, boxing day, kit got up early with his younger bro, Hol, to staples and loblaws to get somethign they want. I have stayed home coz Ryan was still snoozing away. After around 10 plus..Kit got back and had his bfast and out we go again to Walmart. It was a total disappointment...coz we didn't get anything that really cheap.
Good news in away la..coz save money lor :)

Ryan is having a blast coz he loves his uncle so much that he totally forgot abt us. Poor Hol coz he was soo drained from playing with Ryan.
Of course both of us, kit and i are having a great time of baby free! hahahah...

I hope everyone had a great xmas and enjoying their holidays!

Happy New Year everyone !

Introduction to Anthropology,Psychology and Sociology

While waiting for the good news...the next subject i have to do is Introduction to Anthropology, Psychology and Sociology... walau..name also so very gaya one... i really dunno what else to pick...so i pick this one.
I am doing this one in order to get my ontario high school diploma.. furtheremore psychology is one of the subject i will learn in nursing..
so i thot this can help me.
All together it has 4 units..the first unit..the folder darn thick! like the telephone directory book....
but i think it will be interesting..not as boring lor.. ;)

Good luck to me la.. hehehehe...more studying again..

This is it...waiting time

Wohoooooooooooooooooooooooooo! i finnally got my result and i just applied for my course. All i have to do now is wait and continue studying for another 2 subjects in order to get Ontario, canada High school diploma..just for the fun of it ler..coz i have several months before i start the nursing course in sept. :)

I got 83% for English paper and 96% for my Biology paper...hehehehe..pai seh... never thought i can get so high for my biology one.
I am soo happy now and such a big relief Phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

I have to wait till next march in order to know whether i will get into the course or not...Please everyone..pray for me!
Hope everything goes well :)
Thank you ..thank you.. :)

Weekend at Mississauga..

Last weekend we spent it at my SIL's place..coz on Saturday nite, we had to attend Kit's company Christmas dinner. It was splendid and i had a load of fun! The restaurant served Portugese cuisine..something new for me.. Food tasted not bad..but not really great ..great for me..
We started with soup..dunno what kind soup is that... then greek salad. Next was baked fish and some western rice.
The fish was good! I thought the fish was the main meal... me wallap la everything...i even skip the bread while having the soup.
Walau..after the fish, came the steak!! my goodness...i can hardly eat the steak man..i didn't eat it...
but Kit was like finish everything! coz he is crazy over steak...he was not supposed to eat beef due to his religion thingy...but..outside..he dun care ler..kekekek
then after that came the deserts...waffle with ice cream..that also i didn't take...
i was soo fulll liao... but i cannot miss one thing..
COFFEEE! hahahah i must have the coffee..gee they had the cappucino and expresso ...woah..of coz i attacked la.. ( like those suah pak kau only (like monkey just came out from the cage)) heheheh...
kit had expresso and i had cappucino lor...
so of coz both of us end up cannot sleep at nite..hahaahahah..i didn't get to sleep whole nite..so Sunday was soo tired...
Luckily FIL made malaysian kopitiam kopi o..wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh again my eyes wide open after 2 cups..haahahahah ;)
man missed those kopi eh

Overall our weekend was alright... at first i thought i will not enjoy it coz have to meet the in-laws ..(they got back last tuesday dec 12 but stayed at their daughter's place..) which is good news la..kekekek
wohooooooooooooo buttttttttttttttt
guess what everyone?!
I was soo sooo touched that MIL gave me one necklace..a jade necklace...well they went to Beijing on Nov ..n she thought of me eh?
I was soo touched eh..i almost wanna give her hug..but i knew she won't like those thingy..they never like those lovey duvey stuff.
To tell u the truth...at that moment... i almost wanna cry...coz is not the value of the necklace thing that i care abt..is the thought that she had for me!
I am very very touched and surprised eh..
THANK GOD! i really hope things will really work out for us... Because..i really wanna have a mother figure with me..coz my mom passed away when i was 14 years old..soo it will be splendid if we can get along! :)

Change of plan...

I am supposed to pick up my result today and start applying for my course today..unfortunately, they didn't have my result yet. :(
I am not very flexible type of person here... coz once i have my plans planned ahead..i will make sure i get it done and i want it perfect.
This morning when i got to know that i couldn't pick up the result..i was very dissappointed till i dunno what to do next.
My whole day was a mess. I know i am very bad at adapting in situations...this is really bad side of me.

We are supposed to visit my previous neighbour Nelly this evening..but when i called her..she prefered that i visit her during the afternoon..so again.. another mess up plan..hahaahha
i guess today, God is teaching me a lesson to be more flexible.
Nellie told me to visit her after 1 pm.
That time it was around 11 plus am.
So.. i was soo moody abit and dunno what to do... i can't sit still..and i have to do something...
so i bake lor...hehehehe...
I bake banana walnut cake..the one i had the recipe up on the blog b4 but without the pic..this time i managed to take some pics..

everything has to change today..even the dinner plans.. i was supposed to bake some ribs tonite.but didn't get to marinade it..due to i was at Nellie's place..
i just got back not long ago..
i have to cook something easy and fast tonite..maybe some noodles ler..kekeke
tomorrow Kit has to take some sandwhich to work for lunch..heheh
infact i am having my lunch now...sighhhhhhhh... i dun like this..i dun like surprises ..i like to plan ahead!
i know sometimes we need to go along the situation..but i can't.. i just can't...
so today is pretty bad for me..but at least i get to see NELLIE..
:) and RYAN is taking his nap now..at 5.30 pm..sigh...tonite he sure cannot sleep liao.. chialattttttttt

The model

This afternoon, Ryan wanted his pictures taken..so he possed for me. He even showed off his school bag.
Maybe he wanted to be a model in future huh..then this big mama will be his manager..kekekek ;)

I love you until i reach the moon!

For those who already married, did your spouse personalized the wedding vows for u guys?
For us..nahhhh...Kit will never be that sensitive..he only follow blindly what the reverend utter out..from the bible...

Yesterday, i asked him, if he is given another chance...will personalized the wedding vows for me? and he was like..errrrrrrrr...vows? what is that?
I told him...the promises u made during the marriage thingy la..
n he was like...ohhhhhhhh...the one i have to follow the reverend said one ar?
i said..YA la! then the conversation goes like this..

Kit: vows ar.... hmmm what abt u? what abt your vows?
Me: heyy..i asked u first... so answer my question ler...
Kit...hmmm...errr okie okie..goes like this... I will love you until i reach the moon...
ME: until u reach the moon?? the heck...u can easily reach the mooon now..just have to pay nasa billions bucks..then off u go!
KIt: errr..no no... what i meant was reach the moon ..very high..very strong...
Me: but u said until wor..after u reach moon liao..u dun love me ar..?
Kit: err...ai yo..u know me la..my english no good one...
ME : SIGH....

can die or not... kit is not the expressive type of person..but he cares for u through action.
I guess all engineers are like that kua..kekekke ;)

12 December (tomorrow)

YUp ...PIL are coming back tomorrow ..... hmmmm...i am not really very exicited abt it... frankly, i am kinda sad... i know things will be very different when they come back.
Sigh...oh please God... help me! Touch her heart... pretty pls... n mine too...Guide me through this challenge... i need strength to face them. All i need and pray for is peace, harmony and love in this family!

I know i need her to take care of Ryan for me when i go to school.. but..there are issues between me and my mil. Or should i say she has issues with me rather. I know she doesn;t like me at all. Tried very hard to be somebody's DIL... Sugar! i tell u..is hard to please someone who doesn't really like u at all!

I know i will be stronger and smarter if i can get through this challenge/battle/situation.... i need all the strength and patience in the world!

Finally...half way over...

Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... i am free abit now liao..today i just handed in my exam for biology. Waiting for the result to come in next week, then i can start apply for my course!
I am on time...yay!! Actually all the five books of biology, i did pretty good eh... i am proud of myself...
first book i got 99%, second i got 93%, third book and fourth book i got 97% and fifth book i got 100%. Being sucked at science... (only managed to get C5 for my SPM general science in malaysia), these results are actually good for me! :)
I am waiting for the exam result only.. hopefully everything goes well and next week i can apply for the nursing course!
And if everything goes well... will be starting the nursing course in SEPT 07.
Things to do after i get the acceptance letter:

1)Need to go take up CPR lesson and get the certificate (one of the requirement for the course)

2)Learn Driving( yea..pai seh..already 28 liao..i still haven't get my license)

3)Apply for Canadian Citizenship

4)Get ready for going back to school :)

Hopefully, next year will be a totally diferent year for me. I know it will be hard for me as in balancing both studies and family. Just pray hard that God will guide me and give me the strength to do it!
2 years only.. i just need 2 years..then things will start getting better and better :)

Lucky ....extremely lucky!

Who is lucky here? definitely not me la.... well, i am talking about kids today...especially kids over here...
As u all know..Xmas is approaching... so presents ...toys..clothings ,etc etc..
This evening, i thought i wanna take a break from all the studying and taking care of Ryan...
I told Kit that we will go to the mall for ..just window shopping..getting fresh air and look see around.
Every time we go to Walmart,we have to stop at the toyland section for our king here..
Nothing different this time, except that bit crowded with parents and kids at this section compared to before.
Parents got headache as in what to buy for their kids for xmas... i saw one calling home asking the wife which is the exact model that their son need... and there is this couple..with 2 of their daughters...going through aisle by aisle of the toy departments asking what their daughters want....
it seems that price is not an issue anymore here...walau eh... back in my time...i dun really recall that i ever had this kind of privilege.

Well, we are no different from those parents except..we still look at the price tag... we are looking for toys below 20 bucks for Ryan...hehehe..al cheapo ler.. what to do.. Single income only nya...i am not working yet...and we are not printing money here.

Soooooo... kids nowadays are very lucky!