My dad and me on my graduation day. Picture taken outside my house before we were leaving for the ceremony. How do my dad look? Still handsome? hahaha..he is eh.. especially with his grey hair..kekekek ;)

These are my parents. I believe my mom was 15 years old and my dad was 18 years old when they took this picture. Well, that time my mom won MISS PESTA title. not bad huh?

Well, what u guys think? DO i look like my mom or my dad? haahah.. ..

Typical April (spring)weather.

WHen u see the topic..weather? hahahah meaning i got nothing to blog. It has to be weather then lor. hehehehe
Oh well, last couple weeks it has been great. SUnny and warm weather ..felt like summer, where we had 20 over degrees celcious. People busy staying outside enjoying the weather and bbq-ing.
Infact, customers in my work place behave themselves as well. U see, my work got related with the weather, not to say directly related....but the weather played a major role in my work situation.
When the weather is cold, everyone is grumpy and trying to release their stress on the order taker (which is me) and when the weather is warm and good... they will behave good and if u r lucky they even ask how u doing. hahahaha
that's life huh!

Oh well, lately this week, the weather has back to normal which is the spring wet weather. It's been wet all week and cloudy for the rest of the week.
Work has been busy coz ppl will order more pizza when the weather is bad. hehehe i really dunno why is that. Dun ask me why. :)
Anyway, i am kinda immuned with the situation already although i still feel the phobia of going to work..but once i am there..i am okie.

The crazy weather has affected Ryan's health as well. He started with fever last friday..then monday he catched a cold and developed cough as well. It's been crazzy for me and kit these days. We couldn't sleep at nite coz always kept an eye on Ryan. When he cough .. he tend to vomit everything he ate. Ai ya ya...i have to change the bed sheet 3 times in one day...
somemore i couldn't dry outside..no sun to dry it eh.. so i have no choice i have to use dryer.
I dun really like the dryer ...it has one kinda smelll...is not like fresh anymore.

Sighhhhhhh...they said, when baby sick... u can never rest. U have to watch them 24 hours.
Luckily , he is bit better noww.
:)

Anyway, is friday today..life is not soo bad! Up and down like rollercoaster is better than calm waterr. Coz with the rollercoaster-ing experience..it gives u knowledge and wisdom to become more wiser!! :)

Have a great weekend eveyone.

Women

Hey hey.. its been awhile since i last posted. Oh well, i have been busy as always and Ryan is sick too. :(
Ryan started to get fever last Friday and he was okie on Sunday..butttt after visiting my in laws on Sunday, sighhhhhh..he got sick again. Rite now he is bit better and snoozing away.

Last nite i had this thought of the responsibilities of women...well, u see, when we were first born as female, our role is to be daughter to our parents. Girly like, cute and sweet to everyone. Then when we grow up to abt say maybe 13 to 18 years old, our responsibilities grow..from just being daughter to a good daughter as in have to help mommy to clean, tidy up the house , wash this and that and some have to cook as well. And as soon as we got married, we got new roles, a wife, daughter in-law and sister in law. Oh boyy, more responsibilities added up to the ones we already had. As a wife, u have to take care of ur hubby and home. As a daughter in-law, geeze..this one i couldn't say much.... coz i don't really have any chance to participate this role as in my in-laws never allow me to do it.
So, i really dunno what a daughter in law should do...if u asked me the role of previous time (my mother's time) of daughter in-law role ... i can give u that answer. Easy, just one word.. SLAVE.

Then, when u have children.. u got another new role added up. MOTHER role. Oh boyyyyy, this role is not easy eh. I am still learning and still sometimes wish somebody can be there for me to give me some advice to be a mother.
As a mother, u always put ur children and hubby first and urself last. Maybe that's why God made us the one who can give birth because we are more sensitive.

I am a little bit proud of myself as in I have taken care of Ryan by myself without anyone's help. oh well, not like lotsa women nowadays where they have mother in law or mother to take care of their child while they go to work.
I chose to take care of my own son than letting my mil do it because I feel it is my responsibilities to do it. I am the one who bring him into this world.. i should take care of him.
I forgo my career and dreams for my family. I may felt a little bit regret but i still feel is well worth it.
Least, Ryan is well taken care of. He knows that his mummy is there for him.

Ohh, i shouldn't take alll the credit though... Kit helped alot too. We did it. This is the western culture..not like in Malaysia where usually the MIL will take care or Indonesia maid will.
Hmmmm... i felt like this will affect the child's psychology as in the mother didn't get to bond with the child at all. Those kids speaks good Bahasa and communicates more to the maid than own mother.
I have a friend from China, who migrated to Hamilton 4 years ago. She gave birth to her first daughter when she first came here. She couldn't take care of her daughter due to she wants to continue studies and get a job, therefore she sent her daughter to China to let her mom to take care for 2 years.
Last year she gave birth to second daughter, so she decided to bring back her first daughter. I can see the f irst daughter is very quiet and always in isolation mood when u talk to her...even she didn't really focus on what her mother talks to her.
I felt soo sad for my friend and her daughter. It affected the child soo much.. the abundant and loneliness.

SO, is always worth it if u sacrifice for ur own child. Spend more time with them and shower them all the love u have. :)

body image

Today we are going to do some brainstorming. Body image, an important issue for all women. It has become a crucial thing for every women nowadays. They are soo concern about how they look and how other people protrays them.

So, let me ask you all people, what is the best body image or rather body figure in this world? Is it the number measurement of 36,24,36 (36 of breast size , 24 inches of waist size and 36 inches of bum size) that determine the most popular and common goal figure of every women? Or the weight that determines the body figure such as 45 kg, or 50 kg or 100 lbs?

To be honest to u, I have this problem since i am young (4 -5 years old). I am always the chubby one. I ate alot and i drank lotsa milk. I am always being teased by friends and relatives calling me the "fat" one, tor pui (fat in hokkien) ah fat , etc etc.
I remembered my brother always teased me saying that i will never get married one, no one will marry you because u r soo fat, Unless u married to "too bak ko" (man selling pork in market)
SO, since i was young, i never behave like a gal, i dressed like a guy, play with guys and talked like guys and i even cut my hair very short.
I have this thought that there is no one will like me as who i am, i better behave like a guy. Least i get some attention.
My sister is the opposite, she is slim, and very umm "siu chia" (lady like) . She even know how to act "politely" by crossing her legs when taking pictures.
I used to envy my sister as whhy she always get soo many attention.
When i grew up ( say abt teenager that time), I started to have feelings for boys, is hard that time.. because i am chubby and no one will like me. I always kept all the ffeelings to myself.
Whereas my sister, walauuuu..u can say lotsa "hor sin" (lalat, flies = boys) aftering her.
SOo, i told myself i will never get married and grow old alone as a spinster. :))
hahahaahah
Mana taaauuuu.. (who knowsss) this chubby, tor pui managed to get married and nnow had a son.

Oh well, the bottom line of the story here is, beauty is not based on only the body image or figure.
Love is not only based solely on how u look, they also based on how u behave and how passionate u are.
Kit neverr "hiam" (got any problem) with my weight.. but of coz i have to exercise and loose the weight for the sake of my health.. not for the sake of the beauty!

Women nowadays are very crucial with their image,and how the guys will look at them. Well, if the guy is sincere and true abt you and love u and care abt you, he will and able to see through you.. ur inside and love you from inside out.
THat will be the guy u can spend the rest of ur life with.... coz he managed to see through u inside.

I am not saying that we women should be overweight or no make up or no need wear nice clothings to look good.
Well, i am just saying, we women have curves, shapes and sizes. Is how GOD created us.. different from the men.
Therefore, we dun have to be harsh on ourselves and star trying to celebrate who we are .
Of coz, sometimes we need to pampered ourselves by buy clothings, put make up to look good :)
Just a little bit touch up. ehhee
Eventhough, for those overweight women, dun feel that if u r overweight, u cannot be nice and pretty, there are lotsa clothings outhere suitable for we , full figured women. We still can look good eh.
GOD is always fair..he created us with soo many sizes, colours and shapes. What we have to do is, try to accept and feel good abt what we are .

Models and actresses on tv, they are not real! They look good because everyone wants to see it.
Therefore, dun ever compared to them.
Just believe and feel good abt yourself!!

AMEN!

busy weekend

It was a hectic weekend for us.. but we really enjoyed it very much. First of all, Kit don't have to work over time so he came back around 5.30 pm for the whole week last week. Secondly, the weather was superb, we had sunny and was abt 15 degrees celcious. I was able to dried my clothings outside!
of coz Ryan gets to explore outside..hehehehe.. yeaa his first time on the grass but he felt funny for awhile though.

Then came weekend, Kit managed to changed his 4 tires (is time to changed, all 4 of them worn out) so, of coz this Big Baby wanna tried out his new tires on highway. So, he decided to go Big Land Farm (one of the chinese grocery store in Missisauga) to shop for our grocerries. That made me excited coz i get to get out from Hamilton. hehehe.. oh well, is always nice to get out from a small city once in awhile..but i still prefer living in small city, not soo crowded and always peace and quiet.
We shopped alot, not those ordinary stuff we can get it overhere.. we bought lotsa those frozen dumplings, won ton, "kau chi" "siu mai" and paus (steaming bun), and of coz "char siu" ( bbq pork) . Char Siu there very cheap, 3 big pieces only cost us around 4 bucks. IF we buy it here..oh boyyy..cost us a fortune.
Then we bought lotsa goodies like junk food..hehehe not for us..for our neighbour..she loves the crackers. ( once we gave her for Christmas, she loves it very much- she's italian canadian)
We also bought some ingredients for Char Koey Teow.. (famous Penang -fried noodle). Well, not me cook it..hahaha eventhough i am from Penang..but Kit will fried it. Trust me..he fried better koay teow than i do.. hahha pai seh!
We fried it on Sunday morning and gave some to our neighbour (MARA and IAN). They loved it soo much and insisted that we gave her the recipe..hahaha..
Saturday was very tiring for me..coz i gotta work from 5.30pm till 9 pm. boyyyyyyy...not to mentioned Ryan woke up up around 6 am.
His sleep has been going upside down ever since the daylight savings.

Anyway, SUnday morning was lovely dayyyy...we were outside busy cleaning out backyard and planting spring perenial flowers. :)
I love my back yard soo much... furtheremore the previous owner kept the garden soo nice and clean.
I will take some pictures when the flowers started to bloom.. ;)

As we were halfway cleaning the backyard my MIL called asking whether Kit can fetch her to buy something coz FIL working on that day.
So, no choice gotta stopped everything n got changed and headed to MIL place and went to place where she can get her stuff. I worked at 4 pm on that day..by the time she finished shopping, it was already 2.30 pm..Kit suggested that we stayed at MIL place and later he would drop me off at work.
Oh well, at first i don;t feel good but i thought i could bring Ryan over to Nellie's place ( my old neighbour-very nice lady)
so we visited Nellie and sat till 3.45 pm and quickly left for work.
I was really beat that day!

Luckily i was off early coz no business on that day due to many ppl started to BBQ-ing . Nice day maaa.........
so, we stayed over at MIL's place for dinner.. and got back home around 8.30 ppm.
OF coz that nite i fed Ryan, i have learned the strategy, i scoop the rice first before she can do that..hahahahha
and of coz Ryan is always on my side..kekekekek ;)

Pretty much ok ok day , or week i guess. DUnno whatt's for this week..hehehehehe

This is Nellie, she is 74 years old already. SHe used to help me babysit Ryan for me so Kit and I can go out and spend time together. SHe bought lotsa stuff for RYan..and treated Ryan like her own grandson. I love her very much! GOD BLESS HER ALWAYS! 

two women fighting for lovee...

Is the time again.... where Kit told me we have to go visit his parents on Tuesday nite. It started with my MIL called on Monday nite saying there is a registered mail where we have to go pick it up at the post office. I answered the phone when she called and when i said "hello" , i heard she was kinda shock and hessisated awhile before she continue the conversation. She was surprised that i answered the call...coz normally Kit will answer the call. She dun even know my name that time...coz still in shocked!
I said Helloo, then she said..ahh ahhh...then i said.."ah ma ar, meh si? (in cantonese..meaning mom, what is it?) then she said..arr arrr..gene arr...then continue telling me abt the letter stuff...then i was asking her..whose letter is it? Because my sister in law,bro in law n us lived there b4..it could be one of us. So, she said she dunno, then i was like thinking inside..how come u dunno...of coz there is a name there on the letter whatttt... then i automatically thought hmmm..here she comesss another trick to trick her son to go visit them..n bring Ryan there of coz!
Sigh....... so i said..okie..hold on forawhile..let me pass it to Kit and u talked to kit..coz during our conversation..she doesn't seems like wanna talk to me.
So, as her wish, i passed the phone to Kit..n all Kit said was : Meh si ar ma?, awee..okieeeee..aweee..tin yat waa lei lor la. ( what is it mom? ..aweee, okie aweee...tommorow i'll c ome over to pick it up). THat was it..i was likee okieeeeeeeeeeeee...do i have to go? hmm..of coz i did not ask Kit rite away..of coz i did not show my face atall.. if not will upset Kit.
I know i know they are Ryan's grandparents too..butttttt heyyyyyyy... i am the one with the phobia for what she has done to me. I admit i need to get rid of those negative feelings..
i really can't help it! GOD HELP ME PLS!

soooo, before i can ask Kit whether we are going tomorrow or he go alone, he told me he will go to his parent's place rite after work. Phewwwwwwwwwww, what a relief.. Ryan and me can stay home and enjoy the peace and comfort in our own place.

SO the next day came, as planned Kit went to pick up the letter, n came back...he was upset and unhappy. So, I asked him why, what happened? He told me, "dad look tired and "chan" eh" then i say why..(my father in law started working at the grape yard..picking the grapes for the vinery process) it was a hard labour kinda thing. The hours is bad, he has to get up around 4 am n start work at 6.30 am then finished at 3 pm. He only gets half an hour lunch..that's it. N they pay him 10 bucks an hour..
he is out under the sun and brutal winchill almost the whole day..n comes back , still have to cook for his wife toeat..which the wife only comes back from work at 6 pm..
so poor old man. he is not used to that kinda life..coz back in Malaysia..he is a boss of a smlla machinery shop..so normally he just meet customers n have lunch and dinner.

sooooo...as kit was telling his dad stories,,bla bla bla..so i just listen then suddenly from his mouth his said..tomorrow (wednesday) we are going to visit them and have dinner there.
opppppppsssssssii! did i heard him wrong?
i was like stung by a bee or something... n felt soooo unhappy..but still my facial reaction was still the same.
"boh huaatt laaa" (cannot help it la) is his parents...pitty him also..so least bring Ryan there can cheer up the old man...
but not the old lady..boh shiok laaa..

anyway, we were there yesterday... and mil wasn't home.. still at work..was back around 6.30 pm
then..we had dinner.. FIL cooked seafood porridge and fried noodles . Ryan doesn't like porridge ...since he was young he doesn't like porridege..he prefer rice..he started to eat rice when he was 11 months. So, i knew ryan wont eat porridge..so i fedd him earlier at home b4 we go visit. SO Ryan is full..
so mil is not very happy when ryan doesn't want to eat the porridge..so i told her he doesn;t like porridge...
so she said feed him noodles... oh boyyy poor Ryan is soo full..he doesn't even wanna eat..she just keep insisting to feed ryan..n i told her he is full.
U see..food is the only way she can use to get close to Ryan..other than that..Ryan wont want to go near her..hahahaahha...I dunno why ...
so she wanted to feed ryan with her dirty fingers.. ( she worked in the nursery so her fingers and fingernails are full of the dirt and soil) n she never use the brush to clean ...she just wash her hands with soap as normal.)
soooooooo.....if u r Ryan's mother? would u like to see her fingers into RYan's mouth????
OF COZ NOT!!!
SIghhhh..so everytime i have to remind Kit...her fingers ar...very dirty eh...tell ur mom la..dun wait till i open mymouth...coz if it happens..it will be too late and will be too much problems eh

She also tried to annoyed me by trying to carry Ryan n forced Ryan to be in her arms in front of me. SHe knew i dun like it... she purposedly did that..andd...THank God Ryan is on my side...he doesn't want her at all..kept pushing her away...and kept coming back to me..n wants me to carry him..hehehehe
oh boyyyyyy..u should see my MIL's face...like a sour dough eh..hahhaha

It is sooooooooooo funnnyyyy..till now..she still doesn;t give up!


oppsieeeee...cannot contineu the story..coz RYan is up liao...continue tomorrow la...

this is me..i believe i was just 2-3 years old. yup u can see i am very "tum chiak" good appetite..always eating..till my mom knows how to calm me down whenever i am fussing..just have to give me some food..then i am very happy already. heheeh... hey..sexy hor with this little underwear kinda thing? hahaahah... ;) 

marriage....love??

Why do ppl get married? because they love each other? because they love each other and wanna spend their lives together forever?
Hmm..interesting.. the reason i got married because shhhhhhh..dun tell my hubby ya...
well, our relationship is different.. we met online and we hardly hmm not hardly..we do not have the moments we can have like the usual couples. Sooooo... i would say that my marriage..was a rush decision...as in i wanna see him soo much, so i decide to get married and stay here with him.
That time , all we had was emails, phone calls ,and letters. Very challenging and it took lotsa courage for me to decide to come here and get married with my hubby.
That time i was just 24 years old, just finished my degree.. and all i thought was to see Kit and spend the rest of my life witth hiim..(never thought of how difficult married life is) hehehehe...no one told me...
never wanna know the difficulties...coz i was just too blinded by the love i have for Kit!

Not to say i regret marrying kit...but..i just felt like we are being put for test of patient and love..by GOD now.
I really love him.. but after Ryan is born, busy with work and other things....my fantasy of love is fading slowly.
It takes lotsa "give and take" situation in marriage.. man and woman are 2 different species... man can never understand the woman and the woman can never understand the man.
But, God has created woman in a speacial way that we are more sensitive and we have the inner intuition kinda thing.
We can sense thing... is kinda like the bug's radar thing. Kit has been very tensed up lately, i have no idea what's going on.
He doesn't want to talk about it... maybe because stress from work, stress from home? financially? tired?
I really dunno... i tried to talk to him yesterday nite.. he told me he is too stressed out from work and tired due to long hours of the work.
Hmmm, i really dunnno... i just felt like is it because he stressed out due to financial issue, we got the financial problem right after we got the house..
sighhhhhh... felt guiltyyy, if we did not purchase this house... we will be staying together with his parents..n i think i will go "koo koo" as in my mil will give me hard time.

Sighhhh..life sucks! Is it like that? i mean all married couple go through this? i really miss my single life at times...where there were no worries and stuff...hehehehe

Oh well, i am just dreaming now, really hope Kit will get better and i really pray for guidance and strength and love in my family!
:)

am i cute or not? 

tadaaaaaa..Ryan is wearing his firs jean jacket and pants. hehehe...  

still can't let go...

I was soo doomed on Thursday nite last week when Kit told me he wanted to bring Ryan to his parents' place on Friday nite while I went to work. Hmmmmmmmm...first thing hit my brain was *yaiks* the old lady!!! (my mother in law). Oh well, i just don't feel good whenever Ryan is around her.
I don't know why.. maybe because of what she had done to me last time. I've been through alot with her craps last time when Ryan was born. It haunts me till now.. eventhough i don't realize it myself!
I have always tell myself i have forgiven her and pray to God to forgive her..butttttt..deep inside me i couldn't let go. The fear of her taking away Ryan from me..haunts me everytime Ryan is with her.

Is pretty tough for me as in I cannot show my true feelings to Kit as he will feel bad. He is torn between 2. One is his mother and one his wife. Therefore, thursday nite i just cried inside..wishing that Friday will never come.
I couldn't sleep that nite worrying what will happened ? Hmm... i know i need help, some therapy or something... butt..i thought i was okie...i was alrite..i can forget and forgive.
Maybe I am too sensitive..butttt... the fear is wayyyy too much to cover everything.
The reason i behave like this..because when Ryan was born that time.. i wasn't allow to hold him and care for him except for changing his diapers. The only reason i get to change his diapers because my mil doesn't know how to change it. (last time they use cloth diapers and never use pampers or huggies before)
If she knw how to change...chia lat laaa.... i dun even have a chance to hold my own baby :(
I went through depression and loose weight..and thought of killing myself!
No one supports me except for my Toronto smom (dad's gf)
Kit couldn't do anything as he is afraid to go against his parents.
I went through hard time for more than 7 monthss till they decided to go b ack to malaysia!
Our marriage was affected that time.... Kit was upset and confused.
I was almost ready to file for divorce too eh....but whenever I look at Ryan...he gave me comfort and love.
Months and months gone by, Kit has finally realised that his parents were wrong and finally decide to tell them we will move out. When Kit told them that what they had done... of course they denied and blame everything on me. They even told kit that I am bossy and dominaring..n he is stupid to listen to me.
What i did wrong?????
to have our own place to stay, to take care my own baby and didn't even ask a penny from them to buy house? was it soo wrong to do that???
I do not understand at all... she wants to control Kit and always want to tie Kit to her apron strings..
They went mad and said lotsa bad stuff to Kit. For the first time... Kit ever go against them..as in didn't follow what they want Kit to do.
I felt bad for Kit and his sibblings..coz all these yearsss... they have no guts to say NO to their parents..even though they dun agree to what their parents say. All they do is just nod to whatever they want them to do.
Kit's parents used money to tied them down...like throwing money to elder sister to buy a $270k double storey detached house.. and as for the elder son in malaysia...bought hiim apartment, house..etc..and as for the youngest son? already bought a new car for him..20k eh.. toyota matrix.
so in return...the kids felt guilty and will always listen to them.

I told Kit never to ask money from them eh.. u will end up in their trap. THat's why they hate me soo much!!
They always underestimate me that i cannot raise Ryan and work at the same time.
HELOO!! i am raising RYAN very well now eh..he is healthy, happy and cute.
n i am helping kit with the bills too.. soooooooooo.. what else do they want??

sighhhhhhhhh..i really dun understand....i guess i will not.... i just hope God will forgive me and them..forgive me as in i cannot forget abt the pass and forgive them for what they have done and they are doing.

what a weekend....

woahh..being MIA (missing in action) from my blog..heheh oh well, pretty busy week for me. As i mentioned last week, Kit was sick..and Ryan caught the germs and he was sick too.
Therefor, i have to take care 2 babies at the same time. Before i continue...am just going to sum all the week's happening into one blog. It will be longgggggggggggggggggggggg...kekekeke

Anyway, back to the storie... yea Ryan sick..sooo...gotta watch hiim..makesure he is well dressed up.. i mean warm enough.. and makesure the heat in the house is warm enough for him. So pretty tiring and exhausted for me..coz Kit wasn't able to help me during evening coz he was sick too. So, one man show eh..walau ehh... i always thought i can handle..superwoman...but no eh.. i realized that Kit's help is important to me. I begin to appreciate his help now...pai sehhhh...before i was kindaa umm...thinking he doesn't do anything ..hehehehe..oh well..now i know lor.
After both of them recover.. guess i am not iron woman ..so me felt sick lor... yeaa...what to do... u have to cook, clean, make sure both of them okie , and not enuf sleep at nite..so all added up.. tadaaaaaaaaa..the germs attack me lor. So on Thursday i got the flue and dry cough. Ai ya ya... screw my long weekend plan..coz Friday Kit was off..(GOOD FRIDAY) and Saturday i took off as well.
So on thursday, feeling lousy but have to drag my fatt ass to work. Luckily nothing happened..it was a good nite.. no crazy customers. Came back at nite, took 2 Tyelenol (Panadol for malaysia)
and went to sleep. Can't really do anything that time..coz my brain was really toasted! I didn't even cook that day..luckily Kit managed to find something to eat..kekekek... ;)

On Friday, we woke up late... especially Kit..he really needed the sleep..coz every weekdays morning he has to wake up at 5 am ..so holiday is really luxury for him...
talking abt waking up late.... the late according to Ryan will be 7.30 am..hahaha... not 10 or 11 am ler... yeaaaa..what to do..our little king is our alarm clock during the holidays and weekend.
So we had bfast and ohh..i was a bit better from the cold..then..we went to Confederation Park in Stoney Creek for a walk.It was a good walk. I like the park coz the park facing Lake Ontario..is really big..the lake looks like umm..ocean eh.. It's been awhile since we had a walk.. so we walked till the end of trail. Pretty good for me..coz its been awhile since i work out eh..hahahahaa
Like what Kit said..we need to work on our body shape..no more growing sideways..have to figure out how to work upwards ..kekeke;)

anyway..we got back quite late from the walk..around 2 plus afternoon, then i have to get ready for dinner b4 i starts work.(starts at 5pm) yeaaaaaaaaa..no holiday for me...but i got time and a half for my pay...have to work la...heheheh next big bill will be the property tax eh.. ai ya ya...
soo...that nite pretty good niteeee.... customers all behaved themselves.

So, i was off on Saturday.Planned to go to Toronto, umm actually 2 places..first visit the asian mall..called Pacific Mall in Scarborough..where they sells lotsa umm bubble tea or like what my sis or her Meow called Teh Mutiara tek tek..hehehehe.. and lotsa dvds (pirated ones) movies one will be 5 for 20 bucks and XXX movies 3 for 20 bucks too..sooo of coz Kit will go for his XXX movies haiiiiiiii..mannnnnnnnnn what... but not for me...is sinful to watch such a thing..
anyway, anoother reason we went there is i wanna get my um those chinese herb soup thing...we call "PAT CHEN" is for ladies one...we drink it everytime we finishes our period every month. Good for women!
TOo bad i couldn't find any in Hamilton..so have to go Toronto or Mississauga to buy it. BOught 12 packets..stock up maa..hehehe hey not everytime can go out to Toronto one eh..
THen second place to go willbe visit my Stepmom...aunty,.. my dad's gf place . Its been a long time since i seen her..
Sounds like a great outting for us..buttttttttttttttttttt....this ah sum here..sick wor...bad bad bad timing la...went there walking around the mall with rudolph's red nose :(
but i still enjoying my teh mutiara tek tek..kekekek cost us 2.50 for one cup eh...tengggg so expensive one

the worst thing happened when we were there was...when we reached the mall.. i told kit i have to go to the washroom..so we went looking for washroom and after that.. we stopped by one of the store there s elling all Japanese stuff...all kind of things from kitchenware to bedroom stuff to toys. As we were walking and checking the stuff...tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..guess who we bumped into???
we couldn't believe our eyes... we bumped into Kit's Sister and her hubby..so i called her hubby and said hi..then my sis in law said ...heyyy how are u... parents are over there eh..
aiksssssssssss...i was like eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... whaat laa...the atmosphere was soo awkward eh.. Ryan was crying coz my sis in law scared him... (coz he seess her less..kinda like stranger)
stranger ? why? coz she never bother to calll us or anything... she is very selfish kinda person i guess..i dunno..whatever...
anyway...mil (mother in law) came over trying to carry ryan..but ryan doesn't want her... cried even louder... n she kept insisting wanna carry him...i dunno why she wants to do that..trying to prove to her daughter she is close to Ryan..? sighhhhhhhhhhhh that time.. i wasn't feeling good at all. THen suddenly sis in law asking me..u didn't work today ar? i said no..took off day..
then mil said..ohhh ddidn't know u off..if not will ask u out liao.. (hello?!! there is this thing call telephone ) anyway...all fake fake fake!!!
luckily they didn't said wanna walk n shop together..hahah if not spoiled my outing..
they just said okie la..bye bye...meet next time.. (in my heart..i was thinking..yea rite! better dun ler)
heheheheh

ok..that was in the beginning of the shopping...sooooo.. i just tried to not to think abt it soo much..n enjoy our outing. Hubby kinda felt funny..coz his dad doesn't even acknowledge him... i dunno why..maybe still dun like me?? i have no idea! Oh well...Kit was never their son anyway...their fav will be the only daughter and the youngest SON!!
Furtheremore Kit didn't even spend a single cent from them!

overall..the outing was good...Reached my aunt place around 3 plus..had dinner there and came back around 10 plus at nite..pretty tired.

am trying to show u guys the Lake Ontario..this is part of the Trail at ConfederationPark that i mentioned earlier. This pic taken year 2002 when i first arrived in Hamilton. 

busy cooking

Mondayyyy..ahhhhhhh....beautiful day... second day of spring and i am off work. What to do.. hmm...let see..tons of house chores waiting for me to finish. 2 basket of laundry full of dirty clothings waiting for me to put into washing machine, floor full of dust bunnies waiting for me to sweep, toilet full of dirt...waitingg for me to wash...
andddddd..i just feel good today. wanna know why? hey is monday maaaa... for other ppl.. monday always is bluee..but not for muaaaa.. monday is like heaven. :)

Oh well, ladies and gentlemen.. my house is not that dirty ler..kekekek.. i did some of the chores on Sunday. yupp i am very hardworking wife and mother eh. ahem ahem! ;)
talking abt sat and sun, oh boyyyyyy...full day and nite for muaaa...talking abt groceries days and house chores days eh... so..every weekend morning we woke up, we normally spend a lil longer time on bed..lazing around the bed playing with Ryan...u know..family time is very important. :) Normally Kit and I will debate who will get up first to wash up....soo what decide who go first? definitely the traditional game..."zoom three" u know where u hide ur hands and each other count 1, 2 and 3 then u show signs.. either rock, water or bird.. e.g. if one person shows rock and the other shows water...of course the water wins... cos water wash away the rock..and..rock will beat bird..coz knock over the bird..and bird will beat water coz bird drinks water..ehhehehe..
yup we still play that.. that's one of the fun we enjoy together every morning on weekend.

anyway, as usual, we have to go several stores to get our groceries.. asian store, western store (no frills, price chopper and food basic)..why? coz certain stores they have certain things on sale every week and every friday we receive flyers telling us what's on sale for this week. In the beginning, i felt funny coz why u wanna go to so manny stores just to save a couple cents?
wat abt the transaction cost? the gas fuel? hahaha oh well, that's Kit.. he like to save... more like a "china man" every penny counts!
soo..that's why every weekend we have at least go to 2 grocerries stores.
My duties on weekend will be... prepare, cut and clean the meat we bought ...be it chicken ,pork or fish... n put into bags..like divide them into days. in that way we can save even more...
yeaaa..waht to do..gotta save money..time now is hard lately... one piece of lean pork we bought from asian store (cost around 6 bucks cnd $) , we can eat for 4 days... yup..quite a big piece eh...so i have to clean and cut it into smaller pieces and put itto bags.. :))
After doing that..of course the house chores..sweeping, cleaning ,wiping...etc.
Wondering what Kit do? well, i'll let him handle Ryan..coz i had enuf with Ryan..hehehe...furtheremore Kit need to spend more time with him.
By the time i finish doing housechores...i have to get ready to go to work... i start work at 5.30 pm on sat and 4 pm on sun.. and finishes around 8.30 on sat and 7 pm on sun.

Sooo..pretty much fulll day for me already huh? soooo..monday will be my relaxing day..no worries abt what kinda topping the customer wants on their pizza or whatever ! just me and ryan! hahahha

and guess what i did today... since hubby is sick..(catched a cold) soo..i cooked him some soup.. chinese style soup... boil with chicken bone, red dates, water crest vege and ..umm this one i dunno what it calls in english..in hokkien we call "pek bok ni" is like curlish kinda thing...n u have to soak in the water in order to make them soft be4 cooking them...n they expand in size after they been soaked for awhile.
That soup cannot cure cold...butttt can sooth ur internal heat in ur body.. yeaa..hubby is heaty inside..coz his breath very smelly..plus he got mouth ulcer .
hmmm dunno why , lately he is not feeling weell..maybe stress from work, plus not enuf rest.
that' one dish... then i fried cabbage and carrot for another dish..and i steam fish with tofu.. to make the third dish.
Pretty much whole day i was preparing the food for dinner... well, u see i am not a good cook..i dun even cook be4 i came here.. u gotta understand where i came from... PENANG, MALAYSIA..haaaaaaaa....when u from Penang... there is no need to cook a meal at all eh..ahhahaah.. u can tell that when u read Joez-simply me, my sis's blog
she always promote places that is good for what food!
from bfast to supper..... ;)

but when u r here...u gotta cook mannn...eating out will put a big hole on ur wallet... trust me...a bowl of noodles cost u 6 bucks..but with taxes ...it comes to 8 or 9 bucks...seeeeee? worth it or not??? hehehehe

ohh contine continue...after cooking all 3 dishes... (normally i only cook 2 dishes) , i decided to bake cake... yup..first time baking too...
i browse through Kuali website..found this lemon cake recipe..quite interesting..n i got all the ingredients too..
so..i printed out the recipe and start to bake... but i modify it a lil b it...by adding banana to it..
The cake turn out good... not bad a first timer eh......
SOrry no pictures..coz camera downed...gone for repair.

hubby came back..happy ...coz all food ready on counter...and is hot too.. somemore got cake huh...a bonus for him already.
Someppl say..if u cannot win ur hubby's heart through ur body or looks... u gotta win his heart or rather his nose through ur skills cooking good food..and tie his nose tightly..not his heart..hahahaahah...
what to do..me no look and body...so left only cooking lorrrrrrr..

aikss....ryan is uupp fromm his nap :(
continue someother day. :)

Joke...joke...joke..

Joke for today
Malay version: warning...is a bit longgggg.... ;)

Kisah berlaku hasil cerita seorang kawan yg pernahdigangu roh abgnya selepas 3 hari mati. Dia kata abgnya mati sebab kena'main' org. Aku pun tertimbul idea cakap yg aku rasanya tahu mesti roh abg dia tak aman... maka dia pun bercerita... ...

As usual kekadang org cina nih suka masok kubur dgn harta dia org. So, abg dia dgn handset, laptop, PS2 suma sekali ikot masok. Dgn harapan abg dia dpt la mati aman sikit. So, lepas sehari...kemurungan dalam keluarga tuh masih ada. Jadi dgn cara sembahyang je diaorg lupakan kisah tuh. Sampai la ke hari kedua...mereka seolah dihantui roh si mati. Kawan aku cakap dia rasa setiap kali mcm ada sesuatu je yg panggil dia.Tapi dia buat dek pasal takut. Sampai la mlm kedua tuh...dia dgr ada orgketuk tingkap dia. Dia takut sangat, terus sambung tidur sambil menekup muka dgn bantal dan anggap semua tuh mimpi karut jer.

Sampai ke hari ketiga...satu keluarga mmg rasa seolaholah diperhatikan ke mana sahaja mereka berjalan dlm rumah. Dlm hari tu la kedengaran bunyi org selongkar almari...tapak kaki naik turuntangga...suara memanggil dari tingkat atas. Tapi semua buat dek jer..doakan benda tu berlalu pergi.

Sampai le tetiba handset si kawan aku berbunyi...dia angkat terus dan tetiba "Alo..adik yer?" Dia terkejut...dia tgk nombortuh...mmg sah nombor abg dia. Maka dia pun jawab balik "Abg ke?" dan serta merta air mata mengalir sebab dia rindu sangat dgn abg dia.
Abg dia pun reply balik "Adik...abg tak boleh lamanih. Abg cuba panggil adik tiap malam..tapi adik tak dgr" Kawan aku menangis je dgr keluhan abg dia..."Adik, abg nak adik tanya dekat mak" kataabgnya. "Apa dia bang?" Kata kawanku. "Tanya mak...mana dia simpan charger hp abg? letihcarik tak jumpa plak~!

heheheheh... somebody forwarded this joke to me..thot i share with u guys... ;)
have a great weekend everyone!!!

Spring is coming soooon..

Yippie..spring is round the corner. YUp next sunday will be officially Spring... buttttt..there is always snow storm on April...yea..what to do.. this year winter old man is a lil crabby...he will give us a little bit juice before he leaves us... Is like we are happy, jumping around excited that spring is here...getting busy to shop for plants to plant...
then all of a sudden..our ole winter man..give us one good one : u suckerrrr... taste my last medicine... tenggggggg...happy ha...happy to see me go la...padan hampa punya muka....tergedik gedik pulak..want to plant flowers..cehhhhhhhhh... i also haven't leave yet.. muahhhhhhahahahhaahha

Excuse me... i over reacting with the weather issue again.. Well, today is a bonus for us.. tempreture is +3 with sunny day. It's been good this week..buttttt..our winter ole man is giving us another good dandruff season this saturday. Is always like whenever i have to work.

Today i got nothing to blog..can't think of one....elehhhhhh... u always got nothing to blog one laa (says evil gene)
Angel gene: We have to be good..just stay calm and enjoy reading people's blog..and enjoy the laughter.
Evil gene: Wat's the fun of kepo-ing ppl blog? As if u got paid to read their blog la... pi laaaaa...wasting time only.
Angel gene: If no read..then what to blog wor.. i am just new here... plus no time to write anything la... besides that, Lilian siu jeh's blog ar, michael ooi's one ar..KS tang one, Buaya69 ar...and not to mention Joez's simply me... all of them are gooddddddd eh...
ooooooooooo..come to think of it... Makes me feel good hahah..juicy juicy material to read ..
Evil gene: JUICY? eh..got juice one meh? u think fruits meh??
Angel gene: no la..is just a term to say that they are good... really good bloggers..DUH!!..
dun force me to join u ar... later i cekik cekik u ar... dun press my button..
Evil gene: EH! that's my job maa...press button? Which one..this one? this one? toot! toot! toot!

*Angel gene turning into evil gene number 2... can see 2 horns growing sideways of her head ..and a cute ponny tail..that is as sharp as razor!
mmmmuaaaaaahahahha...told u dun do that... seee... i am cuter than u now.... and i am ready to
tengggg all my customers tonite if they try to piss me off...
BEWARE TORONTONIANs..... suckkkkkkerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!


hehehe..sorrie...is work day today...pressuree..streess...ryan do wan to sleep..make me chuan. Soo..need to find a way to entertain myself.. :) PRAY hard i got good customers... plssssssss... thank q GOD! :)

weather

TOday we are going to talk about weather... well to someone may be boring..but it is very important topic for Canadians..yup... must talk about weather everyday. We also have 3 TV Channels that stress only weather...sooo..u can see how important the weather to the Canadians eh!

Canadian version of conversation about weather:-
(winter time)
Stranger 1: Hey..how's it going today?
Stranger 2: NOt bad not bad..thanks...how abt u?
Stranger 1: Today the weather is bit cold eh.
Stranger 2: Nahhhh...is okie for me.... but should be worst this coming evening..i heard is going to snow for 20 cm tonite
Stranger 1: Yaiks! hate it hate it....its been weeks snowing..when is it going to stop eh? I hate shovelling the snow man.. Felt miserable cooped inside the house man..
Stranger 2: what u expect eh... is CANADA! GET USED TO IT!

Malaysian version of conversation abt weather;-
Stranger 1: heyy...lo hu bo? chiak pa boay?
Stranger 2: heyyy...ho ho ho..lu leh? wa chiak pa liao lor
Stranger 1: Aii yoo...em chai ha mi su..kin jit kai juakkkk nya lor... juak ka wa lau kua... ai yo..ta ta jit wa de be chang aik em chai kui tao liao lor....
Stranger 2: de si lor...bo air con eh si lor....that's why we tua ji peng maa... shopping mall..air con fleee eh ar... *grin*
Stranger1: si lor si lor...ah bo... wa lang eh tean seh tar tiuk kiii eh..if wa lang tua chuuuu arrr..

See...opposite from CAnada, Malaysia is hottttt...and have to take shower dunno how many times... till Penang dam also dried out liao...oh oh..not dried out totally..but half full nya lorrrrrr...

:))

moody!mooody!mooody!

It's been awhile since i last post my blog..oh well, no time plus lazy. Ryan is getting on my nervs lately coz he seems to sleep less lately. What to do.. he found his mobility! He is driving me nuts by cruising all over the house and pulling everything he can touch. He gets his hands on everything he touch!.. what to do...time for him to explore the world. I can't scold him or angry of him.. coz he need to explore the world!(according to experts la). So, all i have to do is..just being his umm follower?? i dunno what to call myself... have to follow him around...making sure he dun hurt himself..
not to mention..becoming the slave of the house..why? n how? because our dear Ryan has a very super sharp eye sight...he can see tiny tiny..n i really mean tiny stuff on the floor..which we cannot see by our normal eyesight.. and what he will do is he will practice his fingers muscle..by pinching the tiny stuff on the floor n put inside his mouth. Dunno why he do that... i fed hiim on time..breakfast, lunch, snack ,tea time and dinner...he seems to be not getting enough from the food i feed him. He just likes to eaat more...n eat something is not food!
SOOO..everyday..i have to sweep and mop the floor..just to make sure is super clean..no tiny tiny stuff..need a binocular to check..just in case i left out something..hahhahha..

Apart from doing the mopping and sweeping, i have to cook for hubby and son (good wife and mother maa, hubby works hard n always come back hungry) bath Ryan and wipe Ryan's poop and pee.. sighhhh..soooooooooooooo... all added up..where got time to blog???
ahahah is just an excuse ler... sometimes i do have time to online..but i have nothing to blog... furtheremore i like reading ppl's blog than writing my own.. :)

I am updating my post tonite because.. i have to wait for the dye thing on my hair to work.. need to wait for 45 mins b4 i can wash it away. Dunno what to do...so online lor...Hubby taking care of the little one..so can relax a bit..hehehe

ANyway... yeaaa..i am moody today.. dunno why... maybe because i am frustrated with our busy schedules ...and no breaks for us. Is hard to raise ur own child by urself...with nobody;s help..i mean really nobody's help.. Some mothers have some help from their mother in-law or mother...
but not me.. My mom passed away 13 years ago..n my mother in-law... Aikssss..better dun go thereee...coz i dun like to talk abt my mother in-law.
SO...left me and my husband... raising one child...with limited resources (money) buuuttttt..heyyyyy that's life horr..
least we are proud ..as in..we bought the house with our own money..no help from parents...

ha! that's why my mother in-law no happy coz she is a control freak...she control all her children by lending money to them..then all her kids who use her money are at her mercy!
hahahha..but too bad not my hubby..that's why she hated me soo much...kekekke too badddddd suckerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...
Least we can stand on our own feet...... beh shiok ar..beh kat ar...ya sinduk kat la (in hokkien ..no happy ar.. go kiss ur own ass la )
hahah..oppsie
sorrie..i got carried away...
i got moddie today because we supposed to visit the them yesterday..but they weren't in... dunno where they went..so hubby felt abit not happy..err..i think more scared as in... dunno where his parents went..
oh well, he is more worried that his parents thought he is no good son as in no bring Ryan to visit them..
Come onnnn la...we got our own lives here man...busy working..i gotta work thu-sun nite.. where got time..we dun even have time to sleep already..somemore got time to go sit there and pretend to be somebody else.
ha! i just hate being so fake and smile to somebody u dun wish to smile at.Furtheremore there will be no conversation happen there..because..u see..my hubby's background is different...i think i mention b4... they wont communicate one.... they just sit there..n expect each other to reach other's mind..waaa...ha lo.. is just year 2005 leh..not 2020 or 2050 ..so hi-tech meh..read ppl's mind..if i can read their mind..i won't be sitting here liao lor... awe tenggggggggggggggggggggggg

SIghhhhh.... that's life... i just wish and prayyyyy very hard...i even promise myself..that i wont be a pain in a butt inlaw to my future daughter inlaw...
AMEN!

okie dokie..there u gooooo..feel much betterrrrr...still got 10 more mins...then i can go shower ...then walaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... got my new dark auburn colour.. hehehe..
ahem.. not bad not bad.. :)
least better than grey hair la.... :)