Not Chinese

Last 2 weeks, I had BBQ and I had invited 2 of my classmates as well as my BIL. One of my classmate, G, she is single and one yr younger than my BIL. My intension was to let them get to know each other and hope something great can blossom from there.
Everything went well, and they are interested to proceed further. They have exchanged e-mails and i think hopefully they are going out for the first date this coming Saturday.

The issue here is my MIL not very happy about it. After that day, she did not speak to me for days...till now. She was upset because G is not Chinese. G is Spanish ..but she is very nice, gentle, kind hearted lady. That's why i want to introduce her to my BIL.

MIL's thinking is Chinese is better because can communicate better, and knows how to cook chinese food.
She once introduce my BIL a gal, daughter of her friends's friend...Chinese, but doesn't speak Chinese coz born in Canada and live Canadian lifestyle. so what's the difference?
BIL didn't like her... that was like last year.

And now.. I am trying to help my BIL...he is 28... just wanted him to mix around with more people..that's all.
I am not asking them to get married or something..if great things happened..they want to get married..that's their decision. Is my BIL life..and not hers!

Boyy, mil hated me even more on this eh...i guess i just shoot myself with a gun...hehehehe..
but i don't care..i am doing a great thing here...i didn't force my BIL..i am just letting them to know each other..that's all.

Wonder what she will do, when ...if BIL get married with G?
KILL ME??
heeheeh i really don't know..will see how..

Not good enough?

Yup, that's what explain me to someone in my house. NOT GOOD ENOUGH! No matter what I do, say or act ...is not good enough for her.

Sigh..why oh why...I tried...for years now...it doesn't work. My patience ran out... I guess..We will never get along..

After I started school, I thought things are getting better. We talked..but now I am on my break... that someone back to old self. Treating me like I am nobody. Tension is always around between us.
I am to blame when something happen to Ryan...like I am not a good mother. Doesn't know how to feed Ryan good. That someone will utter out words that hurt me so much. Sarcasm is so strong in the air that u could smell it with your stuffy nose.
I dislike when that someone compare me with what that someone can do... I am not that someone.. I have my ways.. I know what my son need...

Kids get sick ...esp when they are in day care. U can't avoid that!!

I just cannot believe that that someone can utter words that is not true about me. Making lies and remarks that is not true.
Her look is filled with hatred!
She never listen properly what I have to say. She twisted my words!

Never good enough! I was refer to as his mother...Ryan's mother! that lady!

This is ridiculous... I know i shouldn't be sad or upset. But I am a type of person who wants a happy family!
I do no wish any of this crap in my family.
When can i have my freedom....free from all this garbage!

...I am just too upset...it has been crazy lately that i need to express out my feelings.
I tried to fix this...she just won't allow... she just won't accept me.
Face it!
She just hate me very much! PERIOD!