Friday, October 23, 2009

could not settle with one...

It has been 3 months I work at this hospital..where i did my pre-grad training. I was very lucky to land a job right after my training. I remembered the HR personnel who interviewed me one day b4 my license exam.. she asked me why I picked this day, why didn't i re-scheduled another day. I told her I don't believe in cramping..i did my studying and I am before..i just wanna relax..phewwwwwwwwww..when i think back..relax what? hahahah..was so stressful for me.
Anyhoo, I was so confident during the interview... and i told them..if u hired me..i gave you 200 percent of performance..i love my job..i love my patient...

And guess..after i got the job..i hate it! what a liar huh..hmmm actually..If they offer me a full time line in Behavioural..YESSS i gave them 200%..maybe more than that..that's my passion.. working with behavioural ppl.. but they gave me a relief position..going everywhere in the hospital.
See, i am not the "nursy" type of i want to try everything..get every skills in the world that i can..NO..i am not like that..I just wanna concentrate on what I like and what i do best..which is psychiatry.
So, for the past months..i am crying inside... whenever they send me to palliative, or complex or rehab..I just could not see myself doing it. However, i still try my very best to deliver my care for my patients..
Not that i am boasting, all my patients loves me.. every time they rang the call bell..they wish it was me to answer their call for help..they even said it themselves!
That's something nice i got back from doing the work for my patients..a sense of appreciation.
Ever since i started the hospital job as a relief nurse..not a single day go by that i did not look for a job... i browse the net daily looking for a better position.
My back hurts every time i came back from work...i didn't get to spend time with my family during i told much as i love this nursing has to be something..
I pray night and day..for God's mercy and blessing...waiting for my breakthrough...waiting for His PERFECT plan for me... No fail i pray and search for job..applied tons of jobs for the last 3 months.

On the 16th of October..I got an offer from a biggest cancer centre in ontario, a position of RPN, doing an office job, no weekends, no shifts jobs, 9 to 5 hours, and doing what i used to love to do..which is administrative, management plus nursing knowledge. I was awe by GOD's love for me and my family!!
HE is so merciful and loving! I cried that day...coz i could feel the pouring love from HIM!!!
I was so blessed!! In Nursing, u can only imagine for that kind of job...but it really happened for me for real!
Praise Lord for his miraculous job..nothing is impossible for HIM! He is always there for His children..
I am starting a new job this Nov 2nd a RPN referring new patient who just got diagnosed with cancer to the right cancer specialist.
unbelievable awesome job that i could ask for!

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