Is it because she is jealous?
Is it because she hate me?
Is it because she dislike me?
Why every single time when I am doing something right and good for myself and my family, she will utter out words of discouragement and negative stuff to put me down?
Words such as.......
"I don't think you can handle the Nursing job"
"It is too hard for you"
"Your cooking is too oily"
"You should not let Ryan eat this"
"You are too fat"
"Your life will be tough when you starts school"
"You better loose weight if not your husband will leave you for other"
"The house is too dirty"
"Eating western food is no good"
"When I took care of my 4 kids, they never got sick" "You are not doing it right with Ryan"
I am so sick and tired with her negative statements! What I have been doing since the day I met her are all from my sincere heart and good to her.
I have never treated her bad ...not even ONCE!
I just cannot understand why must she do this to me?
Am I that bad? Or is it because that I am not the one that she would like Kit to marry?
I am not very good at my emotional intelligence. I am the type of person that suck at negative comments.
I like to be like by everyone. ...and I know I cannot expect everyone to like me.
But..someone who hates me and live with me ...this is hard!
I have been keeping my silence whenever she utter those ugly words...
But how much longer can I keep my silence?
How much damage she had done to my emotional being?
I have been telling myself, she is different...ignore her... let her be...but seriously, I cannot avoid those knife sharp of words that stab into my heart!
The thing is.....she will treat me nice when she need something from me.
I really do not understand what she wants from me?
She always said that lots of her friends daughters in-law are evil and abuse them...
Now..am I abusing her?
This is heartbreaking .... I have lost my mother when I was 14 years old...and I treated her like my own.
Everyone ask why I let them stay with me? Well, I have to..they are Kit's parents...we cannot just shoo them away.
No one can help me in this matter..
Only 2 options:
1) Pray to God that she change!
2) Pray to God that I have more patience and wisdom to handle her everyday..
God is working on His own timing and ways..is never my time or my way.
I am praying for more patience, wisdom, more E.Q., a bigger heart to oversee everything, and forgive and accept her.
Oh Father in heaven, I humbly come before you to ask for YOUR forgiveness and mercy. I thank You for a wonderful family you blessed me with. Please bless me with wisdom, more E.Q., a bigger heart to face my MIL. I commit her to You and I know You will handle her for me. I know this is not her doing, is just the enemy doing to put me down. Please comfort me and protect me whenever the evil is doing their work.
I know I have YOU as my shield and comfort.
I commit my family to YOU and ask for YOUR blessings and sealed my family with LOVE, HARMONY, and PEACE.
For YOU my LORD, You are my ROCK and SAVIOUR!
I shall not FEAR the evil but YOU!
In JESUS NAME, AMEN!
Monday, August 06, 2007
Is it because she is jealous?