No go back

PIL decided not to go back.... coz they cannot rush back on time for the funeral..so no point for them to go back..
MIL felt very down ....n she told me that she couldn't concentrate working yesterday at all.
I gave her a hug yesterday when FIL and Kit were upstairs. She was touched i guess..and appreciate it..(finally)
I told her that i understand how she feels now... n comfort her...telling her Grandma is old and is time for her to rest in peace..U did ur part as a daughter and she will understand that u couldn't go back.

I washed all her working stuff yesterday and prepared everything that FIL has to bring today for work. Today she is off. I let her to be alone and sink in everything.
I even cook lunch for her..but too bad she is having vegetarian food today.

SIL is on leave this week...but she did not call or come over to visit MIL at all.
I am very disappointed about this. She should at least come and bring her out.
If i am her i will...coz she has a car ..
i dun have a car..if i do..i will definitely ask her to go out ..to the mall...have lunch outside...
I guess..SIL doesn't know how to do such thing...
Oh well, is not my position to say anything or judge...

MIL is very down..and not herself today...
so...i went to No frills ..bought the food that she like to eat...
the least i can do..tried to talk to her..but she locked herself in the room...
I know she need time to get everything over..
I know that..is hard...it will take awhile to do that..it took me 10 years to get over my MOM passed!

Job Interview

Kit went for a job interview last Saturday for a similar position he is working rite now but at a nearer location. Currently, he is working in Georgetown, where he has to drive an hour to work and an hour back...too far and too tiring.

This company that he went for an interview is just a 14 months old company. Doing the same thing as what Kit's current company is doing.
The only difference is their manufacturing company is in China. They build hydraulic lifts.
The interview went ok-okie only...coz what they are trying to offer is less than what Kit is making rite now.
The job function is the same. Furthermore, Kit has to travel China once in a while.

Hmmm..soo to me, I like the idea for Kit to travel and talk to people. I want him to expose more and communicate more coz he does not do that often. He prefer to be in his own cubicle and do his own thing.
He does not socialize at all...this is bad eh!

They are supposed to call him yesterday...but no news yet..
I guess Kit's ask too much...hehehehe..oh well, no call..kinda good news too..
No trip to China...meaning..no Pak KUU for me to worrie..hahahahhahaa

Is not that i dun trust him..i dun trust those pak ku there....kekekkeke ;)

What a nite

I had a sleepless night yesterday! Phone ringing non-stop from mid-night on and off till about 6 am.
Worst still, i switched room with Kit coz i gotta study (burning mid-night oil). And the room i slept in last night, was the computer room..with the phone beside me..so i was the one to answer the phone all nite before i handed over to MIL...
imagine...i am like a zombie now eh...can't focus a thing...plus..today is HOT HOT HOT!!!!

Well, bad news we have ... MIL's mom passed away this morning around 12.30 am... umm i think she is 80 plus..heart beat stop suddenly.
So, phone calls from Kit's elder bro all the way from K.L. and tried to discuss how and when PIL are going back for the funeral.
Amazingly, they went to work this morning....
MIL looked okie outside, i mean facial reaction...but i can tell deep down..she is sad, hurt and i dunno what words to explain for a person to loose a mother.
I understand her feelings..coz i lost my mom when i was 14.
So, even though her mom was like 80 plus...but a mom still a mom! MIL tried to be tough in front of everyone...but obviously..i can tell how she felt!

This morning, around 5 plus am... SIL called discussing abt air fares...well, times like this those agencies sure take the golden opportunity to cut your throat..the fare is doubled the normal rate.
So, MIL very upset abt the price of the airfare...
they are very umm....how to say....just let say..money is very important to them. Until now i still not sure that they are going back or not...coz they just left for work after talking to SIL. Hmm..will find out tonite.

U know...i felt like giving her a hug...but there are voices telling me not to. She probably won't like it...not her style i guess... They don't hug! or comfort...they just wanna act tough! u know..typical chinese style.

I have met Kit's Grandma once..like way b4 we got married..like the first time i met Kit and family back in 2000.
She was a great woman and very humble.

Everyone is sad about this news.
God bless her soul.....


*** Yawning***.. i am very sleepyyyyyyyyyyy....still need to finish off my assignment..have to hand next week...last day is next thursday!
GOOD LUCK to me...

I am done!

10.19pm done...
Yup..done writing my essay for lesson 1..tomorrow i can put my nose on lesson 2.

Can't believe it..really squeeze every drop of my brain juice that i can...

soooo...who wants to eat curry chicken, hainannese chicken rice, or fried hokkien mee...
that's my specialty... i cook u guys eat!!...or coffee?
anything..
my treat.. :)

Wanna Bet?

Who wants to bet that i can finish my first lesson tonite?

who bets i finish, and they win.... i promise i will chiaaaaa (treat) u guys..as in what..i dunno..u pick la..

and who bets that i didn't finish leh..and they win...i also promise to chia..(treat)...

hahahahahhahahaa...teng teng tenggggggg.....

Will let you guys know...

Ways of Motivation....

To get my engine warm up...i did...


1) one cup of tea
2) one cup of water
3) lock myself in study room
4) have the fan on
5) media player on with Lionel Richie on
6) Writing my blog
......................
yet stillllllll nothing can come out from my BRAIN!!!

DUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

memang only berlagak study leh...muahhhhhhhahahahahahahhahaha

Picking on my brain cells

I need some inspiration to write my essay on The evolution of Family Structure from the like history age..where women are only supposed to work at home and giving birth till now where women works and earn their equal status with men...and also giving birth...
I can write on with my ideas..but i hate to use quote and research materials...
some more the research has to be genuine ..not any research from Google site.

This is only the first lesson man...and today already 14th of JUne..i still have 4 more lessons...dunno how many questions (which all of them are essays and research essays)
I felt so stupid now..coz i should have not pick this subject man!
Darn..i am getting old liao... not like b4..i can finish it within hours... just have to sit for hours and pick my brain cells..
Now..i am not motivated...not only that..dead tired, sleepy and lazy!
Sigh.... Gene oh GENE...where is my old self!...where are u....
I need u now....this is kinda emergency leh....quick ..quick... come out ler.... sigh...

I know i have been complaining a lot..and did not do anything yet....
I really salute those writers!
They can just write and write like no body business ...
i just wish i can half of their brains..then i am more than happy liao..

Hmmm what am i doing here..still complaining huh..hehheheh..alrito...gotta go ...need to squeeze out my brain juice..i am hoping to finish the first lesson...n tomorrow another...;)...
(talk only)

Happy Father's Day

Father's Day is round the corner...4 more days, all the fathers in the world will celebrate this meaningful day.
What did i get my dad this father's day...hmmm nothing...but just a long distance call from Canada.
Pai seh...totally forgot to send my dad a card..coz was busy pass weeks and if i send now..it will be late coz it takes 2 weeks to get there.

Luckily my sis got him a card and she included my name as well :) She even bought him a T-shirt :)
I will give him a call this Sunday.

As for Kit, he already got himself a MP3 player ...on Mother's day..yup..my day..he asked for his Father's Day's gift..how cool is he huh?
Cost me over 60 bucks..
Oh well, he deserve one!

Today, i asked Ryan to make a card for his Daddy and Grandpa...so he drew lotsa flowers and "grass" on it..and i wrote Happy Daddy's Day and Happy Father's Day for both daddy and grandpa.
He drew 2 actually for his daddy!

Anyway, I take this opportunity to wish all the Father's out there ..especially
Papabok ,Kiwi G husband of
Grace ,and
Mr.Belacan

Have a very Great and Happy Father's DAY

no cooking today

Is hot and i am very tired today... actually been tired for the pass few days due to Ryan's change of nap time.
Started on weekends he slept around 8 pm till like about 4 am and he is up while we are nicely snoozing.
Is very tiring for me...coz i need to cook, housework and study at the same time. Is nice when he nap and sleep coz i get to catch up my work.
But i still need my sleep..is just that ..when is time for me to sleep..my little king is awake!
Sigh..today..i said NO to cooking..coz i cannot take it..i need to hand in my assignment.

Good news is.. i called John, the examiner, to confirm abt the change of exam policy...he said i just need to hand the first unit instead of all the units for the course..
now..how great is that! Lucky me..i only need to work on 1 book instead of 4 books.
So no rush..but still got to rush for the first book.
Lotsa reading and essay writing..
I wish it is as easy as me writing my blog..hahahaah..in my dreams!!

Anyway, i really wonder what will my wonderful MIL will react when she comes back today and find out they have to eat tuna sandwich for dinner and nothing for her to bring to work tomorrow!
Let just say..today is not easy for me!
But..too bad..i cannot take care of everyone and ruin myself.. i am trying my very best already...machine do get their rest too!

Just pray...that later will be an easy way out for me.. :)

Freebies

Everyone, there are free games and software that you can get for free! YUP, u hear me rite...FREE!
Everyday, this site call Give Away of the Day
will allow you to download softwares or games for free. You don't have to pay for it. No catch or nothing...just u have to check out this site daily for the feature of games and software of the day. If u like it..u download it and it will be yours!

This is how Kit got all his games. Some of the games, Ryan got hook onto it!

Is worth to check it out :)

Blood test

Got my blood test done for the Nursing course today! Thank GOD..that PIL aren't working today..
Have to get my TB test done as well..i have scheduled for July 4th ..
Hopefully everything goes well...
3 more months..i am going back to school!
Can't wait!
But now.. still have to rush my last course..which i chose Individuals, Families in a diverse society..another social science subject.
I thought this might be helpful for my Nursing program....as in Psychology parts!

Started like on Monday..man..i felt so sleepy when i open the book..so dryyyyyyyy!

I dun think i can have the time blogging these days...u can see i didn't even take up some of the PPP opportunities..even though they have approved me (Finally!)

well, got to do the important stuff first.

One computer, 3 users

Yup, i have to share the computer with Kit and Ryan.... even now i am having trouble to use the computer coz Ryan is bugging me that he wants to play computer!
Thanks to Kit...he got Ryan hook on those pin ball games!
I cannot believe it..when i was 3 years old..i know nothing about games man!
Kids nowadays..gosh! have to be careful with what they are exposing to!
He learn very fast!

I am supposed to study now coz PIL are home today....so lazy and tired!

Meh Yer...teng em tou

Ryan has learn new word again..well, it has been weeks that he uses this word.

Every time whenever i call him to do anything, he will said this.

The following happens weeks ago:

Ryan was playing computer games upstairs..

Me: Yau Zhen, chung leong ar...yeh la..fai teet (Ryan, bath time now, quick, is getting late now)

Ryan: Meh Yer? Teng em tou ar.. (What is it? I cannot hear u )


*** I am like beside him..and he told me that he cannot hear me?

He also has learn his communication skills ...i mean improve his English words..
Whenever he sees anyone pass by our window... he will say hi..and how are you ?

Today, as he sees Berta my another neighbor sweeping her yard...Ryan said the following

Ryan: Hi Berta! HOw are you? What you doing?

I was so impressed that he can talk so much in English...coz he converse more in Cantonese.
I am trying to teach him more English now... so that when he starts school next September, he won't be left out :)

No more take home exam

Yup, no more take home exam for me.... the district school board has change their exam policy for independent study students...we can no longer bring home the exam. Bummer!
It is so inconvenient for me coz I have Ryan to take care.

John the examiner is nice to tell me the change of the policy which will be effective on July 1st.
I have 1 more course to do then i can get my high school diploma. So he asked me to hurry the last course b4 July 1st so that i can still bring home the exam.

GOod news and bad news for me... good news..i already know the change of policy...bad news is..i have to rush the course.
20 units altogether in one month...2 books to read....and i can only study at nite on weekdays!
Weekends Kit needs to do his thesis report for the Certified Engineering Technologies title.

Sighhh..i am always stressful...i though i can rest abit...dim chi... the engine is always running turbo speed.
At times.. i really feel tired and wanna take a break...but i can't!
Just have to keep going....
What to do... no pain no gain.... :)

Minta Ampun

Yup, my dearest hubby sudah minta ampun (already beg for forgiveness).
I am totally a loser when he begs!
OH well, after i wrote the entry...i was much better..least i let it out liao.

Mamabok is rite..have to look at both side of coin. But at times..men really kayu, chiu chang (tree)

i just dun understand why they cannot be a little bit sensitive.

Anyway, he apologized and i forgave him...as usual.

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Very Insensitive!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I am soo pissed off!

Who actually made me that mad??
My wonderful hubby!

He is always soo insensitive! Everyone thought i sure had a good time celebrating that i pass my driving test...
u guys are wrong!
Not only dun want to celebrate with me...and made me cook dinner yesterday as well!
What a good husband!

I wanted to order pizza yesterday..he said..why waste money!?

Sighhhhhhhhh..lately i am so sien with him now..

never thought of how i feel at all...

To me, passing the driving test was a huge thing for me. I am not asking him to bring me to fancy restaurant or what..
Just a coffee at Tims..i am more than happY!

Celaka him.... sometimes i felt like want to bitch slap him ..like what Mamabok said...
i am soo boiling mad here..

Today he called during lunch time..telling me when is his off days...coz i asked him yesterday how many off days he left..
coz i need to do some blood test and tb test for my nursing program thingy..
also i already planned to go to Joel Osteen Ministry this coming July...and is on Friday 6 pm in Toronto..
So again he has to take off day on that day..

Walau..our wonderful friend here said..
Wahhhhh.... i dun want to change so many times of my off days ....all my off days wasted on u doing ur stuff.

DOING MY STUFF???!! can u believe what he said? WTF! Ryan is not his son ar..wahhhhhhhhhhh lau..said until is my duty to take care Ryan..
somemore i am taking Nursing program..to help u out leh..MR.CHINA MAN!
if u feel that it is soo burden..okie fineeeeeeeeeeeeee..i stay home n become siu nai nai
but the true fact..u can't afford to let me be siu nai nai okie!
GEEZE!

I was soo F****** pissed off here !

I gave up everything for him...and this is how he treat me!

INSENSITIVE MAN!

Tired! Tired! Tired!

Ohh boy.. i am soo tired now! Due to i had my driving test yesterday, i had no mood to clean the house till today.
Usually i will do it like twice a week as in mopping and cleaning the washroom. We had 1 full bath meaning 3 pieces thingy, toilet, sink and bath tub, which is at upstairs. We also have another 2 pieces thingy, only toilet and sink downstairs. Normally i have to clean both of them twice a week.
This week is soo exceptional coz whenever i am stressful i don't wish to tired myself out.

So today, walau...i am soo tired. Took me 2 1/2 hours to finish everything. This time i have to forgo time with Ryan coz MIL nicely invited SIL to come tomorrow. If i don't do it...i will go crazy tonite!
Thank goodness that Ryan behaved for me. I told him i had to do house chores...and he said okie..He played by himself , watch tv and play computer games while i was doing the house chores.
I am fully satisfied that the house is clean.. but all is hard work.
After finished, i had to prepare lunch for Ryan then get ready to prepare the soup for tonite's dinner! what a bummer!

"siennnnnnnnnnn" man!

Actually, i crave to eat curry today but i am too tired to cook curry liao...so they gonna eat left overs from yesterday!

I pass!

Wooooooohooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! I pass my driving test!! Thank GOD! Thank you for everyone who prayed for me!
Thank you thank you!
I can drive now! I have my G2 license now...need to practice more and later get my G license..
I have to go through another test..which is they call it high-way or freeway test!

What a relief! I did almost perfect..but the examiner said i didn't look often on my rear view mirror!

I remember that moment when i drove to the test area and park. The examiner, Linda her name..said

Linda: Gene, U passed! Buttttttttttt... i noticed that u didn't look at ur rear view mirror...u got lotsa marks deducted from there..esp ur observation. You have to always check your rear view mirror every 5 seconds when u r driving. Be careful on that..u need it for your next test!
If you continue like that you will definitely fail for the next test!

Me: Okie..i will! Thank you soo much!


I tell ya..that moment i almost wanna cry man... what a relief..i knew i made mistake..but i was hoping that i will pass... Seriously, what a blessing from GOD..i got a nice examiner..even though she is strict..
THANK GOD!

I pass! I pass...heehhe.

I will drive to Mt. Albion later to hand in my Psychology exam..(which i am sooo overdue now)
Wohoooooooo!

SAHM

After reading Mamabok's entry on stayed at home moms, it reminded me of what i always have to go through with Ryan daily.

Some people (not all, some only, esp. those ego type of man) thought we stayed at home mom or women, got nothing to do..and our jobs are easy..just have to look after the kids and house chores.

Well, I always felt torn apart as in whether I should teach Ryan more stuff, play with him or should I finish my house chores?
I always have this problem and i ended up spending time with Ryan.
The worst part is, I am a neat freak..and i want things get done. If for example, my dishes still on the sink, it will haunt me...and constantly remind me all the time ..that i haven't do my dishes yet.
Ryan is very demanding as in he wants attention all the time..and he is very active.
He wants to go out ride his bicycle..like what Mamabok said about Chloe in her entry.

At times, I felt very overwhelming!

Butttttt hor..i also do salute those working mom! Is not easy for them as well. They have to balance both the working world and home at the same time.

Therefore i just wanna say..is not easy to be WOMEN!
We are made TOUGH!
SO...salute we WOMEN!

Talking on the phone

We bought Ryan a fake cell phone which it can be flipped...with digital camera thingy.
Ryan loves to imitate us talking on the phone..so every day he will pretend talking on his cell phone.

This morning, he made a 'phone call" to i dunno who...and the conversation goes like this :


Ryan: pressing the button to make a phone call...

Me: Nei call peen kor ar? (Who are u calling?)

Ryan: Shhhh! (shoosh me asking me to be quiet..and making his hand gesture to ask me to wait for him to finish his conversation)

Me: LOL! wah...nei kor peen kor ar..mommy em hor yue teng ar? (who are u calling? Why mommy cannot listen ar?)

Ryan: Talking on his phone saying...err...em hai ar...meh yer? mou ar? yum nen nen lor ( err...no ar ..what is it? nothing? drink milk lor )

Me: LOL!!

Geeze..he really talk like an adult! I really sometimes beh tahan him man!

Happy 1st Birthday

To my dearest Phoebe,

Happy Birthday to you....Happy Birthday to you...Happy Birthday dear Phoebe!!!!!...

HAPPPPPY Birthday to youuuuuuuuu!!!!!!

Aunty Gene and Ryan wishing you good health, always happy and cheerful, and be good to mommy :)

Aunty Gene wanted to be there with you on Sunday May 27th 2007 soo much to celebrate with you...but unfortunately, i can't :(
Next time maybe :)
But, on that day, I will think of you!

Mommy and Daddy are very very proud to have you in their lives and you are their sugar munchkin :)



P/s: Grace, I hope u don't mind that i curi Bee's pics ..kekekekek

Thursday dishes

These are the dishes i cooked on Thursday. Everyone must be surprised that i cooked soo much..
Well, we have 4 adults and one toddler..but 3 other adults will wanna take lunch for the next day as well..so..i have to cook for like 7 people.
MIL said must have soup!

So, this ah sum.. or ah sei here...of coz have to work her butt off lor

in case u guys are wondering what were those dishes..

1)Black bean soup boil with picnic pork shoulder and some chicken bone
2)Stir fry cabbage and carrots
3)Stir fry minced pork with preserved vegetables (char choi)
4)Picnic pork shoulder (from soup) stir fry with ginger, onion, garlic, and dried chili

Frustrated

Man, today is not my day at all! I didn't get any sleep from yesterday due it was too hot and humid plus Ryan was awake till quite late due to same reason.
PIL woke 4 am to get ready to go to work...and everyday when they got up, i sure got awaken from the noise and the smell of toast bread...
sigh...i was soo frustrated today and my mood was very bad.

Worst part was i have driving lesson. Ai yo..i tell ya... last week i was okie one..i have the confident to control the car and everything..but today...really "hak chai" man...
Even the traffic is not helping at all..

I made soo many mistakes till the instructor was surprised!
I learned my lesson, never drive when u r tired or moody!

The thing is i am going to sit for my driving test this coming thursday..
DIE la me!
what to do mannnnnn!
seriously i am freaking out...
everyone tell me..ai yo..what to freak out...if fail..go for second time..
well u see..my situation is different..
i can't afford for second time... money and time wise..
I already paid soo much for the lesson...each session 25 bucks for 40 mins...sometimes i go for double session..

So please..can everyone pray for me!!! Pretty please..
test is on Thursday at 11.25 am.

THANK YOU..THANK YOU!!!

Hair Cut

Ryan just has his hair cut today from me :)
When daddy got back..daddy said

Daddy : Wah... Ryan leng jai lor... (Wah...Ryan handsome lor)

Ryan: Hai lor ( yes lor )

Daddy: Yue ying seong lor (Have to take picture)

Ryan: Hai ar.. siew siew ar.. handsome boy (Yes ar.. take picture (his version of taking picture) )

So far, this hair cut that i gave Ryan, i can consider okie eh...the rest ..alamak..very ugly man..
What to do..we al cheapo ma... hehehe...from birth till now..i handle his hair cut..just to save 5 bucks

Care Package

Wohoooooooooooo! I received a huge care package from home..my sis send it to me from home like 3 months ago...by sea..cost her abt RM80

THANKS A MILLION SIS! U R THE BEST! I CAN DIE WITH ALL THE FOOD INSIDE :)!

They are lots of curry powders, dvds, books for Ryan, books for me (nursing dictionary), clothing for Ryan, chinese herbs soups, instant cappuccino

very important item in that care package is the curry powder..Allagapas brand! must have!
of course i have to share with my smom..everything split into half! hehehehe

my sleeping beauty

Ryan was having his afternoon nap yesterday. So i thought i took his sleeping beauty pic.
That t-shirt he was wearing was his favorite. That top was supposed to be his 12 months old baby top.. he is still wearing it...
Call us al cheapo...or what..but not all our fault..he loves that t-shirt too.. ;)

Ryan's section of the house

Look at all his toys...inside those 2 toy bins has more eh.... this is consider all tidy up already...
Normally all the toys will be all over the floor....

"I Love You"

We went to Zoo on Saturday as we were leaving the Zoo, we stop by the washroom b4 we start an hour journey back home. I went to the washroom first, then followed by Kit bringing Ryan and then came out and let me carry Ryan and Kit went for his turn.
As we were waiting for Kit to come out..this happened:

Me: You had fun Ryan?

Ryan : Ya.. (nodding head as well)

Me: You happy happy?

Ryan : Ya.. (nodding head and smiling as well)

Ryan : I lovvv you.. (hugging me with a smiling face)

Me of course melted and forgot how tired i was at that moment! :)

Food anyone?

These are the dishes we had yesterday. Can anyone guess which one is bought, which one is bbq (we had bbq on Sunday, had my S-mom over that day)and which one is cook by me?


1)Curry ribs
2)Bbq chicken wings and ribs
3)Batter shrimps or prawns
4)Japanese style grill fish
5)Stir Fry brocolli

Answer will be review soon :)

House under Reno

Well, last winter i blog about we taking out the wall paper on our living room and dining room.

PIL helped us to paint the undercoat on last Friday. These is how it looks like.
So much better and i can see the brightness in the house :) We still need to paint the color that we want :)

Victoria Day

Yesterday was Victoria Day in Canada and every stores are closed. No where to go and guess what i did?
I learned from Canadian people that when Victoria day comes.. that means u can start planting your plants or flowers without worrying any frost or cold temperature.
I bought grape tomatoes and red chili. I planted beside our 3 tall "gei chi" or wolfberry fruit tree.

As for that 3 blue bin thingy, the one the left are chives, the centre one are green onion and the one on the right are mints

I took some pictures of my flowers in my garden and u can see yesterday was also a laundry day...u can see my clothes on the line.
Typical holiday...where u stayed home and do house chores...

WHere is kit? Watching tv and playing with Ryan...heheeh that's what he did in order to help me :)

Zoo Outing Part 2

These are the few animals pictures we took at the zoo. As for the dinosaur pics..those dinosaur were made alive for people to view. Ryan had a great time viewing it. It was huge especially for T-Rex! :)

Victoria Day weekend outing

We went to Toronto Zoo on Saturday and it was Ryan and my first time there. We reach the zoo at 9.30 am and it was like an hour drive from Hamilton. That day was perfect, the weather was not hot and cold..just the rite temperature for us :)

The Zoo is huge and we did not finished viewing every animals there. I missed the Americas, Eurasia, Australian sections. Will go next time.
Kit managed to collect enough air miles points to exchange for 4 tickets..and Ryan is free for the admission. How great is that!
Our first small vacation or outing for 2007 :)
Cheap outing for poor people like us ..hehehehe
Overall, the trip was splendid..except that i was dead tired man!
Imagine this big momma...walking up the steep hills...omigosh... it was unbelievable ..i was surprised that i made it..hahahaha...

The outfit i was wearing on that day..was the Mother's Day gift from lovely hubby!
I seriously need to loose weight...i know i will..when i starts school..coz i will be walking around the campus and taking buses :)

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Rod Stewart or the Rod Father....

What a blessing from GOD. You guys would not believe what happened to me yesterday...hahahaha..
Yesterday morning i brought Ryan to downtown Hamilton to visit my ex-boss and of course for a bus ride as well.
Ryan loves the bus ride and of course lunch at McDonald. He loves the new Chicken Snack Wrap.

It was nice to see all my ex-colleagues ..they were so surprise to see me :) The juicy part was.. Lillian (my ex-boss) told me that they are going to Rod Stewart concert tonight (yesterday nite) ...and was asking me whether i could join them or not..they have one extra ticket.

So i was like cool! a concert! i never been to a concert b4...and is free.
What a blessing i tell ya..
I came back drop off Ryan home and rest abit..called Kit and told him that i am going to Rod Stewart's concert! hahhaha
Can see my MIL's face..kekekekeke...it was like cloudy like wanna have rain storm or soemthing..but i dun care! I deserve my break man!
I got changed and took the bus down again to meet up Lilian and Anita. We had dinner at My Thai restaurant..i ordered dried Curry beef with string beans...i never get the chance to eat beef at all..due to in laws are Buddhist..
so..whenever i had a chance..i will order beef :)
Then we had coffee at Tim Hortons...waited till 8 pm for the concert.
IT was awesome..i had a great time..
That few hours...i was totally myself..forgetting everything at home..
I remembered i thank GOD in the middle of the concert..for giving me this chance!
I needed it soo badly ...it was totally refreshing for me!

so..PIL's presence is not totally all cons after all..kekekke ;)

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"chan hai ar"

Ryan's new chinese vocabulary = Chan Hai ar

Yesterday, he spill his milk and i didn't notice it until Ryan said the following:

Ryan: Nei dai... chan hai ar..yai yai ar..yucky-yucky lor (u see...so notty..all dirty already)

Me: Hai lor... chee yau hou lor ( yes..u knew and why u still do it)

** He is learning from PIL alot of those sayings...mil loves to talk to him like that..so therefore, he is talking like an adult here.
Normally he will sort of say what i am going to say to him...
isn't he funny or what..

Time to catch up...

PIL are home today... not working for few days...so it will be pro and cons for me.
As for the pro part..i can catch up with my high school diploma assignments..yea..i am really way behind it..still on Psychology...doing the exam thing.
The cons side will be..they are around!

Well, that's life i guess..i can't have everything. I can finish my school work..but by the time i finish my school work, i think i will have more housework to do.
House will definitely more messy and dirty!
Sigh...

Is already mid May, i am counting the days...4 more months till i start school!
Can't wait.. i can look for part time job at school..doing something related to my field. I can't wait to finish school to be exact! hahahah..look how greedy i am..
I love to be around people.. if i have the chance to work in ER..i will be the most happiest nurse in the world!!
BUt of course i have to score good score in order to get to that position...
Pray hard and i will try my best! :)

Mother's day celebration...

My mother's day celebration was pretty good. Must be wondering how would my wonderful MIL share this day with me huh? heheheh
Kit is very smart handling this..well, i suggest that bringing her for dinner..which we did on Friday because normally PIL will go to Mississauga (her daughter's place)on weekends.
..I will have Sunday all to myself..wohooo.. :)
Well, this morning, we went shopping and Kit bought me 2 blouses and one jean Capri..it was on sale at Zellers.
Oh gosh, i haven't been shopping for clothing for years!!! So is was very nice of Kit to do that..by knowing we have to save some money for my schooling and just in case Ryan's day care fee.
So, overall it was great! simple and nice :)

Oh yea..Kit also bought a watch for his mom... so not bad at all huh :)
Actually i don't mind him doing that for his mom, he Should!
I even ask him to give her a hug ..n guess what he said? we are not brought up like that..it will be weird...u english educated ppl can do that..but not us.
Duh!
oh well, i would give her hug..but i know she will be surprised and dunno what she will be thinking again...
sighhhhhhh...
anyway, dun wanna spoil my day :)

I hope every mothers out there having a great time :)
God Bless u all great Mothers !

I got approved

Finally, i got approved for Blogsvertise.
I can't wait to earn some money..hehehe..hopefully can ler..it will be a great help..least for some minor expenses :)

Blogsvertise = Ch'tt Chiinggg

Thanks to Mamabok about her entry on Blogsvertise.


Well, i thought i give it a try and to my surprise it is so easy than other get paid by blogging thingy. Is easy as 1 2 3.

First, u have to have a blog and a pay pal account.
Then, u go and register with Blogsvertise
Then wait till they approve your account and they will send you the sites of the advertisers and u can start blogging about the advertisers.
Make some comment or give your opinion about the site and let Blogsvertise to review your entry and they will let you know whether they approve or not. If they do..Ch'ttt CHing you'll get pay for it!

I am so looking forward for this ...hopefully everything works out :)

Thanks Mamabok

Celebrating Mother's day

My special wishes to Mamabok and Grace on this coming beautiful and meaningful mother's day!
Lucky Chloe and Bee to have you 2 as their mommy!
Happy Mother's day Girlfriends and God Bless this wonderful day!


To all mothers and future mothers out there ....

HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!

:)

Happy Mother's Day.. MOMMY

This was my mom when she was 15 years old and she won Miss Pesta Pulau Pinang at that time.
Wasn't she pretty?

Happy Mother's Day Mummy!

Mother's day

Mother's day is approaching... I am thinking of 3 very special ppl on this day.

1) My wonderful mother
2) Nellie- my ex-neighbor
3) My stepmother

MY mother
My mother has passed away for 15 years due to cancer. I didn't get to spend a lot of time with my mother or share those girly stuff with her coz when she passed away that time, i was only 14 years old.
She was a wonderful person...very sweet, patient, humble and kind hearted person.
She loved to laugh out loud..that makes her unique from other women. Easily humored.
I miss her a lot..I just wish that Ryan gets to know her.. I know deep down she will go crazy over Ryan.
Mommy, I love you..i still do.. Thank you for bringing me up...i know God Loves u more than i do..that's why U r up there with HIM forever.
I cherished all the good times that we had together and YOU are always my World Bestest Mother!

Happy Mother's Day, Mommy!
I LOVE YOU and GOD BLESS YOUR SOUL!


Nellie
A wonderful, sweet, helpful, humble, kind hearted lady. She is my ex-neighbor and she has helped me a lot when my MIL give me troubles.
She is like a mother to me in Canada.
She is still..
I love her...
I thank GOD for letting me have her in my life...

I love you and Happy Mother's Day, Nellie


Stepmother
She is my dad's gf who lives here in Canada. My relationship with her wasn't that good at first.
With God's blessing, our relationship grew better and better.
I know she couldn't replace my mom's place but she has a special place in my heart.
I appreciate for all the things she has done for me when i first came here and when my mil give me troubles.
She really treats me like her daughter. I appreciate her love for me.
I love her too.
HAPPY Mother's day, aunty..and God bless you!

THANK YOU!

Thank you Mamabok and all others who are giving me the supports and encouragements.
I appreciate and very touched!

I am okie... i just need to see things more positive i guess even though things and environment at home aren't so positive at all.
I can't change the people who is trying to bring me down...but i can try to save myself by avoiding her.
I praying hard for things to change...for GOD to make her realize that i am not a threat to her.
That's what she is thinking...and trying to annoyed me by doing childish things.
I am afraid she will ended like those old crazy woman..insecure..very insecure.

Mamabok, from the bottom of my heart, I thank you for understanding my situation,supporting and encouragement.

Grace, I thank you for your support, prayers, and encouragement.

To all moms out there who pray for me.. I thank you all...Bless you all kind hearted ppl!

what's new...

So much is going overhere..i am just keeping quiet about it and i am feeling tired, overwhelming, exhausted, worn out, annoyed, upset,... stresssed!

Yup... i just recently work on a questionnaire abt stress and guess where i stand... my stress level is on the dangerous zone..anytime i can burst out and become cook koo...
sighhhh.... i know i need to stay calm and stress free... heck..is easier to say than done eh..
tooo much for me already eh....

I bet u guys can guess where and what my problems are huh? hehehehe...same old ones...
nothing new..is just more and more to come and i am getting sick of it!
I just wish i can just run away and hide myself somewhere where no body can find me...
but on the other hand i have Ryan to take care.
I am hanging there...i am trying my very best here...u should see my panda eyes... getting darker each day eh..
i am soo stress out till i get insomnia...

I need a break from everything... coz rite now... i am a slave to everyone here..
I am no joking..i am serious.
No appreciation and nothing...just more shit for u to do!!

Vietnamese boy

My silly boy...trying out grandpa's Vietnamese hat.. Ryan said he looked handsome after wearing it. hehehehe
He even request me to take his picture..
:)

Bad weekend

Well, is the time of the month again... sigh..which i do not like at all..heck..every women hated it!
Furthermore i have my driving lessons today...i am soo exhausted and tired plus PMS is killing me!
To make it worst... the weather sux big time!
When can i see the warm and full sun again? WHEN?

Being nice or Smart?

Ryan is very smart and his brain is always in thinking mode... why? well, these are 2 situations that happened in separate days and makes me observed him and concluded what i just said..

Day 1

Nowadays, Ryan sleep with his daddy in Ryan's room...i guess Ryan miss his daddy soo much..so he has to sleep with his daddy.
One nite....Kit was snoring very loud..i could hear it even in my room.. Poor Ryan still not yet asleep at that time.. so, as i was trying my best to fall asleep with all the snoring noise from next door room..i heard Ryan trying to get out from the bed..
as he reaches the floor...daddy woke up and said

Daddy: Yau Zhen, heuy peen tou? ooi ooi ar ... (Yau Zhen, where are u going? come go to sleep)
Ryan: daddy mou wai ar... (daddy got no space here)
Daddy: Yau..lei la..ooi ooi ar( Got space..come n sleep)
Ryan: Daddy mou way ar...okie...mommy fun kor tou ... (Daddy got no space here...okie...going to mommy's room to sleep)

Day 2
Me: Kam mun nei fun peen tou? (Tonite where u going to sleep?)
Ryan: Daddy fun nnee tou (Sleeping with dadddy)

**** See how smart he is or being nice?... heheheh..he scaared to hurt his dadddy's feeling by telling daddy snored too loud....n i cannot sleep... instead..he just told his daddy that his daddy got no space to sleep in..
What a cheeky fella..


Scenerio 2
Well, in order to reward him to poop in the toilet..we told him he can have ice cream after he poop
so.last saturday we went to my Aunt's place in Toronto...and he didn't do his big business..
My aunt asked him wanna have ice cream or not.. he said...mei orr see ar (haven't bobo yet)
aweee..such a good boy here huh...well, my aunt said..is okie..today is special..u can have ur ice cream eventhough u have not bobo..

soo of course our boy here is happily jummping up and down...waiting for his ice cream
so when the ice cream came..he only ate 1 sppoon and said...mei or see ar...(not yet bo bo)
and didn't eat the rest of the ice cream..

we were like wooow...soo good? YA! right...well, he doesn't like the ice cream.. because my aunt's gave the scoop one ..and the ice cream on the bowl..
he doesn't like it..coz the one he used to eat at home are the ones with drumstick cone thingy...yea with nuts, chocolate , fudge..etc..
so he is just being nice by saying not yet bo bo instead of saying the ice cream taste no good..

Tak..tak.tak... emm koy sai

Its been awhile i update Ryan's speech ... well, he has improved a lot in his Cantonese...

Every time when i told him to do something or i do something for him he will say..

Tak..takk ..tak... emm koy sai.. (Cann..cann..can... thank you)

getting very matured these days...
Sometimes when i have to go to the bathroom, normally i will tell him...

Me: Yau Zhen, mommy hey chii sor ar (Yau Zhen, mommy go washroom okie?)

Ryan: Takk takk ... baby tang arrr..(Cann ..Can..baby wait here)

Isn't he cute or what?
hehehehe..cheeky little fella...

Daddy is planning to take him to the zoo next month...and we were talking about the animals like tiger, elephant, bears... monkeys..

Somehow, i dunno why..whenever we said we have to go to NoFrills (one of the grocery store here)...he will said

Ryan: heuy ahh fills, mai yue yuee, ar cheung, monkey, tigers ..okie? (go NoFrills..buy fish fish, elephant, monkey, tigers..okie?)

Mommy: ???! (wondering why he wants to buy all those thigns huh...must be the talk of the animals from the zzoo)

Done the essay!

WOhoooooooooooooo.... i have finished the essay for Psychology subject...which i a week late liao..hahhahha..i know i know...darn..getting lazy lately....and tired too.. ever since i see the weather getting warmer and warmer, i was like laundry crazy! hahaah..i wash and wash... as if like tomorrow will never have sun or something.. :)

Yup.. i just finished the essay like about 5 mins ago.. i can hand in on Thursday..or maybe tomorrow..depending whether Kit will drop me at the school or not.. will see.

Ai yo..the essay thing has been bugging me for weeks liao..couldn't force myself to do it...till just now..i have to drag my butt and force my rusty brain to think..
Phewwwwwww..finished already..felt soo good! :)

THursday will be an assessment for me...from the college...some essay, listening and reading test..
its been awhile liao...since i did that man...
i have to admit that i am getting old...
hehehe
wish me luck! :)

Half way there

I already got my CPR certificate...interesting knowledge...but my hand still hurts from all the compression i have to give to the dummies!
But i am very glad that i got the CPR thingy done...so i can scratch off one thing in my list..

I am in the process learning my driving... I really sucks at it...esp with my wheels.. so pai seh to said it overhere.. but what the hey, i will get it sooner or later.. I am booked to take my driving test at the end of May (actually it was supposed to be May 2nd, but i don't have the confidence at all, so switch to end of the month) ;)
Pls pray for me! I need all the prayers and blessing i can get on this!
I am serious.. i am a dangerous driver..coz i got panic whenever i made mistake.. :(

Anyway, i am still working on my high school diploma... gosh..tonite i have to burn midnite oil to finish the survey and essay on the psychology subject! WISH ME LUCK!

On top of everything, i am still doing okie...is just that my brain constantly in thinking mode all the time..
thinking of what are the things i have to do..
sigh.... seriously..i cannot help it.. on one hand i really pity my brain, on the other, i can't help it..
Maybe is because of my character, i want everything done..no mistake is allow!
Ha! i know that is bad...i need to learn how to be flexible..
that's how Kit is behaving..everything is calm..and i am the panic , crazy woman
hehehe what a perfect match huh? hehehhehe
well, what can u say for a "horse" myself and "rabbit" for kit :)

Toddler free...

Last weekend for the very first time we were toddler free...hahahah..yup Ryan agreed to follow PIL to Mississauga to SIL's place and overnight a nite..
Improvement huh? YA BABY!
I was very surprised when he agreed that he will behave and he wouldn't fuss looking for us at all..
We couldn't go because i have to go for CPR lesson on Sunday to get my certificate..it was a 9 am till 3 pm course..soo..busy weekend for me.

The secret on how and why Ryan can go without us is HOL (kit's younger bro), Ryan's fav uncle in the world!
Ha! i think he missed him alot coz we didn't visit SIL for almost a month...
Hol told me Ryan behaved great! he even pooped and peed the proper way :)
hahah poor HOL has to wipe his bum bum for the very first time..
mind u, Hol is young, bachelor and he is the youngest... I am very grateful Hol did everything for us..
He has been and always has help us...in everything.....

So, according to Mamabok, we are definitely seeing light at the end of the tunnel..hehehe
I am getting bit relax nowadays..coz Ryan really behave most of the time.. :)
THANK GOD!
AMEN!

Conversation with daddy...

Ryan is getting talkative these days...getting very mature to my surprise...

These conversations happened in different times and days...

We are having salsa with tostistos chips and all of a sudden Ryan said this

RYAN: (Giving his bottle of water to his daddy) Daddy arr yum sui ar ...yeet hey...bee boo bee boo..ouch ouch ar

Asking his daddy to drink water because i used to tell Ryan to drink lotsa water especially when he eat heaty food...
I told him if he didn't drink water..he will easily get fever..and ferbile seizure again..(like b4..which we have to call 911 and ended up in the hospital)

He amazed me by learning it soo fast and his memory very goo as well ! :)
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As we were watching tv, Dadddy asked Ryan to finished up his milky..

DAddy: Ryan, yum sai nen nen la (Ryan, finish ur milky..)
Daddy: You em u ching yeet hey ar? (need to heat it up or not?)
Ryan: em sai maa.. ok maa.. (no need)

Ryan uses a lot of those chinese "mmaa" at the end of his sentence..
i know..blame us..kekekek..typical malaysian habbit! :P
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Praise the Lord! He asked and did it!

Oh Lord! THank you! Hallelujah!
Ryan did it! This morning, after woke up, i let him pee and took off the night diaper..and he didn't ask to wear his training pants...and i didn't say anything..so he didn't wear his training pant at all..
around 9 plus in the morning, he asked me to bring him to pee! Oh my gosh...i thot he peeed on his pants already..but no wor..it was dry..
wohoooooooooo..
he did it..all day long he didn't wear his training pant..except during his nap time only..

The juicy part is..he even tell me that he wants to poop...YA BABY! I am seeing light here !
HAllelujah!
U r doing great my boy..mommy very proud of u!
I know u r good...
oh dear..no words can explain how excited and happy i am today eh :)

Guess what MIL said ...hah!

Me: Ryan knows how to pee liao...he asked for it
MIL: ohh? Good la..don't say it out loud... and don't talk abt it..later he hears it..he won't do it anymore..

Me:???!!!!

*got such a thing meh?*

NO COMMENT!

need to check all the time

I have to ask Ryan several times a day that whether he wants to poop or not..if he does..tell mommy....
then i will bring him to the toilet bowl with his own toilet seat thingy..

So far.. he still wont tell me when he poop...always i have to check on him..
sometimes..he already poop halfway in the training pant...then i have to carry him over to the toilet bowl for him to sit..n finish it off his big business..

Is getting better now..i really hope he will be fully trained by next year!

As for pee pee...still..need to remind him all the time..he doesn't know how to tell u that he wants to pee..

i have to be patient... sabar....is the key of success..in training him...

PIL blame me for not training him since baby... n of course..MIL will give me the look again...
actually i am used to it all liao..
no comment on what they are doing to me rite now..dun wish to comment at all..
Let it be..as long as ..my Ryan, Kit and myself are happy, healthy and things going our way..
i am very happy! that's my main concern..the rest.. i dun care!

i am all set!

The interview went alrite...but it was not the job that i expected...doing admin job. Oh well, they said they will call me by the end of this week if i am the rite candidate.
I am like err...if they hire me..okie..not the job that i wanted..but no harm trying..least can get some income coming in b4 i starts school...if not..it will be great for me..coz i can finish off my high school diploma without any delay and have more time with Ryan b4 i starts schoool.
As for the financial part, i am trying to apply for the government loan as well as some college bursaries and grants..if i am eligible.
will see how it goes..

I have called up some driving schools...and got one who provide hourly basis driving lessons..with a not bad deal..so..will start driving this Saturday...
I have registered my CPR course yesterday..which will start April 15.
So, i am all set now..
butttttt..still i am very worried..i worried things does not go my way or going rite...i worrie a lot of stuff here..

Honestly, i am a big worrier..i worried a lot..and worried everything. I cannot calm myself down..in fact..i worried since morning already..
till now..my head is pounding... i stress out now...of what? i dunno! that's the thing..
I scared, i am not in the rite path... i am not doing the rite thing..

Guess what happened during weekend? MIL got offer a job ...that allows her to work daily for 5 days a week and pay more than current job. Current job is not stable..if they need her..they will call her to work..sometimes..work for 3 days/week.
She is soo tempted to grab that offer..but fearing by Sept..she might have to stop as she promise me to take care of Ryan..
sooo...during Weekend... she hinted us alot of times..that she prefer working than taking care of Ryan..
there she goes...we might have to look for day care for Ryan...is not a problem..but is going to be very tough for us...financially and physically..
Seriously, i dunno what she wants from us....
i really dunno eh....if she is not working ..when she stays home that time..she always give me the look!
the look of unhappiness... kinda treat me as a punching bag...that i cause her to stay home.

So, i am kinda having this feeling..that she might give us problems when i start school.

NOw..tell me...do i have millions of reason to get worry and stress out here?

I really dunno here... i am doomed! i am speechless...!

Call me crazy...or not?

Well, i just received a phone call from a company i applied for a job last Friday..hahah..yea..i know i know..i am going to school soon..n still i look for job..
well, if i get this job..(interview this monday),working hours will be 5.30 pm till 9.30 pm..
doing clerical and data entry job..not bad hor...pay is minimum wage la..but least can cover some expenses for the school..

I know is going to be tough for me.. I pray hard GOD will give me all the strength i need in the world :)
will see how..if it works well, i am happy..if not.. i am happy too..either ways work for me! :)

What to do....?

I am very upset and do not know what to do now... .. Ryan is already 3 years 2 months old... still not completely potty trained. He is going to school next year eh..
I know it takes time...
That's not what i am upset about..
What i am upset about is... the way PIL giving him the negative way of teaching.. :(
Instead of positive encouragement, they will said.. u r useless ar..so big already ..still do not know how to pee or poop .... we don't love u anymore if u do not know to peep or ppoop..

I biting my tongue whenever they said that to Ryan. I knew in my heart..Ryan will eventually know how to go to toilet and do it. I am really upset the way how their traditional way of giving fear to children. I totally not agree with that..

The worst part is...MIL will be taking care of Ryan soon...i do not wish Ryan to grow up in such teaching.. :(

so what to do? tell her off? ha! Imposible to do that.... she is one sensitive, superior woman....always thought her ways are always the rite way...n for me to tell her what to do?
is like volcano erupting eh...so how? headache now for me...emotional drained for me now..i am still working on my high school diploma...it really tears me apart when i am studying and mil wathching him...sotimes i felt like just stop studying and go back to my full time mom job...can i?? i am torn apart! I already spend less time with Ryan while i am studying only the high school diploma subjects..what abt when i start full time college ??
Sighhhhhhhhhhhh... how? tell me how?

I am praying hard...very hard...that GOD will watch over RYan for me when i am not with him.
Oh GOD...Please..watch over RYan for me..touch his heart...touch my in-laws...please control the things that they said...
Sealed my family with love patience and harmony.. no negative words!
Let them speak with only LOVE..YOUR WORDS..oh LORD..THANK YOU...
AMEN!

Post for mommy ?

Yau Zhen, please post for mummy okie? Since u just came out from shower, smelling nice and looking so handsome...........

What should i do NEXT?

What should i do next...

1) need to find some driving intructors to teach hourly and get my license
2) enroll in CPR class and get the certificate b4 school starts
3) get the high school diploma b4 school starts in sept.. (which i am slacking soo much now)

Gorgeous day....

Wow...today is awesome...10 degrees celcious outside eh...we opened all the windows..and i wash 2 loads of laundry and dry it outside... felt like Spring is here.. :)
Tomorrow is going t be warmer..12 degrees but..is going to rain :(
But after that...when friday comes..the tempreature is going to drop again to below 0 degrees..what a roller coaster tempreature here eh...

But me no complaint..i am going to enjoy today the fullest...didn't go out...but least i get some fresh air! :)

I got it! I got it ! They accept me!

PRAISE THE LORD! I AM IN! PRACTICAL NURSING ...here i come!
Wohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
I just called the lady again..and she said.. i got an offer...all i need to do now is to confirm with OCAS..another agency or i dunno what they call..on monday!
THank you FATHER..Thank you JESUS..for blessing me! THANK U ..

no words can describe how happy i am now...i can dance naked now...wohoooooooooooooooooooooooooo! oawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..! yeeeeeeee haaaaaaaawwwwww!
: ))))))))))))))))))))
that's my smile..as wide as it can be :)

ArghhhH!

If i can scream it as loud as i can... I WILLL!

The frustration has increase more and more.... the waiting time is killing me!

Check the college website for the news yesterday nite...something appear differently...
under the offer status ...it stated *FINAL OFFER* and under the due date of confirmation..it stated MAY 1st 2007

what does that mean? I was jumping freakingly happy yesterday nite..thought tht they have accepted me...
but the word FINAL OFFER gives me some eerie thoughts...telling me that's not the answer!
I called the lady..the admission officer...she told me..the same thing she told me last week..
they haven't make the decision yet! call next week!
OH gosh!
Next week on the 13th ..is the college information nite...all applicants are encourage to go..

NOw.. i am still not sure i am accepted or not...FOR Crying out loud!!!!
I AM SOOO FRUSTRATED here...

now u can understand why i dare to pose the my pic up huh? when u r stress out..i dare to do anything..hahaahahha..
they are driving me nuts!

self posing picture....

Hey..now very popular hor that everyone will pose their very own picture...
hai sey... these are two example pictures ..
*my sis is going to kill me for this post*

first and second pic is two different person..guess which one is my sis...

****the first picture has to be taken out ...coz..pai seh la...later that lady will kill me eh...according to my sis**** hahahahhahahaahhahaah








Soooo.... i thought...i also wanna try one of my very own pose....somemore with ala angelina jolie style..except that this is piggy angelina jolie ler..

Pirate Capture!

Is this kid been captured and knock out?


Nahhhhhhhhhhh........


Ryan requested Yeh Yeh tie him like this and push that little car around the house..he played till he got so tired..and dun even wanna get up from the car...
all of a sudden..he just dozed off ..just like that!

People sure think that we torture RYan huh..kekekekke...

Orr See...thooum....thooum...

This is what we told RYan to do everyday....Orr See ...Thooum...thooumm.... (boo boo and thooum thoooum-shit fall into the toilet bowl)

I am trying so hard to train him to pee and ppoop in the toilet bowl..so far pee pee is no problem..but need constant reminding...as for the poop..ai yo..with bribing and singing and playing..all no work..
Yeh Yeh..bribe him with Pringles chips (his fav) ..if he pee pee he got 2 chips...and poop got 5 chips...still not working..

Just now..i was reading newspaper..and all of a sudden..RYan is no where to be seen...hmmm...and i heard this "Hmmmhpppppppph...Hmmppppph" someone is in the process of "khek sai" (getting out his shit) at the staircase..hiding..
Walau..me rushing upstairs and carry him down..and strip him down and put him on the toilet seat..
Woah..bit struggle htere...but THANK GOD! it was a success! He did it! FINALLY!
hahahaahah
oh boy..everyone is happy...RYan got his 5 chips as promised! and i dun have throw his smelly traning pants in the garbage bin..ai yo..!

Yeh Yeh and me

Steamboat

We had steamboat yesterday nite...PIL came back from Mississauga with tons of goodies from the asian store overthere... my fridge is soo full!
I miss steamboat back home in Penang..we usually have it every reunion dinner... but overhere..the Loo's family only have it when someone's birthday or get together..soo much different from my family back in Penang.

Steamboat here is soo different...they dun have a variety of balls...like fish balls, meat balls, sotong balls, ...and the meat balls here doesn't really taste good.

Steamboat here practically followed the hong kong style, they have their very own sarcha sauce...where u mix with one raw egg, hoisin sauce and siracha chili sauce....at first , i felt not very comfy with the raw egg in it..but now... "boh hue..hare pung hoo" meaning no fish, prawn also will do la... some hokkien saying ..no complain so much...be thankful..something like that..coz i can't demand so much eh...limited resources here eh..

I better dun complain soo much..especially i get to eat some chili sauce...if not Mamabok will knock my head eh..kekekeke

Anyway, it was a quite dinner yet simple and nice.. :)

MIL back to work today... so today i have to cook...lazy to study ..FIL is babysitting RYan..

He is soo attach to his grandpa whenever daddy is not around..kekekeke..like i said..mommy's role here is to discipline him..coz RYan has 3 ppl to spoil him..
so i cannot afford to spoil him anymore..someone has to take up the dirty job here..
what to do..
I am sure..he will thank me later when he grew up :)
As for now... he will think mummy is no fun at all ha!

3 more days ....

Counting the days eh.... no mood to study at all..couldn' concentrate at all... 3 more days in order to know the result...
Sigh....time flies so slow when it comes to waiting eh..

Ryan 's coversation

Ryan has grown soo much and i have been busy to post his update. The following are his daily conversation with us:

This happened in Ikea long time ago..i dun even remember the date. As u all know that Ikea do sell frozen yogurt for CND$0.75 ..after we have paid for the stuff we bought from Ikea..we had some yogurt at the cafe b4 we check out.
Ryan loves the yogurt! not only kids eh..this big mama loves it too..hahahaa
Anyway..this is what happened after i bought the yogurt..

Kit: Yau Zhen, daddy wai nei shek, hou mou? (Yau Zhen (RYan's chinese name), daddy feed you, ok or not?)

Ryan: Baby wai (Baby feed : he likes to call himself baby)

Kit: Moi la...cheen kan nei sheek dou yucky yucky....(dun want la, later u ate till ur clothes got dirty)

Both Daddy and son struggle to hold the yogurt ..till Ryan got upset.

Ryan ran over in the middle of aisle in IKEA and standing back facing us and said

RYAN : Baby lau ar! (baby angry ar!) *he even showed his face angrily eh....

US: LOL!

yup..he learned from us as in getting angry..coz everytime when we asked Ryan to do something..he refuses and we said..mommy lau ar..daddy lau ar..mahmah lau ..yeh yeh lau ar..

This is another conversation...

Mommy: Baby mou pah kou kou ar..cheen kan nei teet tou ..awe em chi ar (baby, don't climb high high, later u fell , i dunno eh )

Ryan: Yau Zhen em hai baby eh...Yau Zhen boy arr!

MOMMY: ???!!

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Mommy : Yau Zhen, wan sheet sheet mou? (Ryan, do u want to go play snow?)

Ryan: Tong tong ar! Peng peng ar...dai doctor ar (cold cold ar, sick sick ar , see doctor)

Mommy: CHeok dor di sum la...kam yat em tong ar...(bundle up and today is not that cold)

Ryan: Tong tong ar...dai fong ar...baby ook kei ar (cold cold ar...windy ar...baby stay inside house)

Mommy : Okie..mommy chuk hey wan shuet ..baby heong ok kei ..okie? (okie, mommy go outside play snow and baby stay inside house, okie?)

Ryan: Baby wan shuet ar...(fussing and said baby go play snow)

Ryan loves to play the good side or role..or what we call...playing opposite... whenever ...i let play snow or play water in the bath tub..he will act soo good and said..that is too cold..like copy what i told him b4!

Kek sei awe ar ..khi see wa ar (*slap my head*)

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Ryan loves his daddy very much..every morning he has to get up and say bye bye ...hug hug kiss kiss..his daddy b4 daddy can leave the house...
and mummy here..chia lat...dun really wanna get up around 6 am eh... ai yo...
but my lil king sure know the time...is like an alarm clock build inside him...

Daddy: Yau Zhen ..kuai kuai ar..daddy you fun kong ar..wan cheen wan cheen ar..(Ryan be good ar, daddy has to go to work and earn money)

Ryan : Fussing and cried a little bit

Daddy: Daddy you fun kong, wan cheen cheen..mai choo choo pei Yau Zhen (daddy has to go to work to earn money to buy baby choo choo (thomas and friends train))

Ryan : Gives daddy huggies and kisses..

After seeing daddy off..and Ryan said this:

Ryan: Dadddy fun kong ...cheen mai choo choo (daddy goes to work...money buy chooo chooo (thomas and friends train)

What a birthday!

Turning thirty two does not bring a good start for Kit at all. Yesterday was Kit's birthday and we had everything planned out. We were supposed to have KFC family meal (my treat)...and FIL already bought a Black Forest cake from asian store downtown..and even some candles too. I even taught Ryan how to wish and sing his daddy Happy Birthday.

It did not end up good at all...when the snow storm started around noon time yesterday. We had pretty bad weather yesterday again...started with heavy snow non-stop couple with strong gusty wind..then around 2 pm Kit called home asking how was the situation in Hamilton...i told him it was snowing heavily and he told me that his boss told him that if he wanted to go home ..he can do so... I was soo excited when he told me that he could come home early .... (i guess not)

Around 3 pm..Kit called n told me his car slided and went into a ditch.. :( The worst part was he was at the middle of nowhere in Campbleville...not even one soul..except some truck pass by...So i was soo scared and worried and asked him to call CAA or go ask for help..n i dun want to talk long on the phone..coz he needed the cell phone.
I was praying hard...and MIL worried too..kept telling me to call so and soo...walau..made me even more worried...i couldn't think at all...
THank GOD..i calmed myself down..and start to surf around looking for tow services...
after abt 20 minutes i gave Kit a call again..he told me there was a truck pass by and gave a ride to a nearest CAA ...phewwwwwwwwwww... PRAISE THE LORD!

To make the story short... Kit ended up staying over at SIL's place and left his car at CAA garage...coz his radiator broke..and will cost him abt 400 bucks to fix it...woah! we dun have such money to pay eh...so...Kit decided to to leave the car there first and called a taxi to SIL's place..and today...FIL and myself went to buy a new radiator..cost abt 198 bucks... and FIL and Kit are fixing it rite now at SIL's garage (This morning kit and Sil's hubby went to tow the car back from yesterday's CAA's garage- cost kit another 30 bucks..)

SO turning 32 has cost KIT about : tow the car out from ditch $100
: drove the car from the ditch to CAA's garage $50
: check the car..found our the radiator broke..$ 50
: taxi $35
: tow car from CAA's garage to SIL's place $22
: new radiator $225 (included taxes)

so... chit ching! there goes our income tax return money...out and go..hahahaha..

I am not complaining here..I am soo glad that KIT is safe! God really answered my prayers yesterday! I am very thankful! :)